I've come to the conclusion that I'm not a very nice person, that, in fact, "bitch" is probably a rather good word to describe me...
It is the same conclusion that a great many women come to in the same way a great many men come to the realization that they are an "asshole." This perceived attitude is usually a defensive mechanism designed to protect the feelings of said "bitch" or "asshole". If people are put off, they can't truly get close and therefore can't hurt you.
Of course, I could be comepletely full of shit, but that is the way I look at it.
Now what?
You keep on living, trying to do the best you can with what you have. One thing that I have noticed is that my own personal "asshole" level increases as my financial security decreases. There is a direct correlation between the two, at least for me.
This perceived attitude is usually a defensive mechanism designed to protect the feelings of said "bitch" or "asshole". If people are put off, they can't truly get close and therefore can't hurt you. That's an interesting way of looking at it. I know I've used it as an explanation/defense before: "I never said I wasn't a bitch, did I, dear?"
In this case, I was considering the fact that I'm not very nice to "my people," which is a series of complex and usually a little insane relationships.
One thing that I have noticed is that my own personal "asshole" level increases as my financial security decreases. There is a direct correlation between the two, at least for me.
I tend to get clingy and, well, clingy, when financial secruity wanes. However, our situation here has been pretty constant since I got this job - so, 5 months. Not good, but constant.
in the absence of local knowledge...jmkiruMay 16 2003, 11:28:24 UTC
I can only suggest that, even if it's true, at the end of the day nothing really changes. The same people will be your friends, you'll drive the same car, and the neighborhood cats will still love mostly you for the milk you put out for them (they are *cats* after all). Applying a label really doesn't change anything, so I wouldn't worry overly much.
Now, if it's something about yourself that you don't like, and/or would like to change, that's a whole other ballgame, but also nothing to really worry about. The very act of being upset that I'm not nicer to people (bitchy) tends to mean you've got a good heart in there somewhere, otherwise it wouldn't bother you. Ergo, you can't be all bad ;)
*pulls out steno pad* now, if you vant to tell me about your mother, young frauline, and ze events that led to zis opinion, I shall listen... /obnoxious psychologist voice*
He is also the same asshole that has kept me fed and sheltered for months.
Berardi is also an asshole of some sort or another.
He also keeps the both of us sane.
You are the bitch who has let me cry on her shoulders a few times. Who has worked things out with me when things between us have hit stupid. Who has sheltered a bum or two not mentioning names. You are also the bitch who has helped multiple guys get over multiple girls.
You can be a bitch, but stop thinking that it is your only mode.
Comments 4
It is the same conclusion that a great many women come to in the same way a great many men come to the realization that they are an "asshole." This perceived attitude is usually a defensive mechanism designed to protect the feelings of said "bitch" or "asshole". If people are put off, they can't truly get close and therefore can't hurt you.
Of course, I could be comepletely full of shit, but that is the way I look at it.
Now what?
You keep on living, trying to do the best you can with what you have. One thing that I have noticed is that my own personal "asshole" level increases as my financial security decreases. There is a direct correlation between the two, at least for me.
Reply
That's an interesting way of looking at it. I know I've used it as an explanation/defense before: "I never said I wasn't a bitch, did I, dear?"
In this case, I was considering the fact that I'm not very nice to "my people," which is a series of complex and usually a little insane relationships.
One thing that I have noticed is that my own personal "asshole" level increases as my financial security decreases. There is a direct correlation between the two, at least for me.
I tend to get clingy and, well, clingy, when financial secruity wanes. However, our situation here has been pretty constant since I got this job - so, 5 months. Not good, but constant.
Thanks for the thoughts.
Reply
Now, if it's something about yourself that you don't like, and/or would like to change, that's a whole other ballgame, but also nothing to really worry about. The very act of being upset that I'm not nicer to people (bitchy) tends to mean you've got a good heart in there somewhere, otherwise it wouldn't bother you. Ergo, you can't be all bad ;)
*pulls out steno pad* now, if you vant to tell me about your mother, young frauline, and ze events that led to zis opinion, I shall listen... /obnoxious psychologist voice*
Reply
Wench is an asshole... We all know this.
He is also the same asshole that has kept me fed and sheltered for months.
Berardi is also an asshole of some sort or another.
He also keeps the both of us sane.
You are the bitch who has let me cry on her shoulders a few times. Who has worked things out with me when things between us have hit stupid. Who has sheltered a bum or two not mentioning names. You are also the bitch who has helped multiple guys get over multiple girls.
You can be a bitch, but stop thinking that it is your only mode.
::hugs::
love ya hon.
laters
-Gene
Reply
Leave a comment