I don't give a fuck who sees this.

[leastconcern]

 Admitting I'm a shitty person is a big step, I think. Lately I've obviously been subconciously or either conciously thinking of my last relationship (with Kai). My thoughts and fantasies keep drifting off to him, especially when I'm meditating or masturbating (odd mix, yeah).  But, I try to quickly shove it aside. I don't want to think about him.

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[xthe_mad_hatter]

I've never commented here before, and I admit it's hard to be serious with Family Guy playing in the background (Peter singing "Rock lobster!" kind of ruins the mood), but I digress--

I understand the feeling of talking to your friends, wanting to confide and somehow the conversation always drifts back to their problems... and you're just expected to bite down hard on your tongue and nod at those appropriate moments. I think you have a really healthy attitude towards the rest of it - thinking that you can love, that you're capable of it, and wanting it - and I think that's probably the first step. It sounds an awful like that psycho-touchy-feely crap they feed you on the tv, but it has to be true at least sometimes. Just keep your head high, breathe deep, and things'll work out. And if not, well, there's always angsty music, right?

At least, that's what I keep telling myself. :D

[tawncherie]

Aw Dani, I don't know what to say, I just want to hug you. :/