I'm such a fucking dumbass.
fuck fuck fuck.
everythings gone .
guess i learnt my lesson... but i really can't handle anything else shitty happening. so if something bad happens i might just die or something. frug. im so bummed

 So i just invested in a 3month  goodlife membership...and i hope i will acutally make use of it because i spent my grocery money on it..
does anyone else have a membership? i don't want to go alone at first... i will be that annoying person that dosen't know how to work anything

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 this is pretty depressing, i was thinking id just forget about xmas and like it would be like im not missing out on anything.. but everything on tv in the paper and in my face is xmas and family ...  ive seen all my movies too many times and cant seem to put myself back to sleep ( Read more... )

i am bored and have not done anything fun in a V long time.. i need a social life .. but one that comes to me because i am in hybernation.. or maybe a hobby or something ( Read more... )

 life is boringggggggggggggggg and i don't have enough weeeeeeeeeeeeed.
i need so much shittt.
i got a FT job again, i now work at sugar mountain in the market, got hired as a keyholder ..weird! i cant wait to go in and eat myself to death!!

nothing else to say!

  i need a friend ( Read more... )

 Body:
ONE- Spell your name without E I M S H A:  LY.
TWO - Are you single? yeh.
THREE - What’s your favorite number? 9.
FOUR - Favorite color? clear, red, grey, 'forest' green.. (not all together.)
FIVE - Least favorite color? dark orange.
SIX - What are you listening to? The sonics.
SEVEN - Sins? Huh?
EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now? No.
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i wish i could go back a few years and change a lot of things......

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" In order for two halves to be whole, each half needs to be whole on its own. " ..
Clayton and i are no more.. for real this time... and acutally for real. I know you don't believe me. ..anyway... ..What now?..... I guess i have alot of figuring out to do but am incapable of doing it,  lots of sorting out and growing up to do. .. where do i start.
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