Thinking is the best form of procrastination.

[listennina]

while procrastinating on my research I have come up with a inspiring thought that I want to create a book(or maybe it would be a journal) exploring the things in my head which confuse and scare me. I also plan on creating illustrations to further explain these thoughts. The illustrations will be sketchy and probably quite unserious. I am going to

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[eyes_like_ashes]

Ha... Fucking 420. That's why my bastard boyfriend completely blew me off. Pot and disc golf is more important. And probably, after Kenna, pot and disc golf will still be more important.

I applaud your choice to attempt sobriety.

And I also really look forward to this book of yours.

[listennina]

I am sorry to hear that, and I have no idea on the context of the situation. But don't forget to consider this maybe the last 4/20 he may have before the huge responsibility you are both going to be in. It isn't fair that he would do that to you especially when you are already having to deal with these responsibilities. But maybe you shouldn't look at it like he put weed, stoners and disc golf in front of you. Often relationships built around drug use are based on peoples sruggles and problems, their weakest side; drugs are nothing but a distraction from normal life. When these people all come together there is a strong power of peer pressure because of the connection you feel with the other people in your group. For all you know he could have guiltily been forced into the situation; he probably feels for you as much if not more than he would for that entire group of people. But when you have a handful of people who know how to get you going, egg you on about a certain day it tends to get to your worse side and you cave in. Of course

[eyes_like_ashes]

That's very, very true. I guess it's just hard for me to deal with because he gets to keep all of his distractions right now. All of the fun little things that can help take his mind of this overwhelming responsibiliy, he's still allowed to participate in freely. And I think that part of me is angry and jealous about all of that. Not just being pregnant in the first place, but the fact that I haven't been able to touch caffeine, cigarettes, or alcohol in months. And he promises me and promises me that he's going to quit all of these nasty little habits of his. We've had talks about it. He knows where I stand, and he knows what he needs to do if "this" is going to work. But they're all blind promises. It's been sixth months now since we found out, and he's upped his cigarette intake, and lied to me countless times about the marijuana business

[a_lexalicious]

I'm glad that 420 helped you realize just how mindlessly stupid pot is. Controlled drug use, occasionally with friends, is awesome. But this past 420 helped me realize just a little further that I wasted the past year of my life being stoned. I enjoy sobriety, I think we talked about this that day. I like being able to think straight. But it was a nice day, and it was good to have a little bit of the old times that I'd missed so much back...if only for a few hours. The only thing I think you forgot was that crazy stick we found that looked like a femur. And we chased rabits. And the skate park. But meh.. Glad your day was good =)

[listennina]

Geez how did I forget all that, but I don't think we went near the skate park since we were on the other side of the park. There must have been xanax bars in that herb or something. BTW, you left your papers in my car.

[boostedphoenix]

the book is deff a fantastic idea. i would love to see the progress and lend any insite or opinion if need bee........BEE................FRISBEE, the weather has been great, take a break from your school work and let your mind rest a bit. you better master that gitis this summer!!!!

[listennina]

The more I think about a book the less I feel like doing it lol isn't that typical. Anyway I wish I could play some bee but aint got time. Atleast the research ended up being pretty interesting...not that I am really done with it or anything yet. Oh well I have 13 hours before I go to school I should be fine.

[pilot_drgrip]

yeah that was a fun night lol