"I know I haven't been posting here much at all."lady_noremonNovember 26 2014, 07:40:24 UTC
[I know I haven't been posting here much at all.]I know I haven't been posting here much at all. Again; I don't want things used as fuel. And when previous things were used as fuel, and othe previous things were hunted-down, no-wheres feels safe. There is a big, big difference than a well-known forum and weeks of 'things' to mutual friends. 'Things' which continued after requests to stop, after I deactivated, picked at mental health, and that got worse once it was known I felt unsafe; and even had other spurts when I made a more public request {I was stupid to expect anything different than past 'no's got [power is addictive] (I don't want to play the dress, I'm scared marriage play will be dropped on me, I want to play the office opening with no drama)}. Which has me worried about what mutual friends think of me (sex-crazed scumbag), & feeling my safety doesn't matter to one friend I requested to who responded [encouragingly (though I blame them less than the 'spurter'; given encouragement in friendship)] to the spurts. [It didn't help that I was getting defamatory stuff from my
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