The Reverse Crush Conundrum - Chapter Four
Title: The Reverse Crush Conundrum - Chapter Four
Fandom: The Big Bang Theory
Pairing: Sheldon & Penny
Author: Lizwontcry
Rating: Mature for sexy times.
Summary: Everyone was so focused on Leonard's crush on Penny that her all-consuming crush on Sheldon goes unnoticed. When Sheldon finds out about her feelings, they go on an emotional and physical journey neither of them saw coming.
Disclaimer: I got nothin'.
Chapter one
Chapter two
Chapter three
When they got back to the apartment, Penny was expecting maybe, at best, a good-night kiss. But when they arrived at her door, Sheldon looked at her impatiently. Penny may not have been as smart as Sheldon, but she knew when a man wanted to come inside after a date.
"Well, Sheldon, do you want to come in for some coffee?"
He started to tell her he didn't drink coffee, but then he thought about it for a minute. Finally, he said, "Is that some kind of euphemism for coitus?"
Penny snorts. "I don't know, why don't you come in and see?"
"Penny, I..." He stops. And looks confused.
"It's okay, sweetie. I'm not going to attack you the minute we walk in the door. I have your best interests at heart, believe me. Come in, okay? I'm not ready for the date to end."
"I suppose I wouldn't mind prolonging the evening," he said, and she shook her head while she unlocked the door.
Penny made them some hot chocolate and they sat in their respective seats, at least at first. Penny thought it was a little ridiculous, but she knew he was probably gathering the nerve to initiate what they both couldn't stop thinking about for the past week and a half. Time. He needed time. She would not be impatient. She would give him time.
They watched a Voyager rerun silently and Penny found herself tuning out. Instead she thought about the things she wanted to do to Sheldon Cooper immediately in her bedroom. She always knew she was kind of a horny person by nature, but lately it was nonstop. And merely at the thought of one single person; a man who had previously driven her so crazy she daydreamed particularly exciting scenarios where she murdered him in his sleep.
While she was deep in thought, she felt a thud next to her on the sofa. Sheldon had finally decided to sit next to her. She smiled at him and put her hand on his thigh. He didn't move it. He didn't flinch. Moving right along here, she thought.
Just as Janeway was figuring out the headaches that were plaguing her so often were the work of an alien sticking invisible needles in her head, Sheldon took her hand. She put her head on his shoulder. If she closed her eyes, it was just like he was a real boyfriend.
"Penny?"
"Sheldon?"
"I find myself wanting to kiss you right now."
"Are you asking my permission, or..."
"I'm just finding it fascinating that I'm having these feelings. It's a normal social convention to go on an outing to a mutual agreed upon restaurant and then come back and kiss, right?"
Penny stared at him for a second before remembering that he was basically an alien when it came to dating. He and Amy's idea of a good date was reading passages from their latest studies over Skype.
"Yes, honey, it's normal." Now shut up and kiss me, for fuck's sake.
"Fascinating." And then he kissed her. It was a better kiss than all the other kisses combined. He's been thinking about this one, Penny thought. Planning it. He put his hands on her face and kissed her so gently at first that she couldn't help but moan. A little moaning seemed to go a long way with Sheldon, because he deepened the kiss, and sooner or later they were completely connected and Penny didn't even know if she existed in this earthly realm anymore.
After 23 minutes of the most intense kissing she'd ever experienced-and yes, she looked at the clock to verify that-he pulled away and took a deep breath.
"Damn it, Sheldon!"
"What?" He looked alarmed. "Did I harm you in some way?"
"No! You're just...really good at that. The kissing."
He chuckled. "Penny, you should know that about me by now. When I set out to do something, I will succeed."
"Cocky. I like it." She didn't really like it that much, actually, but she figured he could use the encouragement.
"For the record, I think that you are also quite adept at kissing. Amy kissed me a few times but I didn't derive any pleasure from it. I am fascinated by how different it feels with you."
Penny felt a sudden pang of sadness for her sweet friend Amy. At the same time, she was delighted he felt that way.
"Well, sweetie, can I offer an explanation as to why you feel that way?"
"Of course, I would love to hear your thoughts."
