you are the sea and i am the sand
title: you are the sea and i am the sand
word count: 788
summary: go ahead, explore the world. i'll be here when you return
you were the sea and I was the sand
always together, never apart
you gently rolled up to me
ever so graceful
(I was always so envious)
and enveloped me in your arms
holding your head above mine
and your fingers around my wrists
you said you were protecting me
and you were
the great, endless water
rippling ever so gently
surrounding me entirely
holding me together
but you were also killing me
pressing down on my lungs
hiding me from the real world
suffocating me beneath your tranquility
and you were taking what you wanted
everything on the surface
the shining reflections of the sun in my eyes
the glow that life naturally possessed
the smile on my face
the piece of me that will always be yours
you took what you saw
you took what you wanted
you took what I gave you
the material beauty on the surface
the parts of me I thought I could trust you with
and you left me bare
bare
(empty)
breathless
(suffocating)
you were killing me
but I couldn't make you go
then you left
(just like I always knew you would)
you stepped away
fading away into the crowd
into the anonymity of the real world
and you left me exposed
unprepared and gasping for air
weakened and terrified
to fend for myself
alone
you left me to them
to the crowd
to the masses
to the world
they stepped on me
picked what they wanted from what you left behind
kicked me around
I thought they'd stay
I thought they weren't like you
they always left
it went on and on and on
until I was pressing in on myself
pushing in on my own lungs
cutting off my own air
because no one was there to protect me
(you weren't there to protect me)
(where did you go?)
you protected me
but you never taught me how to protect myself
you saved me
and I never learned to save myself
(what if I had been strong enough to push you away?)
you are the sea
I was the sand
(and each individual pebble
and stone
and shell
strewn about the world)
and you washed me away
the real world is terrifying
I can't live in it
not alone
I thought you'd brave it with me
but you left me for something bigger
something better
I can understand that
I know I was never anything special
I know I'll never shine as bright as anyone you'll meet
you leaving was inevitable
but still
I miss you
(please come back)
------------
a sort of companion
tides come in
and out
you'll return to me one day
and protect me
(suffocate me)
for just a bit
and then you'll be gone again
but that's alright
because you are the sea
you have tides
and when the tide comes in
you'll come back to me
I am the sand
day by day
I stay here
immobile
so it's okay
go ahead
explore the world
I'll be here when you return
(I know you always will
I know you love me too)
maybe one day
you won't leave
maybe you'll stay
(but you are the sea
I know you won't)
it's okay
------------
another part, i know it's a lot, sort of
sometimes
when we are together
you pull back just a bit
enough that I’m afraid
that you’re leaving me prematurely
but you step back and ask
and allow me enough breath to answer
“do you still love me?
why do you still wait?”
“yes,” I say,
“because I let you take away parts of me
to accompany you in this great world
this horrifying reality
so you’ll never be alone
and you’ll remember I love you”
I only tell you the truth
but you remain skeptical
“but,” you say,
“what do I give you in return?
