oh hai journal.
It's been nearly a month since I updated last. I suck, I'm busy, and it's also hard to stay motivated/care when I feel like basically no one is here anymore. I need to make time for blogging for me - I think I take for granted the fact that I can think of a moment from the past few years and then look up whatever details I'm struggling to remember. Next year, though, I won't have that luxury if I keep on like this. Highlights (mostly weekends and then a few randoms) to get caught up so I'm less intimidated:
→ Went to my friend Sarah's wedding in Michigan. It was a long drive, we got lost in Chicago, blah blah, stopped for amazing cheese curds, listened to Mysterious Universe podcast, you know, the usual. We stayed with Jason's aunt, who is really sweet and probably the most normal person in his family, tbh. She had a 5 year old daughter who was a goddamn trip - SUCH a little spitfire and full of so much energy. The second day we were there, I heard a door creak in the morning but I assumed it was the bathroom. I rolled over 5 minutes later and saw her just standing at the end of our bed. It was creepy as shit but I just burst out laughing. The wedding was beautiful, Sarah was my first good girl friend to get married, it was so weird and I cried. The reception was open bar, I had a great time with Erin & Katie, who were the only other girls in our group of friends to make the trek. I took pictures, of course!
→ Went to my aunt's cabin. I had never been there but it was beautiful. I was pretty miserable though, tbh, because I had my first pap smear, which was fucking TRAUMATIC, okay, and it turns out that a bladder infection turned into a different infection and I had to get antibiotics. Not pills. It was disgusting and super uncomfortable so I'm hoping it's fine now. I noticed it when sex started HURTING LIKE HELL. And then even when I was off meds and "better", I couldn't have sex but I'm hoping it was all in my head because I had become so scared of it/associating it with pain, IDEK. Anyway, so that really put a damper on my cabin time. Also I slept like shit, bugs and so much noise. The main drama of the weekend was that my dog (tiny little Maltese) could not stop humping their golden lab. Seriously, he was fucking RABID about it too, to the point where when we pulled him away or he ever even SAW the dog, he'd claw at windows and scream. Ridiculous. I told everyone to just not give a shit about it but my sister was so stressed out, crying and shit and it's like, who cares.
→ Turned twenty-four. Last Saturday. Jason came home at lunch on Friday with roses. I thought he was a day early but knew it wasn't like him. "Happy birthday! It starts now!" he says. ♥ He took the afternoon off of work. We went to dinner at a restaurant that has LEGENDARY french fries, and I also had banana bread beer, which is exactly what it sounds like! It was delicious!! We went to the place that has the epic strawberry gelato - we called that morning and asked if they had it, and asked them to save a quart for us, put it aside so no one else would buy it. We got there, and they didn't have it. Or any left. A wonderful worker went to check in back and dug us some out of the freezer. ♥
I woke up to breakfast in bed. ♥ I didn't know what I wanted to do for my actual birthday, I usually go to the zoo but we just went when Gem was here. Jason suggested we go shopping and I was game. I thought we were going just for something to do, but he bought me anything I wanted. I didn't take advantage and insisted on paying for my work pants, but it still felt like a fairytale. He is the sweetest. We went out at night, we had a great time but I was disappointed in some of my friends for saying they'd be there and then not showing. "It's my dad's birthday too so we're going to dinner" - did you not know your dad's birthday was that day when you RSVP'd yes? Shit like that. Whatever. I had a great dress and got to wear my new birthday shoes. My mom and her boyfriend, my sister and a date, Ali, Jason & I had drinks and red velvet cake before we walked to the comedy club. It blew because you weren't allowed to be perverted, it was their "family-safe improv show~" STUPID. Ali drove us all back here, we drank moar, ordered a late night pizza, and watched Dumb & Dumber. Angela and her date stayed over, because we has a great couch now! She sang me an adorable birthday song she wrote to the tune of Call Me Maybe as she presented me with birthday riesling. It was precious.
→ Went to Jason's friend Paul's cabin. It was like a three hour drive and we got in a huge fight on the way up there. He was driving like a dick and I have asked him numerous times why he keeps accelerating when the cars in front of us lay on their break lights. And he's still doing it, it scares me, at finally I was like, "God! *grabs door handles in fear*" He was all, "If you want to drive, you can," which would have been fine, but he KEPT going even after I offered no bitching or protest - "and I can just sit there and ~chill and play on my phone" or something. So we were pissed and after like 10 minutes of silence he was like, "So are you going to me mad at me all weekend?" I replied, "No, probably just until you apologize." He goes, "So all weekend, then." DICK. Like I'm sorry your car is a piece of crap and it SCARES ME that not only do you not start breaking or take your foot off the gas at the VERY least, you go FASTER towards a STAGNANT OBJECT.
Cabin was really fun though, we were so glad we went. I got so drunk the first night we were there, and let me tell you it is THE WORST when you are sleeping in a guest cabin full of people and you feel the need to throw up in the morning. I didn't, but it was traumatic. I felt good enough to go to on the boat after breakfast though, so it was all good. We spent the entire first day on the water, my scalp is MAJORLY sunburned and his friend pissed me off with the jet ski but it was a very nice, warm day. Pictures~
Why yes this IS a chipmunk frickin' eating out of the palms of our hands! ♥ Paul's dad hand feeds them every morning, knows which one is which, has names and shit, they are like pets! So cute!!
The beautiful lake we were on.
We had three Go Pros so we got a lot of epic footage. Paul said he'd edit it into something sweet and I hope he can find time to actually do that.
They pounded a garden hose into a copper pipe and put it in the fire - SO PRETTY IT WAS LIKE HARRY POTTER IRL.
