[fanfic] Screw it! Byou/Manabu pt. 13
Title: Screw it!
Part: 13/?
Author: ladyrevania
Rating: R
Warnings: violence and more *doesn't want to spoil*
Main pairing: Byou/Manabu
Other characters: SCREW members
Disclaimer: Screw disclaimers. You know they aren't mine. Only the storyline is.
Summary: Manabu doesn't want to be quiet and only stare when he bullies other people. No, he has to do something about it, even if he might regret it later.
I struggled, because I hoped I can get free and run away, but this guy was much stronger than me, he held me tightly. The one who was talking to me earlier, probably their boss or someone who was respected by the other two smirked and punched my stomach.
"I noticed you changed... You look more like a fag. I won't touch your face, because you would probably start crying, because of bruises... I wonder if you faint when you see blood, pretty boy. I'm curious and I'm going to test you now." He touched my earlobes with both hands. "Nice piercings. Say goodbye to them." The guy pulled my earrings and I felt a sharp pain. Something wet started flowing down my neck... My lobes hurt terribly. The guy showed me my earrings and threw them on the ground. He ripped them out of my ears. I didn't make a sound and I didn't cry, which made him angry. He probably wanted me to beg for forgiveness, but I just was too scared and shocked to do anything. I stopped struggling and trying to run away. I wondered if they were going to kill me, or not...
"You know, faggot... I heard mud is healthy for your skin, so why won't you try a mud mask?" He smirked again and look at his friends. "You know what to do."
They forced me to kneel and then lowered my face to the ground. I tried my best to fight with it, but they finally put my face into the puddle of mud. That was disgusting, some dogs might have pissed and shit there. One of them grabbed my hair and lifted my head.
"Was the mud tasty?" Asked their leader, but I remained silent. I didn't want to satisfy him. "Ok, you asked for it yourself." He kicked my head, then my arm and my stomach again... His friends started hitting me.
When I received all these punches and kicks, I tried to stop thinking about the pain. I closed my eyes and imagined something very nice. It was a warm bath with lots of bubbles and rubber duckie floating on the water. I knew it was stupid and funny, but it helped me to endure everything. I stopped ignoring it when they ripped my shirt and bandages off and the leader dug his nails into my cuts. I hissed loudly, which made him laugh. He scratched my wounds harder. I couldn't take it anymore.
"Please, stop... I beg you, stop..." I whispered quietly.
"You're such a coward, but we will stop. Guys, he needs some sleep in a nice, warm place. Like this trash container. Put him to his "bed", close the lid and leave this fucking fag alone."
I really wanted to get out of there when they threw me inside, but I was too weak. Everything hurt me and I just lost my consciousness.
When I woke up, I felt a terrible smell of trash around me and some bugs walking on my torso. Everything hurt me, but I got up quickly and hit the lid with my head. I used all my strength to lift it and I barely did it, because my left shoulder hurt a lot. When I finally got out of there, I noticed it was probably really early in the morning. I wasn't far away from Kazuki's place and I hoped they're sleeping, because I wasn't able to go anywhere else. I had to take a bath, because I smelled terrible.
I was lucky, there was no one around and the door of Kazuki's apartment were opened. I slid inside and went straight to the bathroom. I took all my clothes off, threw them on the floor and took off my glasses. I was glad they didn't broke them, because they were new and I really started liking them.
When I dipped my body in the warm water, the wounds started to sting terribly. I closed my eyes and tried to calm down, but I felt worse and worse. I haven't realized when I started to cry... It was too much for me, my life was terrible. My mom threw me out of the place which was my home, I was starving, Byou bullied me, Yuuto ignored me, I've been beaten up by these guys... and no one even noticed I was sad. I could only thank Kazuki for letting me stay at this place, paying for my things and being nice for me, but I was sure he wouldn't understand my thoughts. I had no one to talk with and I felt terribly lonely.
