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I havent written in here in awhile I guess Ive been using my personal paper and pen journal more then my blogs in myspace I dunno... theres years worth of my life written in here so many time of me saying it's so bad but it wasent nothing compares to this the problems with DCF & The Police.. the reason why the problems are there.. then this whole ( Read more... )

Not to much to say today Im doing good me and ashley worked alot of shit out.. I really care about her and would do almost anything to prove that to her... I get to babysit tala every so often which kicks ass I luv her she's so cute and also I have new pics of my adorable kids they rawks!!!!

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Im about to fucking snap... I fucking hate this.. Im sick I feel like shit and because I didnt want my daughter stuck in her crib till late Im the one who pays for it... FUCK THIS!!! I want to sedate myself I want to fall asleep and not wake up for a long time... does that matter to anyone??? of course not... why would it my boyfriend could care ( Read more... )

My life is still a roller coaster of emotions but I want to talk about my son.. my adorable perfect lil boy.. he is an angel.. he is so perfect he makes me smile.. I don't know how I managed to make to perfect babies Im so proud of them draven is so fucking strong holding his head up from birth he already rolled over.. he eats like a champ yet ( Read more... )

I just want to be a good mother ( Read more... )

I have a fuckin spliting headache....
just when I think everything is great it fucks up again
I feel like such shit and it just keeps getting worse...
I wish my meds would work...
Ive been trying so hard not to let shit show to my mom...
I feel like Im gonna loose it... lets hope it dosent happen or that I can hold it in till she leaves..

It's been 2 weeks since Ive had Draven and Im loving every minute of being with him ( Read more... )

I forgot how sleep dosent exsist when you have a newborn.. I really don't mind as much as I would think I would... I love being awake for him I nap in between here and there... i finally got my tooth pulled.. they did sedate me but I was still awake and it was the weirdest feeling I have ever felt ( Read more... )

I think Im kinda getting used to the no sleep thing.. I sleep when I can which is an hour or 2 here or there... normally when he actually does sleep for a long time is when Im wide awake and when Im feeling like death because my body needs sleep is when he wants to be held and awake and alert I love it when he's awake even if he does have bad ( Read more... )