I can’t remember the last time I hugged someone and really meant it. I can’t remember the last time I told my mom or dad I loved them. The thought of those words coming out of my mouth… looking into their eyes, being sincere, is embarrassing. Everyday I can see the depression welling up inside my mom… her hurt and disappointment with life clearly ( Read more... )

So.

Here's the deal.

As you may have heard.

In less than 2 months I am taking off... wherever... whenever...

along with a few others... YOU [if you want].

June 10th. It's a sunday.

I can't continue to live my life the way i've been living it.

Spouting "radical" ideas while everyday i go and work for...

THE MAN.

so to speak.

My life is now...

and i've ( Read more... )

me: both of them! lets not forget i'm no where near over him. so now its like double abandonment! i don't understand. it makes me feel like i'm a fucking horrible person... like wtf did i do to them? wtf is wrong with me? why the fuck do they get to be fine with never talking to me and i have to fucking suffer? i don't understand

Jessica: I know i ( Read more... )

Since i effectively missed new years by going to bed at 9 o'clock, i've decided to re-do it. more or less. Mostly i've decided to make some resolutions. Which i don't really do... ever. It's kind of setting yourself up for failure and everytime i've made a resolution in life i regret it.  Well, i don't really regret it, i just never really follow ( Read more... )

I think I feel a little hurt ( Read more... )

I fucking hate people. I hate that no one knows how to be honest. It's not fucking hard.

They're all fucking assholes.

I'm done. and i give up.

I don't care anymore.

I'm getting out of this motherfucking cycle where all i do is fucking hurt myself because i trust in another person.

I'm tired of being hopeful only to be fucking crushed.

I don't get to be ( Read more... )

I tried to find someone, someone who knew, somebody to give myself to. I learned the hard way, when you give yourself away you give away your life too. Nowhere to run from myself, nowhere to hide from the truth.

It's hard enough I know just to feel your own pain ( Read more... )

Well you can fight or you can run ( Read more... )

I keep having nightmares. Which is so unlike me. Usually my dreams are fucking awesome fantasies that i get to live out... and then i wake up and realize how much my life fucking sucks ass ( Read more... )