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Chapter 18
Adam knew something was wrong even before he stepped his foot through the front door of his brand new home. He was met with silence when usually it would be the sound of his boyfriend softly playing his guitar on the living room floor. Stepping fully into the living room Adam found Kris hunched over Adam's lap top. His eyes knitted together in worry while he chewed on his bottom lip with his teeth.
“I swear honey I don't know how those porn video's got onto my lap top.” Adam joked holding up his hands.
Kris looked up from the screen with an annoyed look on his face. “I've been calling your cell for hours.”
“Battery died at the studio.” Adam walked slowly towards his boyfriend. “What's happened?”
“Oh nothing. Just the end of our careers.” Kris turned the lap top for Adam to see.
“Who's Steve?” Adam sat down on the floor next to Kris to look at the email on the screen.
“Some editor from some crappy magazine.” Kris said turning the lap top towards himself.
“And what does Steve the editor want?”
“To ruin our life.” Kris said causing Adam to smirk. “It's not funny Adam he knows. He knows about us.”
“He knows what about us?”
“He knows I live here.” Kris answered.
“As my room mate.” Adam shrugged. “You're using my guest room till you find a place of your own.” Adam repeated the same old lie he had told people before when they asked about their living arrangements.
“That room doesn't even have a bed in it.” Kris said matter of factly.
“You like the floor, it's better for your back.”
“He has a picture of us together.” Kris read out loud. “A private moment we wouldn't want others to see.”
“He has a picture of that? I don't even have a picture of that.” Adam complained with a smile as he tried to look over Kris's shoulder at the screen.
“Not that sort of picture. It's always about sex with you isn't it.” Kris snapped. “It's some picture of us one of his photographers took.” Kris leaned to the side to let Adam see the screen.
Adam studied the picture closely. It looked like the photographer had been standing right next to them to take it. Adam recognised the parking lot they had been in the week before when Kris dropped him off at the studio.
“My hair looks nice.” Adam commented.
Kris rolled his eyes at his boyfriend. “Yea that's what the public will be saying when they see this splashed across every magazine cover.” Kris rubbed his tired eyes sighing, he couldn't believe they had been so careless.
Flashback (In flashback)
Kris pulled Adam's car into the empty parking lot of the studio Adam was recording in. “Sweet. I told you I would get to ride this thing one day.”
“Yea yea. Just be careful today. You ain't in Arkansas any more pretty boy. These La streets are crazy.” Adam unbuckled his belt to look at his boyfriend. “You going to be okay alone? I'm sure the guys wouldn't mind you sitting in on the recording.”
“This is my only day off this month I think I need the fresh air.” Adam nodded at Kris's words.” Anyway I can't be there when you write all those amazing love songs for me. I want it to be a surprise when I buy the album.”
“Oh you'll be surprised.” Adam smirked. “And I'm sure you won't have to buy a copy. You're sleeping with the star of it after all.”
“Yea.” Kris laughed. “That's why I spent most of last night bent over our kitchen table. Just so I wouldn't have to pay for a copy.” Kris smiled seeing Adam begin to pout. “Did I put the image back in your head?”
“Yea and now I have to go in there with a bunch of middle age straight men with that image replaying in my mind.” Adam complained causing Kris to laugh.
“Well have fun.” Kris leaned over the car to kiss Adam goodbye only to have Adam pull away. “What?”
“Someone might see.”
“Adam we're in an empty parking lot at five in the morning. No one's going to see.”
Adam looked round the car before turning back to Kris for a kiss. “And people think you're the innocent one.”
Kris only shrugged. “If only they knew.”
Adam left one last kiss on his lips before climbing out the car. “Be careful driving.” He warned before turning towards the studio.
He was almost at the door when Kris suddenly remembered something. “Adam wait.” Kris climbed out the drivers seat jogging towards his boyfriend with something in his hand. “I made you this.”
“Adam unwrapped the package finding salad and sandwiches inside. “You made me lunch?” Adam asked with a smile.