"Maybe...maybe it's because you've known me longer and you feel more comfortable around me? And perhaps you, um, have stronger feelings towards me than you did with Amy?" She knew she was probably crossing a line here, but she couldn't help it. Sometimes a girl needed a little validation.
"Hmm, interesting. I suppose those are all valid theories." And that was all she was getting from him.
And then there was more kissing. While she loved the kissing and could probably do it all night, Penny had a few ideas for where to take this show on the road next. These plans included what she was good at. But he was so new to this and she was okay with letting him lead the way with whatever he was comfortable with, at least for now. Hopefully in the future he'd loosen up. Penny chuckled at the thought of Sheldon loosening up.
To her surprise, Sheldon finally detached himself from her lips and stood up. He pulled her up from the sofa and led her to the bedroom. She giggled happily.
Penny managed to have a productive week full of friends and work and possibly a new job, but always lingering in her brain (and her heart. And her groin.) was the thought of Sheldon Cooper in her bed. The way he touched her. The way they moved together. His lack of experience and his thirst for consuming her. She couldn't stop thinking about it. And now they were back, and he was kissing her and touching her and she was taking his shirt off and he was taking her pants off and more kissing and touching and she couldn't imagine anything ever being more frustrating and delicious at the same time.
"Penny..."
"Oh god, Sheldon, what?" She didn't mean to sound impatient, but she wished he would just do what he wanted to do instead of asking her. It kind of ruined the moment, as impossible as that was.
"I want...I want something."
"Just tell me what it is, sweetie, okay? Don't be shy. It's me. I won't judge you."
"I want to see you touch yourself."
Oh. She didn't see that one coming. But now he'd be the one to see her coming.
Instead of responding, she just opened her legs for him. He moved to have a better view. Silently, she did as he asked, watching him closely, wanting to know what this was doing to him. It was making her so wet, having him study her like that, with bright-eyed fascination and lust. It was almost (almost) better than sex.
Right as she was about to make herself come, he took over. Sheldon mimicked the way she was touching herself and then she knew why he asked. It was so he could pleasure her more efficiently. Well, it worked, and his fingers brought her to the brink over and over and over.
"Oh...Sheldon...please...I can't take it anymore. Please..."
"What do you want me to do?" He whispered-but not in a confused way. In a carnal way. A forceful way. Like he was demanding she tell him what she wanted.
"I want you inside me."
"You want what?"
"Fuck me, Sheldon. I want you to fuck me."
"Well, you just had to ask nicely, Penny."
And then they were having sex for the second time. And he didn't even need help with the condom. Again, it took a minute or two for him to figure out what he was doing, but soon he was right at home. In between shrieks of intense pleasure, Penny couldn't help but think how surreal this all still was. Since when did Sheldon talk like that? Since when was he able to completely toss all his inhibitions aside and talk to her so dirty? Kurt never even talked to her like that. This was weird and strange and holy balls did it turn her on like crazy.
When it was over, and it was not over quickly, they lay together holding hands. Penny was satisfied and exhausted and happy and confused. Yes, the sex was good and she was proud of Sheldon for getting out of his comfort zone to experiment with her. But her feelings for him were more than just sexual. Sometimes she thought maybe his feelings didn't go beyond that.
"Sheldon?"
"Penny?"
"Will you spend the night with me?" She already knew the answer, but he needed to know it was what she wanted.
He hesitated before he answered. Penny could tell he was trying to think of a white lie to cushion the blow, and she didn't appreciate it.
"You can just tell me that you'd rather not. Let's be honest with each other. It's easier that way.
"Duly noted. I would rather go back to my own apartment so that I can take a shower and wake up in my own bed, so that my morning routine isn't dramatically altered."
"What if I spent the night with you, then?"
Sheldon grasped her hand. His hand was cold when she thought it would be hot.
"I'm not sure that would be prudent until Leonard is up to speed on our situation."
It was funny how soon Penny went from being in the throes of passion with this man to wanting to pull his fingernails out one by one.
"Do you picture yourself ever wanting to spend the night with me?"
"Yes. Someday."
"I see."
