What If...?
TITLE : What If...?
AUTHOR : Lilies_009
LENGTH : Chaptered
PAIRING : YooSu (hint Yunjae)
GENRE : Slash/Romance/Angst/violence
RATING : NC-17
CHAPTERS :: Prol 001 002
Chapter 3~
Yoochun's series of flashbacks
I drove back to the city proper and find myself a good hotel to rest for the night. My movement was heavy, and it’s as if I lose all my strength from my body. I frowned realizing that indeed…. he still has an incredible effect on me.
Dropping my tired body into the bed I prayed hard that I would fall asleep and forget everything that happened today. I somehow need the sleep and strength tomorrow or my tiger boss will kill me.
In as much as I didn’t want to, I still end up thinking about him. All the things we went through…….
~ Flashback~
Grade school
“Su what are these for?” Yoochun asked him after he shoves all his food into his food tray.
“For you to eat? What else Chunnie?” he smiled at him innocently. His beautiful fair skin with a hint of blush painted into his face makes him even more pretty to look at.
“But what about you? No. take this back and eat this yourself” Yoochun frowned while in the process of putting back everything into his tray
“Chunnie I already ate a good breakfast at home. I know you didn’t eat yet because I bet your Daddy didn’t let you eat again this time… and how can you protect me to all those bully if you have no strength?” he pouted
“Fine!” Yoochun giving up after seeing the pout from his friend and started to eat all food hungrily.
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Junior High school
“Ya! Are you going out with him?” Yoochun shouted while pulling Junsu to face him and who was giving him a cold shoulder for quite a few days now
“I’m NOT!” he scowled back
“NO? then why did you agree on being his date to our prom then?... or are you just flirting with him just to get back at me for going out with Yeonhee huh?” Yoochun stares was accusing enough to make Junsu even more agitated
“I what Chun? I was flirting? Ghaaa if that’s what you are thinking then FINE! I don’t want to talk to you! believe what you want to BELIEVE! I HATE YOU” he turned around and started to walked away..
“FINE! Then go ahead and be happy with him! Like I care! You’re not treating me like a best friend anyway! You even hangout more often with Hyukie and his friends. AND NOW YOU’RE IGNORING ME LIKE I DON’T EXIST! Do you hate me that much HUH? “Yoochun kept on shouting
Junsu looked back a bit angrier than ever
“ YA! PARK YOOCHUN YOU INSENSITIVE PRICK!? You really want to know why i am ignoring you? Fine I’ll tell you! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I HAVE LOVE YOU EVER SINCE GRADE SCHOOL! DIDN’T YOU KNOW THAT!? YOU JERK!”
“JERK??? YA JUST BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME DOESN’T MEAN YOU CAN JUST IGNORE AND SHOUT AT ME LIKE A MAD MAN! WHAT HE HELL AR….. wait.. what?? what was that Su? did you just said you love me? You FREAKIN LOVE ME?” Yoochun's eyes widened with excitement… he can’t help it but to laugh out loud
Junsu was now crying and was pissed off by Yoochun’s ignorance and attitude “You really are a Jerk!” he rubbed his eyes and was crying like a baby
he turned around again wanting to run and hide thinking how embarrassing it is. But he was held back buy a pair of firm strong arms wrapping him gently in it.
“I love you too Su!”silence “You silly boy… you could have told me earlier.. didn’t you know I have loved you ever since grade school too!”
Junsu looked back with his eyes almost bulging out of its socket
“Really?”
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College
2 months before graduation
“Hey baby! Ohh what happened to your face?” Junsu worriedly caressed Yoochun's’s bruised face “Is it your father again? what did he used this time… a chair? Flower vase? Lamp?”
“Nothing” He looked away ignoring Junsu’s question
“Why are you letting him hit you like that? huh?” Junsu cupped his face and gave him a peck
the older guy held both of his hand and stared at him for a long time before speaking again
“Su Baby… let’s get married after graduation ok.. Will you marry me?Please? Let’s go somewhere away from my father…promise me that you’ll stay with me forever please baby… ok??” pulling his hands slowly near his face and gently kissed his palm “Please baby marry me”
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Sometime after graduation
[Yoochun’s POV]
I ran furiously into the Kim’s residents really worried why Junsu didn’t show up on the place where we supposedly meet. I couldn’t contact his phone either. I was praying that nothing bad happened to him
I anxiously push the intercom and waited for someone to open the gate for me. But it didn’t open. Instead a very weary Mrs. Kim appeared on the intercom screen.
“Mrs Kim… Is Junsu there? Can I talk to him? is he Ok?” I asked her really worried
I saw Mrs. Kim looking around their house as if checking it out for any presence. I can very well sense that she is very troubled. Just then Mr.Kim appeared and looked through the intercom with his usual suave looked but this time he was a bit…. MAD.
Did he find out that me and Junsu were supposed to…….. but my thoughts were cut by Mr. Kims words.
“Why are you here?”
“umm…. I’m….. I need to talk to Junsu. he’s not answering his phone. We’re supposed to meet today but…. Is he there?Is he ok?” I wasn’t really mad. I was rather worried.
“he’s not here anymore”
I looked at them really confused. “What? what do you mean he’s not here anymore?” I was shaking. “where did he go? When is he coming back?”
“he’s not coming back! he packed up and went to live with his Fiancée”
“Fiancée? What do you mean fiancée? I am his boyfriend! Wh…. What….” I stood there frozen as I stare at the intercom, without even blinking.
“Park yoochun, do you really think my son will choose you over Mr.Choi?... will he choose a mere Park over a Choi? Think about it!”
“Choi? Choi Siwon? No I don’t believe you! I won’t…. Junsu will never choose money over me!” I bellowed at the Kim’s
“Tsk. Tsk… if you don’t believe me go to Club Theron later tonight. But don’t let them see you!”
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Club Theron
I shook at where I am standing. I couldn’t believe it…. My Boyfriend…My Junsu is in this stupid bar kissing this Choi Siwon. I gagged after seeing them both standing outside the parking lot kissing.
Although I am not supposed to show up I couldn’t help myself but to walk towards them and beat this guy who is kissing my Su. I refused to believe that Junsu is actually doing this. I was thinking of many reasons why.Maybe she’s drunk? Did He drug hi?m
After I punched Siwon hard I felt something hit my face, and I was surprise to see that it was actually My Su who slapped me. I held unto my stinging face and looked at him. I didn’t really care how hard the slap was… I was mad about thinking that he was helping this Siwon guy.
I saw him walked towards Siwon who I manage punched down to the ground.he helped him to stand up and they walk towards his car.
“Junsu!? what are you doing?” I ran towards him and yanked his arms to face me
“Why are you here? You’re not supposed to be here!” I took a step backand was stunned by the way he talked to me. and his face and eyes were emotionless.
“What? What’s going on Su? Are you telling me that you are really with him? Are you really cheating on me?”
It took him a while before he answered “yes! I am cheating on you!Siwon is my fiancée and I am now living with him”
I stared at him in shocked “Su….I… I thought you love me… what’s going on? TELL ME!?” I was shouting furiously
“ I don’t love you Yoochun. I never loved you!” he turned his back on me and he walked away. Just like that.
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