→ Moar tiny updates but I have to go nao. I'm shooting a wedding tomorrow! My own booking so that means I get to keep aaaall the monies and shoot how/what I want! ♥!
→ Went to my friend Sarah's wedding in Michigan. It was a long drive, we got lost in Chicago, blah blah, stopped for amazing cheese curds, listened to Mysterious Universe podcast, you know, the usual. We stayed with Jason's aunt, who is really sweet and probably the most normal person in his family, tbh. She had a 5 year old daughter who was a goddamn trip - SUCH a little spitfire and full of so much energy. The second day we were there, I heard a door creak in the morning but I assumed it was the bathroom. I rolled over 5 minutes later and saw her just standing at the end of our bed. It was creepy as shit but I just burst out laughing. The wedding was beautiful, Sarah was my first good girl friend to get married, it was so weird and I cried. The reception was open bar, I had a great time with Erin & Katie, who were the only other girls in our group of friends to make the trek. I took pictures, of course!
→ Went to my aunt's cabin. I had never been there but it was beautiful. I was pretty miserable though, tbh, because I had my first pap smear, which was fucking TRAUMATIC, okay, and it turns out that a bladder infection turned into a different infection and I had to get antibiotics. Not pills. It was disgusting and super uncomfortable so I'm hoping it's fine now. I noticed it when sex started HURTING LIKE HELL. And then even when I was off meds and "better", I couldn't have sex but I'm hoping it was all in my head because I had become so scared of it/associating it with pain, IDEK. Anyway, so that really put a damper on my cabin time. Also I slept like shit, bugs and so much noise. The main drama of the weekend was that my dog (tiny little Maltese) could not stop humping their golden lab. Seriously, he was fucking RABID about it too, to the point where when we pulled him away or he ever even SAW the dog, he'd claw at windows and scream. Ridiculous. I told everyone to just not give a shit about it but my sister was so stressed out, crying and shit and it's like, who cares.
→ Turned twenty-four. Last Saturday. Jason came home at lunch on Friday with roses. I thought he was a day early but knew it wasn't like him. "Happy birthday! It starts now!" he says. ♥ He took the afternoon off of work. We went to dinner at a restaurant that has LEGENDARY french fries, and I also had banana bread beer, which is exactly what it sounds like! It was delicious!! We went to the place that has the epic strawberry gelato - we called that morning and asked if they had it, and asked them to save a quart for us, put it aside so no one else would buy it. We got there, and they didn't have it. Or any left. A wonderful worker went to check in back and dug us some out of the freezer. ♥
I woke up to breakfast in bed. ♥ I didn't know what I wanted to do for my actual birthday, I usually go to the zoo but we just went when Gem was here. Jason suggested we go shopping and I was game. I thought we were going just for something to do, but he bought me anything I wanted. I didn't take advantage and insisted on paying for my work pants, but it still felt like a fairytale. He is the sweetest. We went out at night, we had a great time but I was disappointed in some of my friends for saying they'd be there and then not showing. "It's my dad's birthday too so we're going to dinner" - did you not know your dad's birthday was that day when you RSVP'd yes? Shit like that. Whatever. I had a great dress and got to wear my new birthday shoes. My mom and her boyfriend, my sister and a date, Ali, Jason & I had drinks and red velvet cake before we walked to the comedy club. It blew because you weren't allowed to be perverted, it was their "family-safe improv show~" STUPID. Ali drove us all back here, we drank moar, ordered a late night pizza, and watched Dumb & Dumber. Angela and her date stayed over, because we has a great couch now! She sang me an adorable birthday song she wrote to the tune of Call Me Maybe as she presented me with birthday riesling. It was precious.
→ Went to Jason's friend Paul's cabin. It was like a three hour drive and we got in a huge fight on the way up there. He was driving like a dick and I have asked him numerous times why he keeps accelerating when the cars in front of us lay on their break lights. And he's still doing it, it scares me, at finally I was like, "God! *grabs door handles in fear*" He was all, "If you want to drive, you can," which would have been fine, but he KEPT going even after I offered no bitching or protest - "and I can just sit there and ~chill and play on my phone" or something. So we were pissed and after like 10 minutes of silence he was like, "So are you going to me mad at me all weekend?" I replied, "No, probably just until you apologize." He goes, "So all weekend, then." DICK. Like I'm sorry your car is a piece of crap and it SCARES ME that not only do you not start breaking or take your foot off the gas at the VERY least, you go FASTER towards a STAGNANT OBJECT.
Cabin was really fun though, we were so glad we went. I got so drunk the first night we were there, and let me tell you it is THE WORST when you are sleeping in a guest cabin full of people and you feel the need to throw up in the morning. I didn't, but it was traumatic. I felt good enough to go to on the boat after breakfast though, so it was all good. We spent the entire first day on the water, my scalp is MAJORLY sunburned and his friend pissed me off with the jet ski but it was a very nice, warm day. Pictures~
Why yes this IS a chipmunk frickin' eating out of the palms of our hands! ♥ Paul's dad hand feeds them every morning, knows which one is which, has names and shit, they are like pets! So cute!!
The beautiful lake we were on.
We had three Go Pros so we got a lot of epic footage. Paul said he'd edit it into something sweet and I hope he can find time to actually do that.
They pounded a garden hose into a copper pipe and put it in the fire - SO PRETTY IT WAS LIKE HARRY POTTER IRL.
→ Moar tiny updates but I have to go nao. I'm shooting a wedding tomorrow! My own booking so that means I get to keep aaaall the monies and shoot how/what I want! ♥!