FIC - IN TOO DEEP - 17/17
Title: In Too Deep - 17/17
Author: docwho2100 and writerghost2000
Fandom and Pairing: Nikki/Nora - F/F
Notes: Based off of the beginning of the pilot where Nikki is with the drug dealer
Rating: R (This one is rather dark and violent at times)
Author's note: Working on a sequel! I used Evanescene's "Hello" for this one because it's one of my all-time favorite songs. I could see it being played in the background while Nikki is visiting Nora if this were an actual episode.
Disclaimer: Nikki & Nora are the property of Nancylee Myatt and Warner Bros. Television. No infringement intended.
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Nikki sat in the chair by Nora's bed, never letting go of Nora's right hand. She felt wrong being there and felt like she didn't deserve to be by her side given she had assisted in nearly killing her.
What would happen when Nora woke up and saw here there? What could she say to make up for what she'd done? Would Nora ever forgive her? Even if she did, would she ever trust her again?
Nikki laid her head down on the railing and closed her eyes.
"You should be resting. Nora's mother told me you were still here but you should be in bed," Dan said as he quietly entered the room with a bouquet of flowers.
"My pain can wait and it can't hold a candle to the pain Nora's in right now." Her voice cracked with emotion and she didn't hide it.
"The doctors said she probably won't fully wake up for another day or two. Go. I'll stay with her. You really need to rest."
Nikki shook her head as a few tears fell. "No. I...I need to spend some more time with her. Talk to her. Maybe she'll wake up if she hears me."
She didn't.
Two more days passed and Nora still hadn't awoken.
Nikki was sure she hadn't any tears left to cry, but they continued to flow. The more time Nora remained unconscious the guiltier Nikki felt.
She took Nora's un-bandaged hand in hers and scooted closer to Nora's side. "Nora, sweetheart. I hope you can hear what I'm about to say. I feel like you need to know about my past because it's part of why you're lying here." Nikki snuffed away some tears and cleared her throat. "Before I joined the force, I was involved in the drug scene. Of course, the high society drug scene is nothing like the stuff we see on the streets, but the only difference is visual. I was into some scary stuff and ended up spending some time in rehab for a bit. When we went to see Octavio, I felt my past rushing back to me. I figured that I'd take the sample because I'd been around these drugs before and would be able to handle it. I was wrong."
Nikki started to cry, thinking back to the turn of events after they'd met Blade.
"Blade told me that I ratted you out but the department doesn't know it. Yet, at least." Nikki paused for a moment and looked at Nora's bruised and cut up face. "There's nothing I can do or say to tell you how sorry I am. I'm absolutely disgusted with myself and I'm sure you'd be disgusted with me as well. Hell, I wouldn't blame you if you never spoke to me again." Nikki wiped her eyes with the sleeve of her sweater. "So I'm going away for a little while. Dan's given me some time off in addition to the vacation time I've got saved up, so I'm going to take some time to reflect on what I did to you."
Nikki stood up and gave Nora a quick, soft kiss on the lips, setting an envelope down on the nightstand by the bed with Nora's name on it, before heading for the door.
She paused at the doorway, taking a small card out of her pocket, the one Darius had given her earlier, it had the name of a contact for a rehab clinic. "Guess it's that stormy day Darius..." she said softly, her gaze lingering on Nora for a few moments more before she turned away, heading down the hallway, tucking the card back into her pocket.
- - -
Nora woke to faint sound of a woman's voice calling her name.
Struggling to open her eyes, she noticed her mother's face staring down at her, tears rolling down her cheeks. "Nora, sweetie."
"Momma?" Nora croaked out in a raspy, dry-throat voice.
"It's okay, you're going to be okay. You scared us for a while there, though." Her mother leaned over and kissed her forehead and then began stroking Nora's hair.
Nora shifted a little, wincing at the pain that engulfed her entire body. "Wh....what happened?"
"You and Nikki were working on a case and you were badly hurt."
Nikki. Where was Nikki?