He didn't bother trying to explain himself and she was grateful. If he told her to give him more time again, or if he said he's still trying to process this, or that it was an experiment and it was still in process, she wouldn't be responsible for her actions. She didn't want to be that girl-Penny was never that girl. The one who nagged to get what she wanted. That wasn't her and she never wanted it to be. But he was making her feel all kinds of things she'd never felt before. At that moment, in her bed, after what was probably the best sex of her entire life, she wondered if he was bringing out the worst in her while she was bringing out the best in him.
It was awkward. It shouldn't have been awkward.
"This is awkward," Sheldon said.
"Yeah. It is."
"Maybe it's time to terminate this experiment."
"What? Sheldon, why would you want to do that?"
"While I'm enjoying the sexual component of the arrangement we're engaging in, I can see that you need more than that. And I want to give it to you, but I don't know how capable I am of doing so. And Penny? I don't ever want to be the guy who disappoints you. You deserve more than that."
Ughhh. How did he do it?
"Oh, sweetie, you aren't disappointing me. Look, if we all gave up on relationships when the first sign of trouble presented itself, no couple would ever make it past the first month. We have some obstacles, but I think it's worth giving it a shot. But if you don't think it's worth it, I'd rather you tell me now before I become any more emotionally invested." Which was practically impossible at this point, but he didn't need to know that.
"Penny, as much as I've tried to talk myself out of it, I find you utterly irresistible, adorable, desirable, charming...before you came along, I was convinced my life was perfectly reasonable and I didn't need the comfort and complications a female companion would bring to it. But now I can't see a scenario where you being absent from my life would have a positive outcome. So yes, I think it's worth it, and thank you for your extreme patience when it comes to my social and romantic ineptitude."
Well, that was about as much romance as she could expect from him. But it was enough, and she loved him for it, and she knew she was in deep trouble, and this was probably not going to end well but she was sure as fuck going to go down trying.
"For what it's worth, thank you for trying so hard for me. It means a lot and it doesn't go unnoticed. I will try to be more patient."
"Fair enough." He leaned over and kissed her one more time. It took her breath away how good he was at making her forget just how insane he was making her.
Soon, Sheldon was gone and Penny was alone. Someday they'd figure this out. He was her Dr. Whack-a-Doodle. They had to figure it out.
Fandom: The Big Bang Theory
Pairing: Sheldon & Penny
Author: Lizwontcry
Rating: Mature for sexy times.
Summary: Everyone was so focused on Leonard's crush on Penny that her all-consuming crush on Sheldon goes unnoticed. When Sheldon finds out about her feelings, they go on an emotional and physical journey neither of them saw coming.
Disclaimer: I got nothin'.
Chapter one
Chapter two
Chapter three
When they got back to the apartment, Penny was expecting maybe, at best, a good-night kiss. But when they arrived at her door, Sheldon looked at her impatiently. Penny may not have been as smart as Sheldon, but she knew when a man wanted to come inside after a date.
"Well, Sheldon, do you want to come in for some coffee?"
He started to tell her he didn't drink coffee, but then he thought about it for a minute. Finally, he said, "Is that some kind of euphemism for coitus?"
Penny snorts. "I don't know, why don't you come in and see?"
"Penny, I..." He stops. And looks confused.
"It's okay, sweetie. I'm not going to attack you the minute we walk in the door. I have your best interests at heart, believe me. Come in, okay? I'm not ready for the date to end."
"I suppose I wouldn't mind prolonging the evening," he said, and she shook her head while she unlocked the door.
Penny made them some hot chocolate and they sat in their respective seats, at least at first. Penny thought it was a little ridiculous, but she knew he was probably gathering the nerve to initiate what they both couldn't stop thinking about for the past week and a half. Time. He needed time. She would not be impatient. She would give him time.
They watched a Voyager rerun silently and Penny found herself tuning out. Instead she thought about the things she wanted to do to Sheldon Cooper immediately in her bedroom. She always knew she was kind of a horny person by nature, but lately it was nonstop. And merely at the thought of one single person; a man who had previously driven her so crazy she daydreamed particularly exciting scenarios where she murdered him in his sleep.
While she was deep in thought, she felt a thud next to her on the sofa. Sheldon had finally decided to sit next to her. She smiled at him and put her hand on his thigh. He didn't move it. He didn't flinch. Moving right along here, she thought.