“When you were in the shower. My Mama used to make it for my Dad before he went to work.....” Kris looked down at his feet pushing his hands into his tight jeans. “I just thought you might like it.” Kris looked up shyly at his boyfriend.
“I love it.” Adam smiled holding the package close to his chest. “No one's ever....” Adam clenched his mouth shut as his eyes began to tear up. “No one's ever done that for me before.”
“It's only salad and sandwiches.” Kris said. “It's nothing really.”
“It's everything.” Adam explained. “My ex's would never have done this. They would be reminding me my hips need me to skip a meal or two not encouraging me to eat more. I'll get more fat than I am.”
“You're not fat.” Kris said shaking his head.
“Oh please my love handles are bigger than the football trophy thingy.”
Kris ignored his boyfriends attempts at a football reference and took a step towards him. “This silly idea of you having love handles is all in your head.” Kris said softly.
“Oh they're there.” Adam protested.
Kris reached out pulling at his boyfriends t-shirt. “Where? Show me.”
Adam wiggled around trying to stop Kris from pulling his t-shirt while trying not to drop his lunch. “Stop it. It tickles.” Adam laughed feeling Kris's strong hands pulling at his hips.
“Well you stop making up things in your head.” Kris said as he pulled down Adam's t-shirt again. “Now go and record that love song for me and eat your lunch.” Kris said pushing Adam backwards towards the studio door.
End of Flashback (In Flashback)
Kris looked down at the photograph on the screen. Kris had his hands under Adam's t-shirt while the older singer held his hands at his chest, his head thrown back as he laughed freely. There was no denying the look of pure love on Kris's face as he looked at Adam.
“Your hair does look good though.” Kris said turning to look at Adam.
“That's what I'm saying.” Adam smiled.
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Adam waited for Kris to go make some dinner before reading the email fully. Who ever Steve was knew a lot about them but Adam knew he could turn it all around. It wasn't the first time they had been photographed looking like a loved up couple. Kris was always touching Adam in public. Adam knew he could turn it around and make it Kris just being Kris.
He began his reply to Steve the editor explaining that while he found his email funny there was no romance between him and Kris. He hated lying, he had never been good at it. Even when his mother asked him for the first time if he was gay he couldn't lie, it just wasn't him. But for Kris he would. If Kris needed more time he would give it to him. He would give him the world if he wanted it. As he explained to Steve how he and Kris would only ever be friends because Kris was straight Kris walked in front of Adam causing him to stop and look up.
“ I don't want you to reply to him.” Kris said sitting on the floor across from Adam.
“If I don't he'll take that as us hiding.” Adam explained. “He'll print the picture.”
“I know but I don't want some email from us to be how the world finds out. I want to get it right.” Kris said.
“And how do we get it right.” Adam asked.
“I called Ryan from the kitchen. He'll be over with a tv crew tonight.” Kris said standing up. “I'll go make us something to eat if you want to go get ready. I know you'll want to be pretty for the big reveal.”
“On tv?” Adam asked standing up. He watched Kris nod his head with a smile. “You're crazy.” Adam half laughed.
“What's the matter? Scared my coming out with be cooler than yours Mr Rolling Stone.” Kris smiled walking out as Adam shook his head in disbelief.
End Of Flashback.
Adam sat looking at the computer screen with Sophia resting on his knee. He was still getting used to four am feeding's and the only way he was surviving it was answering the many emails he had sitting waiting for him. He wished he hadn't as he read one from his manager. Requests for Sophia's first baby picture and interview about Kris's accident had now flooded in and they now had to make a decision.
“What do you think baby girl? You ready for your big photo shoot. Ready to let the world see how pretty you are?” Sophia looked up at Adam like she understood every word he said making him smile. “Is it bad that I want to keep you to myself? You know I give the world so much it was nice keeping you a little secret.” Adam paused to sit Sophia up a little on his knee. “You'll learn I don't like to share baby. It's bad enough I have to share your Daddy with the world it would be nice to keep you to myself.”