Nora's heart skipped a beat at the sound of her name and memories of her beating came rushing back. The vision of Nikki standing by the doorway, seeming to enjoy watching Nora being beaten - telling Blade to hit her harder.
She closed her eyes as her heart monitor picked up on her anxiety and beeped in rhythm with each erratic beats.
"Nora, honey calm down. You're okay. Shhh."
"Where's N-Nikki?"
Her mother frowned slightly. "I'm not sure, dear. She was here by your side for a few days but no one has seen her since. I'm assuming this is from her." Her mother held up the envelope to show Nora but then put it back down on the small table beside the bed.
Nora was silent, grimacing as she shifted a little in the bed. She thought she felt stitches on her hip, but it was hard to tell the individual aches and pain right now. Her whole body ached and she was sure she'd get the list of her injuries when she was more coherent.
"Can I get you something?" Her mother fretted, pulling at the blanket some to try and dispel the nervous worry she had built up over the last day.
"Yeah, could you hand me that envelope and then maybe give me a few minutes... ok?" Nora's eyes held tight to her mother's, hoping to convey her desire to have a few moments. She knew the next few days would be nerve-wracking considering she suspected her mom would be mother hen hovering just as she always had when any Delaney was hurt. She remembered Bobby going crazy when he'd broken his arm. Given her injuries were much worse, that meant generous helpings of Momma Delaney mothering.
The elder Delaney nodded and placed the envelope in her daughter's hands. "15 minutes, alright?" Her question belaying the fact she felt that was too long.
"Yes, Momma," Nora conceded, already beginning to feel tired again. She nodded as the envelope was deposited in her hands, her mother heading out of the door, a murmur of conversation signaling to Nora that other family members were nearby.
She counted a number of machine beeps, starting at the opposite wall as she steeled her nerves before she opened the envelope, a $20 dollar bill fluttering to her lap as she removed a single sheet. Nora felt tears starting to gather as she looked at the $20, a lump forming in her throat as she realized it felt like an eternity ago when she demanded the first twenty. She brushed at the tears that had become more numerous as she had a good idea what the letter would say given Nikki's absence.
Dreading the words, Nora bit her lip and began to read.
Author: docwho2100 and writerghost2000
Fandom and Pairing: Nikki/Nora - F/F
Notes: Based off of the beginning of the pilot where Nikki is with the drug dealer
Rating: R (This one is rather dark and violent at times)
Author's note: Working on a sequel! I used Evanescene's "Hello" for this one because it's one of my all-time favorite songs. I could see it being played in the background while Nikki is visiting Nora if this were an actual episode.
Disclaimer: Nikki & Nora are the property of Nancylee Myatt and Warner Bros. Television. No infringement intended.
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Nikki sat in the chair by Nora's bed, never letting go of Nora's right hand. She felt wrong being there and felt like she didn't deserve to be by her side given she had assisted in nearly killing her.
What would happen when Nora woke up and saw here there? What could she say to make up for what she'd done? Would Nora ever forgive her? Even if she did, would she ever trust her again?
Nikki laid her head down on the railing and closed her eyes.
"You should be resting. Nora's mother told me you were still here but you should be in bed," Dan said as he quietly entered the room with a bouquet of flowers.
"My pain can wait and it can't hold a candle to the pain Nora's in right now." Her voice cracked with emotion and she didn't hide it.
"The doctors said she probably won't fully wake up for another day or two. Go. I'll stay with her. You really need to rest."
Nikki shook her head as a few tears fell. "No. I...I need to spend some more time with her. Talk to her. Maybe she'll wake up if she hears me."
She didn't.
Two more days passed and Nora still hadn't awoken.
Nikki was sure she hadn't any tears left to cry, but they continued to flow. The more time Nora remained unconscious the guiltier Nikki felt.
She took Nora's un-bandaged hand in hers and scooted closer to Nora's side. "Nora, sweetheart. I hope you can hear what I'm about to say. I feel like you need to know about my past because it's part of why you're lying here." Nikki snuffed away some tears and cleared her throat. "Before I joined the force, I was involved in the drug scene. Of course, the high society drug scene is nothing like the stuff we see on the streets, but the only difference is visual. I was into some scary stuff and ended up spending some time in rehab for a bit. When we went to see Octavio, I felt my past rushing back to me. I figured that I'd take the sample because I'd been around these drugs before and would be able to handle it. I was wrong."