Just as Janeway was figuring out the headaches that were plaguing her so often were the work of an alien sticking invisible needles in her head, Sheldon took her hand. She put her head on his shoulder. If she closed her eyes, it was just like he was a real boyfriend.
"Penny?"
"Sheldon?"
"I find myself wanting to kiss you right now."
"Are you asking my permission, or..."
"I'm just finding it fascinating that I'm having these feelings. It's a normal social convention to go on an outing to a mutual agreed upon restaurant and then come back and kiss, right?"
Penny stared at him for a second before remembering that he was basically an alien when it came to dating. He and Amy's idea of a good date was reading passages from their latest studies over Skype.
"Yes, honey, it's normal." Now shut up and kiss me, for fuck's sake.
"Fascinating." And then he kissed her. It was a better kiss than all the other kisses combined. He's been thinking about this one, Penny thought. Planning it. He put his hands on her face and kissed her so gently at first that she couldn't help but moan. A little moaning seemed to go a long way with Sheldon, because he deepened the kiss, and sooner or later they were completely connected and Penny didn't even know if she existed in this earthly realm anymore.
After 23 minutes of the most intense kissing she'd ever experienced-and yes, she looked at the clock to verify that-he pulled away and took a deep breath.
"Damn it, Sheldon!"
"What?" He looked alarmed. "Did I harm you in some way?"
"No! You're just...really good at that. The kissing."
He chuckled. "Penny, you should know that about me by now. When I set out to do something, I will succeed."
"Cocky. I like it." She didn't really like it that much, actually, but she figured he could use the encouragement.
"For the record, I think that you are also quite adept at kissing. Amy kissed me a few times but I didn't derive any pleasure from it. I am fascinated by how different it feels with you."
Penny felt a sudden pang of sadness for her sweet friend Amy. At the same time, she was delighted he felt that way.
"Well, sweetie, can I offer an explanation as to why you feel that way?"
"Of course, I would love to hear your thoughts."
"Maybe...maybe it's because you've known me longer and you feel more comfortable around me? And perhaps you, um, have stronger feelings towards me than you did with Amy?" She knew she was probably crossing a line here, but she couldn't help it. Sometimes a girl needed a little validation.
"Hmm, interesting. I suppose those are all valid theories." And that was all she was getting from him.
And then there was more kissing. While she loved the kissing and could probably do it all night, Penny had a few ideas for where to take this show on the road next. These plans included what she was good at. But he was so new to this and she was okay with letting him lead the way with whatever he was comfortable with, at least for now. Hopefully in the future he'd loosen up. Penny chuckled at the thought of Sheldon loosening up.
To her surprise, Sheldon finally detached himself from her lips and stood up. He pulled her up from the sofa and led her to the bedroom. She giggled happily.
Penny managed to have a productive week full of friends and work and possibly a new job, but always lingering in her brain (and her heart. And her groin.) was the thought of Sheldon Cooper in her bed. The way he touched her. The way they moved together. His lack of experience and his thirst for consuming her. She couldn't stop thinking about it. And now they were back, and he was kissing her and touching her and she was taking his shirt off and he was taking her pants off and more kissing and touching and she couldn't imagine anything ever being more frustrating and delicious at the same time.
"Penny..."
"Oh god, Sheldon, what?" She didn't mean to sound impatient, but she wished he would just do what he wanted to do instead of asking her. It kind of ruined the moment, as impossible as that was.
"I want...I want something."
"Just tell me what it is, sweetie, okay? Don't be shy. It's me. I won't judge you."
"I want to see you touch yourself."
Oh. She didn't see that one coming. But now he'd be the one to see her coming.
Instead of responding, she just opened her legs for him. He moved to have a better view. Silently, she did as he asked, watching him closely, wanting to know what this was doing to him. It was making her so wet, having him study her like that, with bright-eyed fascination and lust. It was almost (almost) better than sex.
Right as she was about to make herself come, he took over. Sheldon mimicked the way she was touching herself and then she knew why he asked. It was so he could pleasure her more efficiently. Well, it worked, and his fingers brought her to the brink over and over and over.
"Oh...Sheldon...please...I can't take it anymore. Please..."
