Feeding Demons

[liralen]

Yes, it has occurred to me that the whole year's worth of pursuing gaming was actually my running away from something else

Comments

[thedabara_cds]

It sounds like you've been through a lot; it's really good that you recognized that you had too much on your plate and needed a good break to recharge and re-think your direction going forward. Don't feel bad about that - to paraphrase a motto from one of my favorite self-help sites: you need to "put your own oxygen mask on first" and practice good self-care first or you cannot be of much help to the others around you

[liralen]

Yeah... I've never been that good at self-care. *laughs quietly* I try, though, a lot more than I used to, and I know what I need to do, the trick, sometimes is actually doing it

[kjc]

Whew! Rough time, hon. I'm glad you figured it out, but I'm sorry it took a year to sort through it all. Can't imagine how hard that must've been. I'd wondered why you were suddenly throwing yourself into gaming so hard, but I didn't really have anything useful to share beyond curiosity.

I Googled, but I'm still not sure about discernment workshops. If I understand correctly, it's about figuring out your calling by figuring out your gifts and the best way(s) to use them? Were you there to take the training or to help the pastor run the workshops? (Or, knowing you, both?)

[liralen]

Mmm... addictive personalities. I am one, and I think the gaming fed some things that really needed to be fed, too. So not all just a front, but... yeah... the thoroughness of this particular bout caught even me by surprise, and the shortened timeframe was interesting for me, as a lot of the things I've done tended to be 3 year encounters. I'm seeing a lot more patterns with time, and am starting to dig into some of the roots of those, too

[incandescens]

I'm glad that you got something you wanted and needed out of the gaming, and I am very glad that you feel that you are making progress and you're pleased with that.

And no wonder you were worn out.

(hugs)

[liralen]

*hugs warmly back*

thank you!! yeah... it is no wonder. Yeah... I did get a lot out of it all, and put a lot into it, too. So it's all good in the end.