Lots of hugs and sympathy. I know how hard it is to lose a special horse, heck it's been 8 years for me and I know I'll never get over Flair's loss (although part of what does make it so hard for me is that we had 12 years together) For you, it's not the loss of what you had had, but what you could have had, and while I've never been in that position, I understand it fully.
It's hard sometimes, to move beyond. We build up these dreams and expectations, and then it gets snatched away.
I also put down my almost 16 year-old dog in February and while that was sad it wasn't nearly so hard because she did live that full, long life. I do know that after so long together you feel the empty space more.
I think I will be asking "where would we be now if" for a very long time. She was the last one I was expecting to lose.
It will get easier. I'm two years out now with dash and nearly two years from Samwise. I still miss them and occasionally feel overwhelmed, but mostly remember them without tears anymore. Sometimes i mourn more for sam because I feel more like i failed him and his potential, whereas dash lived a life fulfilled and probably exceeded what everyone thought was his potential. You probably will morn longer because she was taken away so soon, b but i promise that someday it will get easier. And even if she was your second heart house and you have no other heart horses, you will find not and excitement in the bringing along of others. They just may not touch quite the same way. Or, like Samwise, you won't know how much they touched you until it's time to let them go.
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It's hard sometimes, to move beyond. We build up these dreams and expectations, and then it gets snatched away.
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I think I will be asking "where would we be now if" for a very long time. She was the last one I was expecting to lose.
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It was a bit that way with Zetahra. I didn't know how close I held her until I was facing letting her go.
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