“I don't get a share?” Came Kris's sleepy voice from the door.
Adam turned to see his husband walking fully into the office clad in only his boxer shorts. “Yummy.” Adam smiled.
Kris shook his head as he sat himself down on Adam's lap. “A baby on your knee and you flirt?”
“My baby girl gets it.” Adam said smiling. “ They want her”
Kris let his eyes scan over the email in front of him. “We knew they would.”
“Couldn't we tell them it was a joke and we really don't have a daughter?” Adam looked at his husband pouting.
“And when we take her out?” Kris asked wrapping his arm around Adam's shoulder.
“I'll tell them after all these years you've finally went to Hollywood crazy and bought a tiny monkey.” Adam laughed as Kris smacked his back.
“You just called out daughter a monkey”
“A cute monkey” Adam explained.
“So how are we going to show off our girl?” Kris asked running his hand through Adam's thick hair.
“Magazine cover I'm guessing” Adam pulled a face.
“You don't want to?” Kris quizzed.
“It's just so.....common.” Adam said. “Everyone does that.”
“And you hate being just like everyone.” Kris nodded. “Well we don't have to go with the usual magazines. We could pick a different one.” Kris said causing Adam's face to light up. “And I'm guessing you know what one?”
Adam nodded his head his mouth pulling into a wide smile. “Rolling Stone.”
“Thought you might say that.” Kris smiled.
“Do you agree?”
“My baby girl on the cover of Rolling Stone? Totally. No snakes though.” Kris joked.
“No snakes.” Adam agreed with a smile. “I was thinking more of a winter feel.”
“You've been thinking about this” Kris remarked.
“I'm always thinking new idea's. I've got your next album cover all worked out.” Adam said.
“Good to know.” Kris smiled. “It's funny our whole relationship has been spread across the pages of magazines.”
“Or all over the tv shows.” Adam remarked.
“Ah the Ryan interview.” Kris smiled brightly. “I enjoyed that.”
“I almost wet myself sitting on the sofa beside you.” Adam remembered.
“You did look shocked with my honesty.” Kris smiled.
“It was poor Ryan I felt sorry for.”
“Poor guy still can't look me in the eye after the bathroom story.”
Flashback
Adam looked himself over in the full length mirror in their bedroom breathing in deeply, he was nervous, not for himself but for Kris. He was about to admit for the first time to the public that he was gay and in love and he was doing it all for Adam. Adam was still blown away but the love Kris was showing him.
“Ready rock star?” Kris came up behind Adam to cuddle into his back pressing his face into the soft material of Adam's jacket.
“I don't know. What do you wear at your boyfriends coming out interview?” Adam asked pulling at his leather jacket.
“Hell if you don't know there's no hope of me knowing.”
Adam turned to face Kris wrapping his arms around his small frame. “Scared?”
“Completely but it has to be done.” Kris reached up to fix Adam's collar. “And in twenty years when they finally get over the shock they might leave us alone.”
“Oh honey.” Adam laughed. “People won't be as shocked as you think they will.”
“Hey I hid my feeling for you pretty well during the show.” Kris said causing Adam to smirk. “I did.”
“If you really say so baby.”
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“For those living under a rock the past year these two gentlemen in front of me are American Idol winner Kris Allen and runner up Adam Lambert.” Kris and Adam smiled politely through Ryan's introduction Side by side they sat on Adam's sofa with the crew surrounding them. “Now Kris you called me personally to say you had an announcement to make.”
“I do.” Kris said with a nod. He could feel Adam sitting nervously beside him and it took everything he had not to reach over and comfort his lover.
“With Adam beside you it means it's got something to do with him too?” Ryan asked.
“It does.” Kris smiled. “ I wanted Adam with me because it's about him too.”
“Right.” Ryan smiled. “ When we found out we would be doing this at Adam's house we were guessing what the annoucement would be.” Ryan said. “And we all agreed you were going to announce a summer tour together.”
