the transition from confinement and constriction to freedom;
the sense of insecurity about that newfound liberty;
the sense of loneliness at being stranded at the prison and unable to contact the brother, possibly because he does not want to be contacted ... so a loss of relationship as the consequence for having been convicted;
the relief at finding one's possessions intact (so many people who feel they've lost everything are unable to release any objects afterward, no matter how useless they are to their current situation);
the relief that it was the brother who became a steadfast custodian of these personal items, even if he didn't respond to the call for transport away from the prison;
Yes, lots and lots and it's been baffling and confounding me all day. I feel like I've been turned inside-out and upside down and shaken a little and nothing's fallen back in quite its old spot.
I think, emotionally, it may well equate to how I feel, now about my writing, of all things. *laughs* We'll see how it turns out.
And all the most precise things were the construction equipment. Building things. I think I need to create again, and am uncertain about it? Unsure, insecure is pretty clear....
And, yeah, no home, definitely no home and nothing's quite safe, but this one locked treasure box of all the tools from Before.
Interesting. Very detailed. Reminds me of the idea that dreamspace is shared & sometimes we cross wires with other people.
You get smells in your dreams!? That's the one thing I don't get... no matter how vivid it is, how physically painful (I've had dreams where I've woken up swallowing a scream of pain for a sensation that was no longer there), I never smell anything... (I am now thinking about the other senses - sights, sounds, sensations are all yes, but taste? I'm frequently *trying* to eat something & I keep getting interrupted.)
Yes, I get smells in my dreams. Blood, sweat, stale alcohol, smoke... in this one. Another one had slaughterhouse and old blood through it. Another was clear clean ocean air. Another mountain pine
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Your character sounds a bit like an urban Genjyo Sanzo- or cross between him and Gojyo. Or maybe I've just read too much AU Saiyuki fanfic..... >_>
And I have all five senses in my dreams as well, quite vividly. I'll remember sense memories - voices, smells, tastes - in dreams that I've neither experienced nor thought of for 30-40 years. I also talk in my sleep, cry in my sleep, and physically feel what my body is experiencing in my nightmares, including one memorable one where I was shot in the chest. (Not fun.) And I've had frequent nightmares since I was a small child. Three different sleep studies have told me I have extremely odd sleep patterns - I get almost none (really, like zero) of the deepest stage of sleep, but I'm dreaming before I'm even fully asleep - I can be dreaming and be aware of what's going on around me. I always knew I was an odd duck - I guess this explains at least some of it.
Hee. Sanzo. I do like Sanzo. Even more now that I'm reading all of a four book Journey to the West translation. Sanzo is far more cool and entirely capable and worldly than Tripitika, which may be as it ought to be given his companions. *grins* Actually, reading the original Journey to the West really gives me some interesting ideas for Saiyuki fanfic. *laughs*
Wow... interesting about the sleep study!! And that's amazing about being able to dream and be aware at the same time. I expect your sleep patterns do affect the waking you, too.
I am known to talk in my sleep, too, but I'm grateful that my poor body doesn't always experience my dreams.
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I think, emotionally, it may well equate to how I feel, now about my writing, of all things. *laughs* We'll see how it turns out.
And all the most precise things were the construction equipment. Building things. I think I need to create again, and am uncertain about it? Unsure, insecure is pretty clear....
And, yeah, no home, definitely no home and nothing's quite safe, but this one locked treasure box of all the tools from Before.
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You get smells in your dreams!? That's the one thing I don't get... no matter how vivid it is, how physically painful (I've had dreams where I've woken up swallowing a scream of pain for a sensation that was no longer there), I never smell anything... (I am now thinking about the other senses - sights, sounds, sensations are all yes, but taste? I'm frequently *trying* to eat something & I keep getting interrupted.)
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And I have all five senses in my dreams as well, quite vividly. I'll remember sense memories - voices, smells, tastes - in dreams that I've neither experienced nor thought of for 30-40 years. I also talk in my sleep, cry in my sleep, and physically feel what my body is experiencing in my nightmares, including one memorable one where I was shot in the chest. (Not fun.) And I've had frequent nightmares since I was a small child. Three different sleep studies have told me I have extremely odd sleep patterns - I get almost none (really, like zero) of the deepest stage of sleep, but I'm dreaming before I'm even fully asleep - I can be dreaming and be aware of what's going on around me. I always knew I was an odd duck - I guess this explains at least some of it.
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Wow... interesting about the sleep study!! And that's amazing about being able to dream and be aware at the same time. I expect your sleep patterns do affect the waking you, too.
I am known to talk in my sleep, too, but I'm grateful that my poor body doesn't always experience my dreams.
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Thank you. That... actually speaks to the heart of it from an entirely different angle.
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