Nikki started to cry, thinking back to the turn of events after they'd met Blade.
"Blade told me that I ratted you out but the department doesn't know it. Yet, at least." Nikki paused for a moment and looked at Nora's bruised and cut up face. "There's nothing I can do or say to tell you how sorry I am. I'm absolutely disgusted with myself and I'm sure you'd be disgusted with me as well. Hell, I wouldn't blame you if you never spoke to me again." Nikki wiped her eyes with the sleeve of her sweater. "So I'm going away for a little while. Dan's given me some time off in addition to the vacation time I've got saved up, so I'm going to take some time to reflect on what I did to you."
Nikki stood up and gave Nora a quick, soft kiss on the lips, setting an envelope down on the nightstand by the bed with Nora's name on it, before heading for the door.
She paused at the doorway, taking a small card out of her pocket, the one Darius had given her earlier, it had the name of a contact for a rehab clinic. "Guess it's that stormy day Darius..." she said softly, her gaze lingering on Nora for a few moments more before she turned away, heading down the hallway, tucking the card back into her pocket.
- - -
Nora woke to faint sound of a woman's voice calling her name.
Struggling to open her eyes, she noticed her mother's face staring down at her, tears rolling down her cheeks. "Nora, sweetie."
"Momma?" Nora croaked out in a raspy, dry-throat voice.
"It's okay, you're going to be okay. You scared us for a while there, though." Her mother leaned over and kissed her forehead and then began stroking Nora's hair.
Nora shifted a little, wincing at the pain that engulfed her entire body. "Wh....what happened?"
"You and Nikki were working on a case and you were badly hurt."
Nikki. Where was Nikki?
Nora's heart skipped a beat at the sound of her name and memories of her beating came rushing back. The vision of Nikki standing by the doorway, seeming to enjoy watching Nora being beaten - telling Blade to hit her harder.
She closed her eyes as her heart monitor picked up on her anxiety and beeped in rhythm with each erratic beats.
"Nora, honey calm down. You're okay. Shhh."
"Where's N-Nikki?"
Her mother frowned slightly. "I'm not sure, dear. She was here by your side for a few days but no one has seen her since. I'm assuming this is from her." Her mother held up the envelope to show Nora but then put it back down on the small table beside the bed.
Nora was silent, grimacing as she shifted a little in the bed. She thought she felt stitches on her hip, but it was hard to tell the individual aches and pain right now. Her whole body ached and she was sure she'd get the list of her injuries when she was more coherent.
"Can I get you something?" Her mother fretted, pulling at the blanket some to try and dispel the nervous worry she had built up over the last day.
"Yeah, could you hand me that envelope and then maybe give me a few minutes... ok?" Nora's eyes held tight to her mother's, hoping to convey her desire to have a few moments. She knew the next few days would be nerve-wracking considering she suspected her mom would be mother hen hovering just as she always had when any Delaney was hurt. She remembered Bobby going crazy when he'd broken his arm. Given her injuries were much worse, that meant generous helpings of Momma Delaney mothering.
The elder Delaney nodded and placed the envelope in her daughter's hands. "15 minutes, alright?" Her question belaying the fact she felt that was too long.
"Yes, Momma," Nora conceded, already beginning to feel tired again. She nodded as the envelope was deposited in her hands, her mother heading out of the door, a murmur of conversation signaling to Nora that other family members were nearby.
She counted a number of machine beeps, starting at the opposite wall as she steeled her nerves before she opened the envelope, a $20 dollar bill fluttering to her lap as she removed a single sheet. Nora felt tears starting to gather as she looked at the $20, a lump forming in her throat as she realized it felt like an eternity ago when she demanded the first twenty. She brushed at the tears that had become more numerous as she had a good idea what the letter would say given Nikki's absence.
Dreading the words, Nora bit her lip and began to read.
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