"What do you want me to do?" He whispered-but not in a confused way. In a carnal way. A forceful way. Like he was demanding she tell him what she wanted.
"I want you inside me."
"You want what?"
"Fuck me, Sheldon. I want you to fuck me."
"Well, you just had to ask nicely, Penny."
And then they were having sex for the second time. And he didn't even need help with the condom. Again, it took a minute or two for him to figure out what he was doing, but soon he was right at home. In between shrieks of intense pleasure, Penny couldn't help but think how surreal this all still was. Since when did Sheldon talk like that? Since when was he able to completely toss all his inhibitions aside and talk to her so dirty? Kurt never even talked to her like that. This was weird and strange and holy balls did it turn her on like crazy.
When it was over, and it was not over quickly, they lay together holding hands. Penny was satisfied and exhausted and happy and confused. Yes, the sex was good and she was proud of Sheldon for getting out of his comfort zone to experiment with her. But her feelings for him were more than just sexual. Sometimes she thought maybe his feelings didn't go beyond that.
"Sheldon?"
"Penny?"
"Will you spend the night with me?" She already knew the answer, but he needed to know it was what she wanted.
He hesitated before he answered. Penny could tell he was trying to think of a white lie to cushion the blow, and she didn't appreciate it.
"You can just tell me that you'd rather not. Let's be honest with each other. It's easier that way.
"Duly noted. I would rather go back to my own apartment so that I can take a shower and wake up in my own bed, so that my morning routine isn't dramatically altered."
"What if I spent the night with you, then?"
Sheldon grasped her hand. His hand was cold when she thought it would be hot.
"I'm not sure that would be prudent until Leonard is up to speed on our situation."
It was funny how soon Penny went from being in the throes of passion with this man to wanting to pull his fingernails out one by one.
"Do you picture yourself ever wanting to spend the night with me?"
"Yes. Someday."
"I see."
He didn't bother trying to explain himself and she was grateful. If he told her to give him more time again, or if he said he's still trying to process this, or that it was an experiment and it was still in process, she wouldn't be responsible for her actions. She didn't want to be that girl-Penny was never that girl. The one who nagged to get what she wanted. That wasn't her and she never wanted it to be. But he was making her feel all kinds of things she'd never felt before. At that moment, in her bed, after what was probably the best sex of her entire life, she wondered if he was bringing out the worst in her while she was bringing out the best in him.
It was awkward. It shouldn't have been awkward.
"This is awkward," Sheldon said.
"Yeah. It is."
"Maybe it's time to terminate this experiment."
"What? Sheldon, why would you want to do that?"
"While I'm enjoying the sexual component of the arrangement we're engaging in, I can see that you need more than that. And I want to give it to you, but I don't know how capable I am of doing so. And Penny? I don't ever want to be the guy who disappoints you. You deserve more than that."
Ughhh. How did he do it?
"Oh, sweetie, you aren't disappointing me. Look, if we all gave up on relationships when the first sign of trouble presented itself, no couple would ever make it past the first month. We have some obstacles, but I think it's worth giving it a shot. But if you don't think it's worth it, I'd rather you tell me now before I become any more emotionally invested." Which was practically impossible at this point, but he didn't need to know that.
"Penny, as much as I've tried to talk myself out of it, I find you utterly irresistible, adorable, desirable, charming...before you came along, I was convinced my life was perfectly reasonable and I didn't need the comfort and complications a female companion would bring to it. But now I can't see a scenario where you being absent from my life would have a positive outcome. So yes, I think it's worth it, and thank you for your extreme patience when it comes to my social and romantic ineptitude."
Well, that was about as much romance as she could expect from him. But it was enough, and she loved him for it, and she knew she was in deep trouble, and this was probably not going to end well but she was sure as fuck going to go down trying.
"For what it's worth, thank you for trying so hard for me. It means a lot and it doesn't go unnoticed. I will try to be more patient."
"Fair enough." He leaned over and kissed her one more time. It took her breath away how good he was at making her forget just how insane he was making her.
Soon, Sheldon was gone and Penny was alone. Someday they'd figure this out. He was her Dr. Whack-a-Doodle. They had to figure it out.