Desperate Measures

[lilmissnever]

People of the Internet, stand back. I am about to use this space in a way that I do not normally approve of. I am going to tell you a sad story. Then I will expect you, the People of the Internet, to express sympathy and give me hugs and tell me that everything is going to be alright. I normally find this sort of interaction disingenuous. Sympathy

Comments

[thewronghands]

[hugs] Ow. I'm so sorry, and that sounds immensely painful in a rather more direct way than oversights usually are. No mercy in Soviet tissu.

I hope your face heals up and that the damage was not too great.

[lilmissnever]

My face is not nearly as busted up as my pride. Rather than spending the last year becoming a better performer, I feel as if I have been getting steadily worse.

[thewronghands]

[more hugs]

[tea]

Do you want to talk about it (like, technical proficiency-wise, or life-commitment-overreach and then life interferes, or artistically?), or would you prefer a full sympathy feed for the moment?

[lilmissnever]

I've never been one to turn away analysis.

Technical proficiency-wise, I think that this is an important lesson. The most dangerous time in a stressful situation is just when you think you've got it under control. I was stressed-out enough to screw it up, but comfortable enough not to double-check my work.

I am aiming for a sense of Zen-like calm before I speculate about what this experience means for my aerial practice. Right now, I am experiencing fist-clenching anger and frustration along the lines of "Aaaaargh, I will never be good at this! I should just take up basket-weaving!" Once that feeling is out of the way, I think I will have an easier time figuring out what to do next. One thing I suspect in that the way I am putting together acts, several months in advance, starting from scratch, is not working. I can't afford to get down to the last two weeks of every show and run a 50/50 shot of either injuring myself or getting sick. In this case, I magically managed to do both.

[raychoo]

OW OW OW. You get SO MANY hugs from me.

[wyndebreaker]

I read through this post twice, trying to come up with a fitting, "In Soviet Russia" joke, but I've just decided to give you a 'net hug.

Seriously though, faceplants are awful. Really awful.

I did more than my share when I was a skater.

Always fun chatting with you at DG, btw. Too bad it's only one every couple of months.

[lilmissnever]

Ow! At least I still have all of my teeth.

[gnat23]

OMG! OMG!

Here I was just thinking you were leading up to some sort of scheduling conflict. NOT COOL.

Well, I guess one folly is to assume that your progress is linear, or at least, always trending up. Perhaps once fully healed, you will discover some new super-power that was hibernating and just needed a thwack in the head to shake out. No?

*HUGS* anyway, heal up both the face and the self-confidence...!

[lilmissnever]

I am hoping that new super-powers will emerge as a result of this thwack to the head, but I will settle for not feeling miserable.

[ilcylic]

*hugs*

*ices your face*