i had church for 2 and a half hours. as much as i despise religion, tonights service was actually somewhat beautiful in the beginning. all the lights were out and all that was showing was the light from all the candles. that was nice.
IM FUCKING SICK OF FEELINGS AND IM FUCKING SICK OF YOU!!!
i felt like yelling.
i really am fed up with feelings though. the human psyche in general. the whole spectrum. fuck that. the past few weeks have been so confusing, i just dont care anymore.
i believe bright eyes said it best. i want a lover i dont have to love.
"So I want to get myself attached to something bolted down, So that these winds of circumstance won't keep blowing me around. To when I land to when I leave there is enough time to sleep and sing. I keep running when all I want is to lay motionless