[Drabble] - "Pulsions"
Author : lilisan31
Beta : matsuaurore ♥
Pairing : Ohmiya
Genre : Romance, angts, drame
Word count : 411 words
Summary : "I love you Satoshi.."
Note : Here we are, the second drabble!
It's the next of "Heartbeat".
Enjoy it Little devils!
XOXO ♥
[Pulsions]
I always liked to listen to the beating of his heart, this small consistent sound, its speed and its panic under different emotions.
Bum-bump Bum-bump
The same vital need it has to beat to animate his body.
I sometimes lay a hand on his bare skin at the place of his heart to feel every beat, I enjoy this slight, so slight vibration that is played under my fingers, and, sometimes, I stick my ear there to memorize the sound, the melody, the random rhythm of his heart, his vital organ orchestrator of life.
Bum-bump Bum-bump
I wonder…when began my obsession of wanting to feel it again and again, to be its only master, the one who decides its symphony.
As time goes by, the desire to imprison him monopolizes my mind even more. Frightening thoughts haunt my nights. My tender gestures become rough and lose all their sweetness. Horrible visions assail my empty moments, I have the feeling I’m not controlling anything anymore.
Despite my loss of control, I can't bring myself to leave and protect him of my foolishness.
Is it for love?
Bum-bump Bum-bump
Today I can't bear it anymore, saying I’ve passed the Border-line would be far away from the truth because deep inside, I don't think I’ve ever been sane in my life.
If I had a soul, it would be troubled, if I had feelings, I would have no regrets, and if I had a heart I wouldn’t covet the one of the most important person for me.
One ordinary night became for me the most beautiful one of my life, to fill a gap, to withdraw life like to instill it, this feeling of all-power!
My fingers clenched, tight, too tight on his windpipe, the misunderstanding but especially the fear in his eyes, the almost total asphyxia getting me close to the ecstasy.
- Ka... zu .. Wh... Why..
His voice died in this last effort, like the light of life in his eyes.
Bum.. Bump.. Bu-....
Because I had to! Your heart wouldn't have beaten forever for me...
I just can't imagine it beating for someone else than me. It belongs to me!
That's why I prefer to take it away from you, to keep it just for me, to be the only one able to feel its pulse, to be its only master.
- I love you Satoshi.
Beta : matsuaurore ♥
Pairing : Ohmiya
Genre : Romance, angts, drame
Word count : 411 words
Summary : "I love you Satoshi.."
Note : Here we are, the second drabble!
It's the next of "Heartbeat".
Enjoy it Little devils!
XOXO ♥
[Pulsions]
I always liked to listen to the beating of his heart, this small consistent sound, its speed and its panic under different emotions.
Bum-bump Bum-bump
The same vital need it has to beat to animate his body.
I sometimes lay a hand on his bare skin at the place of his heart to feel every beat, I enjoy this slight, so slight vibration that is played under my fingers, and, sometimes, I stick my ear there to memorize the sound, the melody, the random rhythm of his heart, his vital organ orchestrator of life.
Bum-bump Bum-bump
I wonder…when began my obsession of wanting to feel it again and again, to be its only master, the one who decides its symphony.
As time goes by, the desire to imprison him monopolizes my mind even more. Frightening thoughts haunt my nights. My tender gestures become rough and lose all their sweetness. Horrible visions assail my empty moments, I have the feeling I’m not controlling anything anymore.
Despite my loss of control, I can't bring myself to leave and protect him of my foolishness.
Is it for love?
Bum-bump Bum-bump
Today I can't bear it anymore, saying I’ve passed the Border-line would be far away from the truth because deep inside, I don't think I’ve ever been sane in my life.
If I had a soul, it would be troubled, if I had feelings, I would have no regrets, and if I had a heart I wouldn’t covet the one of the most important person for me.
One ordinary night became for me the most beautiful one of my life, to fill a gap, to withdraw life like to instill it, this feeling of all-power!
My fingers clenched, tight, too tight on his windpipe, the misunderstanding but especially the fear in his eyes, the almost total asphyxia getting me close to the ecstasy.
- Ka... zu .. Wh... Why..
His voice died in this last effort, like the light of life in his eyes.
Bum.. Bump.. Bu-....
Because I had to! Your heart wouldn't have beaten forever for me...
I just can't imagine it beating for someone else than me. It belongs to me!
That's why I prefer to take it away from you, to keep it just for me, to be the only one able to feel its pulse, to be its only master.
- I love you Satoshi.