death of a parent

[littlewing19]

You may have read this on myspace but...

Losing a parent sucks.

My mother died on the 19th and since then my life has been a whirlwind....

It's weird living knowing she is dead.

Time sucks...

Comments

*hugs*

[helloscottitsme]

you have my deepest sympathies. it more than sucks as you probably know and feel. time does suck but its a great healer. right now you'll feel lost and feel like you've lost the most important person in your world but its ok to feel those things, its part of grieving, you are lost and you have lost the most important person to you. i still get moments when i miss my dad which my mum has told me will live with me the rest of my life but i'm through the lost period, for me it lasted maybe 2 years. you may feel like that for a while but you'll come through it, not just because you have to but because your mother would want you to. be strong but don't be afraid to be emotional and to let people know how you're feeling x

Re: *hugs*

[littlewing19]

*big hugs*

Thank you...

Re: *hugs*

[littlewing19]

I just, feel so unprepared for what lies ahead. My mother died so suddenly, everyone was shocked, no one knew she was sick, not even her. I'm not even sure how I'm supposed to feel. Sometimes I feel great and then I feel guilty because I feel good then it makes me sad because I miss her and start thinking about her again.

Re: *hugs*

[helloscottitsme]

i know exactly what you mean with the guilt butit's a confusing time. thats part of feeling lost. you needn't feel guilty for feeling the moments of happiness because they're seperate from your grief

sadly with being unprepared you didn't get a chance to say goodbye or say the things you wanted to say which i'm kind of lucky i did. although some say they couldn't bare living in the knowledge that there was nothing they could do and watching someone die slowly, there's no easy way to lose someone you love really, either way hurts and leaves you with grief and confused x

[lastingleaves]

so sorry to hear that Amber, i hope your close friends and family are pulling together with you and that in time things dont hurt as much as they do now x