Slow Recovery

[liralen]

Just today I was reminded of the first six months after I quit work. I'd just come off a huge project that involved hundreds of people, lots of management and coordination, and communication up and down the organizational hierarchy. My boss actually offered to send me to the West Coast to get an MBA because of the work I did, so I had shown some

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[mdlbear]

*hugs*

Management is no place for an introvert.

[liralen]

*hugs warmly*

*laughs* I was wicked good at it, though, and found a lot of satisfaction in it when I was doing it. And the people I worked with, on all levels, really wanted what I was doing and how I was doing it. It just drained me so deep I didn't even know until after.

Which could mean that you're right, but I miss many aspects of it.

[mdlbear]

*nods*

It's not uncommon to like something that's bad for you.

[liralen]

*laughs* Very very true.

Very very true.

[tallcedars]

What mdlbear said. Gods I hated that stuff. Yes, there was satisfaction when I helped a person or project succeed where they might not have otherwise, but I really, really needed time alone/away from it that just wasn't available when I was in a management or liaison position. Plus it never felt real if I wasn't doing it myself, or at least doing enough of it to have an understanding of the details. There lies madness.

[liralen]

Somehow,I was able to let go of the specificity of the details of some of the really large projects. But I was always more of an intuitive, rather than a sensing type, so that was probably easier for me. I'm happier with the ideas that I am with exactly how to implement them

[momijizukamori]

I'd maybe not agree with his exact ratio, but the sentiment, definitely XD Even company I really enjoy I need to decompress after.

And I hear you on labels - I always feel kind of awkward being a mostly-gay leaning bi genderqueer girl currently semi-dating a guy in those sorts of situations. NOT GAY ENOUGH or something.

[liralen]

Yeah, exactly that need for decompression.

And you also hit it on the head with the "not gay enough" feeling. That's exactly my problem at the moment I think.

Which is kind of funny, considering just how not-straight I happen to be.

Thank you for your thoughts, it's always cool to hear from you.

[momijizukamori]

Yeah, I'm really not either, but if you're in a 'straight' relationship, it's like some sort of automatic 'not gay enough' stamp.

And you're welcome XD I'm usually here, I just... lurk. Perpetually, haha.

[incandescens]

(hugs)

[liralen]

(hugs back)

Thank you!