Alone?

[lifeisnotragedy]

I don't think being at home for 6 weeks is putting me in such a happy place that I wanted to be. I begged to come home after Abi died - to get out of the dorm, the passage, the place she had grown so deep into our hearts. Yet here it feels so much...closed off. I don't have friends here anymore to say that right now I'm not feeling okay. No-one

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[backtograce]

I know how you feel. I'm miserable with my life, but I shouldn't be. I have great friends, a good family, a decent job. Sure, there's things I could change, but I do have a good life. And yet, for the most part, I feel miserable, empty, alone. I hate it.

I hope we both find that missing piece soon. <3

[lifeisnotragedy]

Yeah I know what you mean. I have a guy that says he loves me. But then he tells me stuff like he loves long brown hair, a girl that does this and that...and everytime he sums up his best (girl) friend as the girl he would love to marry. Now everytime I talk to him I just know that he may love me - but I highly doubt he's in love with me.

I really hope we do.

[backtograce]

That's terrible. I've got my own guy problems. One guy in Cali that I've had feelings for for a while (he just moved down there around Thanksgiving) informed me he has feelings for me, too, then started dating this other chick.

Another friend of mine who's aware of my feelings is completely hung up on another friend who isn't interested in him, and he keeps complaining about how he can't find a girlfriend.

It's terrible. And I don't really know how to explain it to anyone.

I'm really emo today. =(