When I finish cleaning my body and washing my hair, some nice idea came to my mind. I really didn't want to be a problem for anyone. I was sure their life without me would be better. I went out of the bathtub only to take a razor blade from the wall cupboard. When I came back, I looked at my wrist. I heard it was the best way to cut it there, because the skin wasn't thick. I did it quickly, almost hitting my skin with the metal thing, not only cutting it. Unfortunately, it hurt and bled a lot, but I didn't cut it deep enough. I had to do it again. When I touched my wrist with the blade, someone opened the bathroom door. Fuck, I forgot to lock them! My luck was really bad, because it was Byou who went inside, looked at me, rubbed his eyes and looked again.
"Am I still drunk, it's a strange dream or do you really look like you got into a fucking mess again and you try to kill yourself with a fucking razor blade? Damn, no way. It can't be true, I'm going to... Fuck, what did you get yourself into?!"
That was the worst moment he could choose to enter there. I was naked, I probably had a lot of bruises and injuries and I was trying to kill myself.
"Get out. It's not your business."
He didn't say anything, approached the bathtub and took a razor blade from my hand. I immediately covered my intimate parts of the body, because I was afraid he might see something he shouldn't and start laughing at my dick being small.
"You don't need it anymore and stop blushing like a girl, I already saw you naked when I stole your clothes. It's not a big deal." He shrugged. What an idiot, it WAS a big deal.
"Go out, please. I really don't want you to look at me and give me the razor blade back. I want to finish what I was doing and you won't need to see me anymore. That should make you happy, shouldn't it?"
"You're lucky Kazuki is sleeping. He would start panicking and being a pain in the ass. What happened to you?"
"Why should I tell you anything? I hate you so much, stop pretending you care. You're only curious and you took my razor blade, because Kazuki would be a pain in the ass if I killed myself."
"Stop that. I'm sorry for being so mean earlier... I won't do that anymore." Suddenly Byou hugged me. I didn't know what to do and actually I stopped caring about anything happening around me. I just let him to do that, because that was the thing I needed and it didn't matter if it was Byou or someone else. When I put my head on his arm, I realized the meaning of everything I was trying to do. I started crying... Why did I wanted to kill myself?! WHY???!!! That was terrible and I felt like an idiot.
"Why? Why did I want to do that? Please tell me, why?"
"I have no idea, that's why I asked you what happened."
"Oh well... my mom threw me out of the house... then I had to sleep in an abandoned building... my friend ignored me, because he has a boyfriend... these guys attacked me, because I didn't let them to hurt Nigu earlier and you... I hate everything you did to me!" I was crying even more.
"Sorry... I will explain it to you later. Tell me what's going on with this cat and guys."
"I saw they were kicking Nigu and they wanted to torture him, so I took the cat from them, they cut my back and I met them again. They were angry I ruined their fun and did that do me."
"Did WHAT? Beat you up or... rape you?"
"No, no, they didn't rape me, they're guys!" I pushed him away and realized I've just told BYOU about everything. Fuck. I was really devastated. If he asked me about it in a different situation, I'd tell him to fuck off.
"Don't be so shocked. I just wanted to make sure. If you don't want to tell me more, that's fine, but I need to take you to the hospital. They could break your bones or something like that. Trust me, I won't hurt you anymore."
"Ok, if you want to... just don't tell Kazuki yet, he would ask me about too many things and you know, he can be a pain in the ass." I sighed and hoped he was telling me the truth. I didn't want to be hurt again, but if he didn't ask me to go there with him, I'd just stay at home. I know they should take a look at my shoulder, it really hurt.
"I understand it. Move your ass and hurry up, because he might get up soon."
I was still a little bit shocked with all things which happened to me... Byou compared to these guys wasn't scary at all, I had to trust him a little bit, but I still needed to be careful. He wasn't my friend or something like that.
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This part was difficult for me to write. I hope you like it.
PS. New SCREW's album is awesome. I can't wait to finally get my copy and read translations of the lyrics.
