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[lilywolfsolomon]

So many aspects of depression, or whatever I'm going through. Feeling like I have nothing inside of me, at least nothing useful to anybody else, and so I'm horrified in social situations where I'm actually expected to say something. I can't reveal that there's nothing there. I feel like such an automaton lately. Less spontaneous than I've felt in

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[belenen]

I believe you will get through this. There is no way to know how similar it is, but I have felt an aching emptiness in depression that your words remind me of so much... you can't feel it but it's still there. All your magic is still there.

Honestly, when I felt this desperate I was in therapy at least once a week and if I had insurance it would have been twice a week. I know you have a psychiatrist but maybe therapy is needed? Someone trained to guide you through it, who knows the milestones and can tell you from many proofs that you can make it?

[lilywolfsolomon]

Thank you, thank you. Having others see I might get through this is so helpful. My brain does scary things lately that totally disconnect me and make me so scared of the world, and terrified I can't function in it. Finding a therapist who is trans/poly/kink accepting feels like the only way I won't feel even more alienated, and then to find someone who's actually resonant, it feels like such a task.

[belenen]

this one looks good: https://www.facebook.com/wellspringcounselingcenter and I invited you to an inclusive poly support group thing next monday, maybe we could go together and ask about resources.

[belenen]

or rather, I requested an invite