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lilywhitelilith

that long in darkness pined

Jul 24, 2007 00:29

Title: that long in darkness pined
Author: Telis (theaerosolkid)
Rating: R
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Summary: Brendon and Ryan and BrendonandRyan and the bitch of living.
Word Count: 1905
Disclaimer: Fake, fake, fake.
A/N: Thanks to castoffstarter and disarm_d for their fabulous beta help. An inexcusably late birthday offering to the glorious notshybutsly. This was a real challenge for me, ( Read more... )

r, brendon/ryan

Comments 72

notshybutsly July 24 2007, 10:04:43 UTC

This is totally acceptable as birthday fic, I have no idea why you were doubting it in any way. Why do you do that? You're always so very wrong.

A lot of things here hit home for me. I had that sampler in my room at my grandmother's house and I taught that prayer to my niece when she was two. You know how I love Brendon's religious side and even to a lesser extent Ryan's. This was just amazing and I am so glad that I have awesome friends like you who are willing to write me things like this. That is now my canon for that song btw, you won't convince me otherwise.

♥ ♥ ♥

theaerosolkid July 28 2007, 06:03:28 UTC

Gahh, I'm so glad you liked this!! HAPPY 20, HERE, HAVE SOME ANGST OMG.

That prayer is incredible, man. And just. Brendon, poor babything.

♥♥♥

softlyforgotten July 24 2007, 10:45:25 UTC

Oh, God, Telis, I am so speechless right now. This is so beautiful it hurts, and I love that it centers around Brendon and his misgivings and the like rather than Ryan (and yet Ryan's voice in this is so perfect - "I know you're having. A hard time," Ryan says carefully. "With. With everything, actually. And I tried to pray for you, and. I don't know. I can't pretend to believe in something I don't." - is just amazing, I teared up at that bit).

I'm really sorry, but here I'm going to quote back a whole lot of it at you:

Brendon can't remember how he fell into Ryan. He woke up one day and they were -- they were they. It was BrendonandRyan, with Brendon holding tightly to him, and Ryan was always letting himself be held and held down and hurt and sometimes cared for and maybe loved. Maybe. Brendon isn't too sure about that last one. They were BrendonandRyan but there was RyanandKeltie and for a while it had been AudreyandBrendon and RyanandJac and once it had been AudreyandBrendonandRyanandJac maybe that had been best of all because ( ... )

theaerosolkid July 28 2007, 06:04:30 UTC

*hugs* Good hurt, I hope? Ohh, sigh.

HAHA I KNEW THAT'D MAKE YOU SMILE. I actually cut it out, and threw it back in because I had a feeling you might like it :D

Gahh, your feedback is most delicious, darling *pets* pls never leave <333

jocondite July 24 2007, 11:15:02 UTC

Oh oh oh Ryan (Brendon too, but oh, Ryan). You just pared my heart down to the essentials, the bare underlying choice and starkness, and god, it hurt. Beautifully done.

Also: once it had been AudreyandBrendonandRyanandJac maybe that had been best of all because they were all three at the same time, and he really wasn't ruling out the idea that there had been AudreyandJac, that might have happened, that would have fit, but it wouldn't have mattered because they each had someone to wrap themselves up I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

theaerosolkid July 28 2007, 06:06:17 UTC

Thank you so much!! <333 I'm so glad you liked this, seriously.

The temptation to write a companion fic from Brendon's side is overwhelming. Thoughts?

jocondite July 28 2007, 06:11:38 UTC

I loved it to bits and pieces.

Oh, are you kidding me? I definitely want more - but I thought this *was* Brendon's side? Do you mean you want to go into that deeper? Because I am all for that. I'm also all for Ryan's side. if that's what you mean. *greedy either way*

theaerosolkid July 28 2007, 06:14:50 UTC

I'm so glad omg. This was so weird for me to write, actively resisting that happy smiley ending.

Gahh, I can type, really I can. I totally meant to say Ryan's side. *headdesk* I don't know, though...*indecisive*

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theaerosolkid July 28 2007, 06:06:41 UTC

Hahaha, thanks! Well, the lyrics suck. Musically, it's orgasmic :D

gypsycaravan July 24 2007, 15:57:59 UTC

geez, that was amazing. you always write incredible stuff. i totally love the whole religion aspect in fics. everything was believable, and, just, gah, i loved it.

and (sorry, but i got to say this) i hope they dont put the true love song on the record :):)

XO rosie

theaerosolkid July 28 2007, 06:07:05 UTC

Ahahaa, thanks so much!

Maybe if we all use fandom hivemind, we can keep it off the album! HERE IS HOPING.