Part: 13/?
Author: ladyrevania
Rating: R
Warnings: violence and more *doesn't want to spoil*
Main pairing: Byou/Manabu
Other characters: SCREW members
Disclaimer: Screw disclaimers. You know they aren't mine. Only the storyline is.
Summary: Manabu doesn't want to be quiet and only stare when he bullies other people. No, he has to do something about it, even if he might regret it later.
I struggled, because I hoped I can get free and run away, but this guy was much stronger than me, he held me tightly. The one who was talking to me earlier, probably their boss or someone who was respected by the other two smirked and punched my stomach.
"I noticed you changed... You look more like a fag. I won't touch your face, because you would probably start crying, because of bruises... I wonder if you faint when you see blood, pretty boy. I'm curious and I'm going to test you now." He touched my earlobes with both hands. "Nice piercings. Say goodbye to them." The guy pulled my earrings and I felt a sharp pain. Something wet started flowing down my neck... My lobes hurt terribly. The guy showed me my earrings and threw them on the ground. He ripped them out of my ears. I didn't make a sound and I didn't cry, which made him angry. He probably wanted me to beg for forgiveness, but I just was too scared and shocked to do anything. I stopped struggling and trying to run away. I wondered if they were going to kill me, or not...
"You know, faggot... I heard mud is healthy for your skin, so why won't you try a mud mask?" He smirked again and look at his friends. "You know what to do."
They forced me to kneel and then lowered my face to the ground. I tried my best to fight with it, but they finally put my face into the puddle of mud. That was disgusting, some dogs might have pissed and shit there. One of them grabbed my hair and lifted my head.
"Was the mud tasty?" Asked their leader, but I remained silent. I didn't want to satisfy him. "Ok, you asked for it yourself." He kicked my head, then my arm and my stomach again... His friends started hitting me.
When I received all these punches and kicks, I tried to stop thinking about the pain. I closed my eyes and imagined something very nice. It was a warm bath with lots of bubbles and rubber duckie floating on the water. I knew it was stupid and funny, but it helped me to endure everything. I stopped ignoring it when they ripped my shirt and bandages off and the leader dug his nails into my cuts. I hissed loudly, which made him laugh. He scratched my wounds harder. I couldn't take it anymore.
"Please, stop... I beg you, stop..." I whispered quietly.
"You're such a coward, but we will stop. Guys, he needs some sleep in a nice, warm place. Like this trash container. Put him to his "bed", close the lid and leave this fucking fag alone."
I really wanted to get out of there when they threw me inside, but I was too weak. Everything hurt me and I just lost my consciousness.
When I woke up, I felt a terrible smell of trash around me and some bugs walking on my torso. Everything hurt me, but I got up quickly and hit the lid with my head. I used all my strength to lift it and I barely did it, because my left shoulder hurt a lot. When I finally got out of there, I noticed it was probably really early in the morning. I wasn't far away from Kazuki's place and I hoped they're sleeping, because I wasn't able to go anywhere else. I had to take a bath, because I smelled terrible.
I was lucky, there was no one around and the door of Kazuki's apartment were opened. I slid inside and went straight to the bathroom. I took all my clothes off, threw them on the floor and took off my glasses. I was glad they didn't broke them, because they were new and I really started liking them.
When I dipped my body in the warm water, the wounds started to sting terribly. I closed my eyes and tried to calm down, but I felt worse and worse. I haven't realized when I started to cry... It was too much for me, my life was terrible. My mom threw me out of the place which was my home, I was starving, Byou bullied me, Yuuto ignored me, I've been beaten up by these guys... and no one even noticed I was sad. I could only thank Kazuki for letting me stay at this place, paying for my things and being nice for me, but I was sure he wouldn't understand my thoughts. I had no one to talk with and I felt terribly lonely.
