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[lenarix_klinde]

Title: First Snow
Pairing: Kurogane/Fai+Yuui
Rating: PG
Warnings: Sap, Kuro!perspective
World: Horitsuba
Spoilers: Horitsuba Drama CD 3
Summary: Kurogane's not having fun. Not at all.
Author's Note: Based off of lexi_nyanko’s recent picture. Unbeta’d, quick, written with slight reluctance because I need to come to terms with this. I’ll explain why

Comments

[lexi_nyanko]

This was lovely~ <3 I like both Kurogane/Fai+Yuui and Kurogane/Fai/Yuui but if you don't like the first, you shouldn't force yourself to write it...*pets* no one will blame you for it. ;-; *hugs*

[lenarix_klinde]

No, it's all right. It's just...something I had to do. If I hadn't written it, I would probably have gotten irrationally angry, except I would have bottled it up and then done something inexcusable, like flame someone or take it out IRL or just have been unhappy. And honestly, fandom's not serious business and I hate it when my mind tries to make me see it that way. At least this way I can look at KuroFai+Yuui without getting irrationally angry now, so I guess it all worked out.

*hugs back* I'm very glad you liked it.

[bunigiri]

Hm, I could kind of 'feel' the resentment you had while writing this (amirite? there was writerangst?). But even so, I think it was beautiful because you wrote something you're not partial to, and still did a great job of it. -nod-

My writing reflects my feelings; if I hate what I'm doing it will come out more horrible than usual. xD

You did a wonderful job here ^____^

[lenarix_klinde]

Yeah, a bit. I tried to become a bit detached from the piece so that I could write it without being TOO emo. I don't think I'll ever be able to totally divorce myself from that opinion, though.

Thank you very much, though. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[lenarix_klinde]

Oh, I recognize that it doesn't have to be that way. It will just always seem that way to me, because I don't like the thought of Yuui being alone. It's just like, "KuroFai!...oh, yeah, and Yuui's over there," even if the piece is well-written or well-done. It doesn't make sense, but it just irks me. It's why I either write them as a trio or with Yuui completely excluded. This fic was just me dealing with it rather than flaming/trolling someone some day because I kept it all bottled up, as I have a tendency to do IRL. (It's not pretty.)

Nevertheless, thanks for reading and commenting, and I'm glad you enjoyed it.

(And please, in regards to KFY - if I'm fucking it up, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me how you think I can do better and I will be grateful. Because I realize I'm not the best writer out there, and I do run my fics through beta/read them through before I post them, but I do miss stuff and if I want to get better I need feedback.)

[lenarix_klinde]

I know. See, the thing with me is, I can't ship Yuui with other people. It doesn't feel right. I get the same nasty little pit in my stomach when someone tries to pair Fai or Kuro-min up with Sakura or Syaoran. (And I've seen a prompt on the Anon Fic Meme where someone's shipped him with Shaoron and I was like, ":/ Noplz.") So he either stands alone or gets paired up with Kurogane and Fai. ...Fuck, I really wish I could treat this fandom like I treat Gyakuten Saiban, where my OTP is Everyone/Everyone. (The ten-part kink meme made me ship it. >B It's hard to be wanky when you treat every character like the town bicycle.)

And I understand what you mean about the "PASTEDED ON YHEY" thing for both scenarios, but personally? I can't write them any other way. Or, as seen above, I can, it's just that my heart isn't gonna be completely in it, ergo, subpar writing. And I hate not writing up to my full potential. At the same time, I recognize my need to grow and branch out in order to get better, hence stuff like this. So now I can

[kurofai_fangirl]

Squee!! This was sooo cute!! And I didn't see any mistakes!*runs off to swoon over Kuro-rin in the pic*

[lenarix_klinde]

Ahaha! Glad you liked it, thank you for reading!

[michechu]

I still think this is up to par with your usual work, but you're right. KuroFai+Yuui just gives me the feeling of someone being left out, and in the end I really feel sorry for Yuui. Because of that, this story fell flat for me.

It makes me wonder if there's really a way to write it without one or more parties causing a negative reaction in the reader. Especially in situations where Yuui feels fond towards KuroFai and their relationship-- like here-- because it's such a complicated situation, really. You can tell he's close with both characters but still, in the end, left out of what could be seen as a stronger bond (common sense dictates that romance does not make a relationship stronger than one without romance, but it still leaves an impression nontheless

[lenarix_klinde]

You know, their is always Kuro-Daddy. Or, if you really wanted to get cracky, Zima from Chobits. *carves a special little niche for herself in hell for that half-joke*

Trust me, it wasn't really easy for me to write, but I did it. So, meh. :P At worst, people will accuse me of trying not to look like a fancunt, which, well, I don't know that they're entirely incorrect, though they're not the main reason I wrote this. I wrote it for myself, not to satisfy them. That'd just kind of be a waste of time.

Thanks for reading and being honest, and I'm sorry you couldn't enjoy it more.