Anticipatory whotsit

[lisefrac]

Feeling a ton of... I dunno what to call it about Shadows of Amun this weekend.

On one hand, I'm excited to see how certain things play out. The chance of me having fun is pretty high--I certainly did last time!

On the other hand... anticipatory anxiety. breakinglight11 talked about it recently, when talking about the markers of social anxiety. Like her, almost

Comments

[desireearmfeldt]

I find I frequently get anxiety/don't-wannas about going out and doing something I know I'm going to enjoy (and do in fact turn out to enjoy once I get there) like a LARP or a social event. I don't think this happened to me so much in younger days, but it's been pretty common in recent years -- and I think the phenomenon pre-dates grad school, so it's not just general fatigue/depression from that.

It can be hard to distinguish that feeling from actually not looking forward to something (e.g. something that is supposed to be fun, or used to be fun, but in reality is not so much fun). Except, I suppose, in retrospect, by noticing whether fun was had.

[lisefrac]

It can be hard to distinguish that feeling from actually not looking forward to something (e.g. something that is supposed to be fun, or used to be fun, but in reality is not so much fun). Except, I suppose, in retrospect, by noticing whether fun was had.

Yeah, this is something I struggle with a lot, especially as I try to redefine the role of LARP in my life. I think I'm okay with the amount I'm at now. I look back at the larps I've played in the last year and am generally happy with the quantity and quality.

Of course, one bad larp does not a winter make, to torture an old adage. So it's also important to tell the difference between "this particular game wasn't fun" and "larping is no longer fun."

[nomadmwe]

Yeah, I can get there from here. I mean, hopefully this weekend will be a good time, but I have so many things to do that a weekend puttering around at home and not seeing anyone would be awesome.