Is this Heaven?
Title: Is this Heaven?
Pairing(s): Ohno Satoshi/Ninomiya Kazunari (Ohmiya)
Rated: PG
Genre: Drama, Romance, Angst
Summary: "the moments just before I left the living world."
Note: this is a continuation for "The Breaking Point" one-shot i wrote about two months ago.. Once again, i'm a totally new writer so there might be mistakes. English is not my first or second language... Comments would be nice x3x
Big hug and 1000 kisses to my dear oneterrorist
I sowly opened my eyes. Everything I saw was white, plain white. Nothing that would make me interested. I tried to listen if there was any sounds, but I couldn't hear anything. Instead, I felt warmth and light.
'So this is heaven,' I spoke to myself, not knowing if I should be happy or sad. The pain was gone, but the feeling of loneliness was still there. I closed my eyes and brought back the moments just before I left the living world.
Flashes went through my eyes, Ohno at the dressing room, the phone call, the promise of him coming to see me and the feeling of hope. Then came the last moments, the moments I never thought would happen. Ohno, my dear Oh-chan. He had kept his promise, he came and held me in his arms. The warmth of his body next to mine, warming and easing the pain away. Also that moment, that most important and beautiful moment when I told him I love him.
I finally said it. Dear god, how long it took to say those words, but I had said them. But I wasn't expecting an answer, so it had really surprised me. But the feeling I got when I heard those words, from that sweet and warm mouth, was amazing. It made my heart fly in happiness. Also the feeling of those delicate lips. 'I'm so glad I was able to taste them,' I dreamily whispered in my mind as I licked my lips hungrily.
I froze as I felt a little tingle on my right hand. The surprise grew bigger as the tingle changed to pain around my wrist. 'Shouldn't the pain be gone in heaven?' the question whimpering around my head loudly as the pain grew worse and worse.
Then I heard noise. Little beepings next to my ear. It got faster every second. I groaned lightly, wanting the unpleasant sound to go away.
Heaven shouldn't be like this. There shouldn't be any pain or loneliness and especially no annoying sounds. But who I was to tell that, I've never been here before. My thoughts were cut as I felt something unexpecting. Something I never again thought to feel anymore. A warmth, the pleasant warmth that wrapped aroung my hand.
It jerked when I had left a small voice, making my heart skip a beat. I could feel movement next to me and it made me wonder again where I was. And then came the angelic voice. The sound of it was music to my ears.
”Nino..” the angel whispered. He sounded hesitant and worried. Why would the angel be worried? There was nothing for them to be worried. ”Nino.. are you awake?” the angel asked, the voice a bit stronger, which held so much hope that it made me shiver. The voice, the angel's voice, sounded familiar. So familiar that it made me feel like I had my stomach full of butterflies. No, I'm just imagining, it can't be -
”Kazu?” the angelic voice whispered again and my eyes fly open. Yes, I know this voice. I know it so well. It's the voice I love and which my body crawls to hear.
”Oh-chan,” I groaned without any movement, my eyes moving to where the sound had come from. I want to see him. I want to see him so badly. As I saw the beautiful angel's face, the pain flew away. It's amazing how even the thought of him makes everything so perfect and peaceful.
As I enjoyed the view, I saw the red circles around his beautiful brown eyes. I frowned and started to examine his face much more clearly. His beautiful eyes that usually were sleepy and so gentle, were swollen and tired. The red circles around them proved that he had cried. A lot. He looked so old, and vulnerable.
My eyebrows stuck to each other. Angels shoudn't look like this. At least not this one. This angel should look beautiful, sleepy and relaxed, maybe with fishing rod next to him. So why did he look like this? I was brought back from my thoughts by a warm light touch on my right cheek.
”Kazu,” the angel breathed and the tears that he had seemed to hold, flowed down on to his chubby cheeks. I couldn't say anything. It felt so wrong for him to cry. ”Kazu,” the man mumbled time to time as his thump made small relaxing circles on my cheek. ”Why, why are you crying?” I asked bewildered and a bit angrily. There was no reason for him to cry.
”Because I'm happy,” Ohno sighed, which didn't help me to understand. ”I'm happy that you didn't leave me,” he whispered, his smile twitching, as I froze. He tried to stop his tears, while I worked in my head to understand what he had said.
”Wha..what?” I shuddered, the surprise and confusion shining on my face. ”This is not heaven?” I continued as my body had started to shake. ”I did not..” I gulped and finally the last word slipped out from my lips, ”..die?”
”No, Kazu,” Ohno smiled, bringing our joined hands up and kissing the back of my hand. ”No, you're alive and with me, my love,” and then he bowed down to kiss me.