Adam tried not to laugh. “Not exactly.” He said talking for the first time.
“It's just you two have formed a great relationship outside the show.” Ryan explained. “You guys have a lot of the same fans.
“And a tour would be interesting.” Kris agreed. “But that's not why I asked you here.”Kris agreed stopping Ryan from rambling any more. “I just wanted all my fans to know what's going on in my life right now.”
“And what's going on.” Ryan asked.
“Well since my divorce from Katy people have been waiting for a new relationship to start.” Kris took a deep breath. “And I just wanted my fans to know that I'm now in a new relationship..... with Adam.” Kris felt Adam's hand slip over his knee giving it a gentle squeeze. “I'm in love with Adam.” Kris said when Ryan said nothing.
Ryan looked down at Adam's hand over Kris's knee before turning to the cameraman. “Cut there.”
“We're done?” Adam asked standing up when Ryan did.
“You guys sure you want to do this?”
“I love him.” Kris said as he stood too. “I thought it would be easier telling someone who knows us.”
Ryan looked at both men before telling them to sit. Sitting himself down Ryan waiting for the crew to get ready before turning back to Kris again. “You just told me your in love with Adam Kris. You know I can't leave it there.” Ryan smiled.
“I was hoping you wouldn't.” Kris laughed setting himself back on the sofa.
“Lets go back, when did it start.” Ryan asked Kris.
“Probably at hi I'm Adam Lambert.” Kris laughed. “But really it was during the last few weeks of the show. When people started leaving, the house got less full and when it got down to the last four I got my own room.” Kris looked at Adam. “I didn't like that. I found myself going back to his room. I missed him.”
“That's very honest of you.” Ryan looked at Adam. “Did you miss Kris, Adam.”
“I miss him when he walks out the room.” Adam joked.
“I knew that wasn't normal for me to miss a guy I had met. Or any guy really.” Kris smiled. “So I talked to Katy.”
“You told Katy about your feelings?” Ryan asked in shock.
“I tell Katy everything.” Kris smiled as Adam nodded in agreement.
“And what did Katy say.”
“She told me to stay calm and not be scared and she would help me”
“And did she?” Ryan asked.
“After the show ended before the tour began Katy and I went away for a few days. I had no contact with Adam at all.”
“Pure hell.” Adam couldn't help but add.
“Hell but it was needed. Katy and I talked about everything and she told me what I should do.” Kris looked at Ryan with a smile. “My ex wife is pretty cool.”
“What did she tell you?” Ryan asked completely engrossed.
“She told me she was leaving me and if I didn't make a go of it with Adam she would kick my ass.”
“Best wife ever.” Adam remarked.
Kris smiled at his boyfriend. “When I got home there was a Rolling Stone magazine waiting for me.”
“The famous interview.” Ryan remarked. “So you went and told Adam how you felt.”
“Nope.” Kris smiled.
“He waited till half way through the tour just to torture me I think.” Adam laughed leaning himself closer to Kris's side.
“What happened in the middle of tour?”
“I told him I loved him in the bus bathroom.” Kris answered laughing.
“You confessed your love in a bathroom?” Ryan asked surprised.
“Surrounded by snoring Idol contestants.” Adam laughed.
“Did they know?”
“We haven't told anyone but family and close friends.” Kris answered. “Everyone else will get to know now.”
“And what would you like them to know.” Ryan directed his question to Kris.
“That I love Adam. This isn't some random choice I've made I do love him and I want to be with him forever. And he didn't end my marriage. Katy and I did that. I don't want people blaming Adam. I'm gay I have been my whole life and Adam only loved me enough for me to be brave and admit it.” Kris finished by taking Adam's hand in his own and kissing it.
“And you Adam? What do you want people to know?” Ryan asked.
“I'm in love.” Adam smiled wide. “That's it I'm in love. They don't need to know anything else but that”
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