When I finish cleaning my body and washing my hair, some nice idea came to my mind. I really didn't want to be a problem for anyone. I was sure their life without me would be better. I went out of the bathtub only to take a razor blade from the wall cupboard. When I came back, I looked at my wrist. I heard it was the best way to cut it there, because the skin wasn't thick. I did it quickly, almost hitting my skin with the metal thing, not only cutting it. Unfortunately, it hurt and bled a lot, but I didn't cut it deep enough. I had to do it again. When I touched my wrist with the blade, someone opened the bathroom door. Fuck, I forgot to lock them! My luck was really bad, because it was Byou who went inside, looked at me, rubbed his eyes and looked again.
"Am I still drunk, it's a strange dream or do you really look like you got into a fucking mess again and you try to kill yourself with a fucking razor blade? Damn, no way. It can't be true, I'm going to... Fuck, what did you get yourself into?!"
That was the worst moment he could choose to enter there. I was naked, I probably had a lot of bruises and injuries and I was trying to kill myself.
"Get out. It's not your business."
He didn't say anything, approached the bathtub and took a razor blade from my hand. I immediately covered my intimate parts of the body, because I was afraid he might see something he shouldn't and start laughing at my dick being small.
"You don't need it anymore and stop blushing like a girl, I already saw you naked when I stole your clothes. It's not a big deal." He shrugged. What an idiot, it WAS a big deal.
"Go out, please. I really don't want you to look at me and give me the razor blade back. I want to finish what I was doing and you won't need to see me anymore. That should make you happy, shouldn't it?"
"You're lucky Kazuki is sleeping. He would start panicking and being a pain in the ass. What happened to you?"
"Why should I tell you anything? I hate you so much, stop pretending you care. You're only curious and you took my razor blade, because Kazuki would be a pain in the ass if I killed myself."
"Stop that. I'm sorry for being so mean earlier... I won't do that anymore." Suddenly Byou hugged me. I didn't know what to do and actually I stopped caring about anything happening around me. I just let him to do that, because that was the thing I needed and it didn't matter if it was Byou or someone else. When I put my head on his arm, I realized the meaning of everything I was trying to do. I started crying... Why did I wanted to kill myself?! WHY???!!! That was terrible and I felt like an idiot.
"Why? Why did I want to do that? Please tell me, why?"
"I have no idea, that's why I asked you what happened."
"Oh well... my mom threw me out of the house... then I had to sleep in an abandoned building... my friend ignored me, because he has a boyfriend... these guys attacked me, because I didn't let them to hurt Nigu earlier and you... I hate everything you did to me!" I was crying even more.
"Sorry... I will explain it to you later. Tell me what's going on with this cat and guys."
"I saw they were kicking Nigu and they wanted to torture him, so I took the cat from them, they cut my back and I met them again. They were angry I ruined their fun and did that do me."
"Did WHAT? Beat you up or... rape you?"
"No, no, they didn't rape me, they're guys!" I pushed him away and realized I've just told BYOU about everything. Fuck. I was really devastated. If he asked me about it in a different situation, I'd tell him to fuck off.
"Don't be so shocked. I just wanted to make sure. If you don't want to tell me more, that's fine, but I need to take you to the hospital. They could break your bones or something like that. Trust me, I won't hurt you anymore."
"Ok, if you want to... just don't tell Kazuki yet, he would ask me about too many things and you know, he can be a pain in the ass." I sighed and hoped he was telling me the truth. I didn't want to be hurt again, but if he didn't ask me to go there with him, I'd just stay at home. I know they should take a look at my shoulder, it really hurt.
"I understand it. Move your ass and hurry up, because he might get up soon."
I was still a little bit shocked with all things which happened to me... Byou compared to these guys wasn't scary at all, I had to trust him a little bit, but I still needed to be careful. He wasn't my friend or something like that.
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This part was difficult for me to write. I hope you like it.
PS. New SCREW's album is awesome. I can't wait to finally get my copy and read translations of the lyrics.