I am so selfish
to take and not to give”
but you are wrong
I reach around me
and gather up everything you’ve given me
everything you’ve brought back for me
“you see these?” I ask
holding my palms out
displaying all the shells
and messages
and trinkets
you brought back for me
“you give
you give so much
you allow me to live through you
because I can’t live on my own
that’s how I know you love me”
and you’ll pull me in again
until I can’t breathe anymore
and when you go
I’ll give you another piece of me to take with you
and when you return
you’ll return to me what you found
and that’s how we’ll love each other
because I love you
so I’ll always wait
and you love me
so you’ll always come back
one day
take me with you when you go
please
that will be my adventure
written june 29, 2014 at 11:40pm on my phone
edited at my brother's soccer game
intentionally made to be interpreted as both a romantic relationship and a platonic relationship
(it's more likely people will see it as romantic, i think)
i like the second one better
the first one is too final
the third one was something i just added on randomly when i got an idea
the second one is still my favourite
exams are finally over
i have time to write
even though most of the writing happens around midnight anyways
also i'm really really excited for red light to come out
the teasers look so amazing
word count: 788
summary: go ahead, explore the world. i'll be here when you return
you were the sea and I was the sand
always together, never apart
you gently rolled up to me
ever so graceful
(I was always so envious)
and enveloped me in your arms
holding your head above mine
and your fingers around my wrists
you said you were protecting me
and you were
the great, endless water
rippling ever so gently
surrounding me entirely
holding me together
but you were also killing me
pressing down on my lungs
hiding me from the real world
suffocating me beneath your tranquility
and you were taking what you wanted
everything on the surface
the shining reflections of the sun in my eyes
the glow that life naturally possessed
the smile on my face
the piece of me that will always be yours
you took what you saw
you took what you wanted
you took what I gave you
the material beauty on the surface
the parts of me I thought I could trust you with
and you left me bare
bare
(empty)
breathless
(suffocating)
you were killing me
but I couldn't make you go
then you left
(just like I always knew you would)
you stepped away
fading away into the crowd
into the anonymity of the real world
and you left me exposed
unprepared and gasping for air
weakened and terrified
to fend for myself
alone
you left me to them
to the crowd
to the masses
to the world
they stepped on me
picked what they wanted from what you left behind
kicked me around
I thought they'd stay
I thought they weren't like you
they always left
it went on and on and on
until I was pressing in on myself
pushing in on my own lungs
cutting off my own air
because no one was there to protect me
(you weren't there to protect me)
(where did you go?)
you protected me
but you never taught me how to protect myself
you saved me
and I never learned to save myself
(what if I had been strong enough to push you away?)
you are the sea
I was the sand
(and each individual pebble
and stone
and shell
strewn about the world)
and you washed me away
the real world is terrifying
I can't live in it
not alone
I thought you'd brave it with me
but you left me for something bigger
something better
I can understand that
I know I was never anything special
I know I'll never shine as bright as anyone you'll meet
you leaving was inevitable
but still
I miss you
(please come back)
------------
a sort of companion
tides come in
and out
you'll return to me one day
and protect me
(suffocate me)
for just a bit
and then you'll be gone again
but that's alright
because you are the sea
you have tides
and when the tide comes in
you'll come back to me
I am the sand
day by day
I stay here
immobile
so it's okay
go ahead
explore the world
I'll be here when you return
(I know you always will
I know you love me too)
maybe one day
you won't leave
maybe you'll stay
(but you are the sea
I know you won't)
it's okay
------------
another part, i know it's a lot, sort of
sometimes
when we are together
you pull back just a bit
enough that I’m afraid
that you’re leaving me prematurely
but you step back and ask
and allow me enough breath to answer
“do you still love me?
why do you still wait?”
“yes,” I say,
“because I let you take away parts of me
to accompany you in this great world
this horrifying reality
so you’ll never be alone
and you’ll remember I love you”
I only tell you the truth
but you remain skeptical
“but,” you say,
“what do I give you in return?
I am so selfish
to take and not to give”
but you are wrong
I reach around me
and gather up everything you’ve given me
everything you’ve brought back for me
“you see these?” I ask
holding my palms out
displaying all the shells
and messages
and trinkets
you brought back for me
“you give
you give so much
you allow me to live through you
because I can’t live on my own
that’s how I know you love me”
and you’ll pull me in again
until I can’t breathe anymore
and when you go
I’ll give you another piece of me to take with you
and when you return
you’ll return to me what you found
and that’s how we’ll love each other
because I love you
so I’ll always wait
and you love me
so you’ll always come back
one day
take me with you when you go
please
that will be my adventure
written june 29, 2014 at 11:40pm on my phone
edited at my brother's soccer game
intentionally made to be interpreted as both a romantic relationship and a platonic relationship
(it's more likely people will see it as romantic, i think)
i like the second one better
the first one is too final
the third one was something i just added on randomly when i got an idea
the second one is still my favourite
exams are finally over
i have time to write
even though most of the writing happens around midnight anyways
also i'm really really excited for red light to come out
the teasers look so amazing