ONCE IS COINCIDENCE, .../ Chap 11 / MASTER PLAN part 1
title: MASTER PLAN part 1 / sequel to DON'T FORGET ME!
main pairing: Kyumin
genre:angst, romance, fluff
type: oneshot
rating: NC17
disclaimer: i do not own them, the plot is mine
summary:sequel to DON'T FORGET ME
A/n:
You can read the prequel story DON'T FORGET ME! here:
http://bonamana61.livejournal.com/43853.html
This Kyumin site looks lately like a ghost town, abandoned by authors and readers as well, so if it will be closed, or if i'll decide to stop posting here, you can find my stories on AFF, but you have to create an account there for being able to read my Kyumin work, if you are interested, or on Live Journal, but on LJ are not properly betaed like on AFF.
My AFF stories link: http://www.asianfanfics.com/profile/view_author_stories/264164/L
My masterlist from Live Journal:
http://bonamana61.livejournal.com/27267.html
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"How long you've been here?", whispered Sungmin, without taking his eyes away from the computer screen, but closing the on going tab.
"Long enough...", replied the voice from behind him.
"And i didn't lie to you when i said i love you, i always did and always will.", murmured Kyuhyun, ghosting lightly his humid, hot breathing along the sitting man's nape.
Sungmin removed gently the hands plastered on his chest and rubbed his own arms, for chasing away the chills climbing down from behind his neck along his entire body.
"Is that right? Interesting way to show your love for a person, by sending him away.
You could make a big gesture, now in the last moment, at least to tell me your real reason, not as it would matter in any way, but still i would like to know, just from simple curiosity.
And one more thing, i can't keep anymore the pictures we took together, so do you want them back or should i just throwing them away?", said he, forcing himself to speak coldly, and standing up from the chair.
Then he walked to the closet,without sparing not even one glance to the other man from the room, and took out a box wrapped in pink paper, placing it on the desk, next to the computer, and keeping distance from Kyuhyun, by leaving the desk between them.
"Yes, i will take the photos, thank you for not throwing them.
As for telling you my reason for breaking up with you, two years ago, i'm not so sure it's the right moment now, when you are getting married."
"But telling to a soon to be married man that you still love him and will love him forever it's the right thing to do?"
"You're absolutely right, the right moment to tell you that, already expired long time ago, but my love for you never expired, was always very well impaled in my chest, wounding constantly my heart.
You know how good i am in hiding my feelings and pain, i was a pretty good actor for these two fucking years, but today my heart cracked like a piece of cheep glass.
Yes, you gathered all of us and told us you want to marry her, but in my stupid head those were only words which would never convert into real facts.
But today, when her agency pulled off your dating announcement, and you didn't even told us about their intention, the reality slapped hard in my face and i finally understood that you were not just saying words: you are really getting married!"
"I didn't tell about the agency's announcement, because it was a surprise for me, too. Not as it would be some kind of a duty to inform you, but i don't want for the members to think that i decided something so important without even consulting them."
"Are you trying to say that she did that without even speaking with you, before? But, why?"
"She panicked!"
"Panicked? She got scared you will give up on marrying her or what?"
"It was a stupid thing, we had a small quarrel yesterday, nothing huge, though. I'm not sure if i should tell you about."
"Min-ah, i would like you to know that you will always have in me a friend ready to help or listen to your problems. Let's sit down and be again the best friends we used to be.", smiled Kyuhyun, rounding the desk and dragging the still reserved Sungmin, by his hand, and sitting both of them on the edge of the bed.
"Why should i tell you about my life, when you don't want to answer to the single question i asked you?"
"Minnie, i will tell you everything after that, i promise, even though i know it's not the wisest thing to do.", said Kyuhyun keeping Sungmin's soft hand between his palms, happy that the man didn't withdraw it.
"Well, summarizing the whole argument, she reproached me that i'm not passionate enough while, you know..."
"You? Are not passionate enough? Is she crazy? Sorry, for that, i shouldn't offend your wife, but how can she say something like that?"
"Anyway, it's not important, what i wanted to say it's that she didn't get to say before our fight started, that her period was late for two weeks already.
After the arguing we had last evening i didn't call her today, partly because i let her to calm down, but partly because i was busy helping mom with some issues from Wiki cafe.
She thought i am angry with her and i will leave her, now when she might be pregnant."
"I see, she somehow forced your hand. But Minimin, this is a great news for you, you should be the happiest man on earth!"
"What? What are you saying? And please, don't call me like that!"
"Please, let me calling you Minimin, at least while we are alone, just till the 13 of December.
Now let's travel back in time, two years ago, as i promised, but only if you are sure that it will not affect you in any way, now that your life is going on the right path."
Kyuhyun inhaled deeply and tightened his hold onto Sungmin's hand:
"That day i was reading the interview you gave for that magazine, i forget the name...and it was not the first time you were asked about your dreams and wishes for your future. You always replied that you want to have your own family before 30, that you want kids...everything what i would never be able to give you.
Even worse, if i would have been keeping you for myself, i would have been a big obstacle in the achievement of your life goal.
So i decided to give up to my love for you and to let you go.
I even tried to instigate you to find a girlfriend, by dating myself a few girls."
Kyuhyun peeked at the man next to him, when he felt his hand slipping slowly from his holding.
Sungmin's face was unreadable, cold and pale, only his adam apple was moving up and down.
"But, you found all the girls you dated, boring, shallow, or what not. So, i decided to create for you a master plan. Yes, i thought it was the time for me to interfere and search for you a suitable girl to be your future wife and the mother of your child."
"Whaat?!", yelled Sungmin, startling the man next to him.
"I know it sounds odd, but at that time it looked to me like a great idea.
Anyway, remember that musical ballerina i dated for two weeks? Well, one day when i accompanied her to a birthday party, i was introduced to her former high school mate, who made me a very good impression. She was a short girl, single, a musical actress, so she was a good singer, she knew how to act cute. Shortly, she was exactly like your ideal type of woman, as you often expressed yourself. The only things i couldn't know in that evening was if she knows how to cook, or if your mom would like her, but i needed to find out if she would agree to marry and have at least one kid.So..."
"Kyu, don't tell me that she is...you wouldn't!", screamed Sungmin, getting up hastily, but was pulled back by Kyuhyun's strong grip on his arm.
"Wait Min, you were the one asking me to tell you everything and you said it will be all right for you to find out the whole story.
So, we talk a lot that evening, and i found out she might get the leading role in the next performance of Three Musketeers, everything was perfect, less the fact she was not crazy about the idea to get married, because she said she was dreaming to become a famous movie star and she was focused more on her career. But i didn't give up instantly, she was a too good match for you.
Please, Min, don't be angry with me.I need to tell you everything, now that i started.
I need to admit in front of you that i involved myself in the decision of the theater's leadership and the company's decision as well, to pick you for acting the leading role in the same musical as she was cast for. Don't understand that they didn't choose you for your talent, everybody were enchanted by you and thanked me i recommended you, because my only contribution was that i recommended you, in rest it was exclusively your own achievement.
Trust me, they wouldn't have cast you if you wouldn't have captivated them with your charming version of D'Artagnan!"
Kyuhyun looked worried at Sungmin's pale face painted with scattered red spots, his breathing broken by long inhales and exhales:
"Minimin, are you okay? Should i stop?"
"No, don't stop, tell me everything!", replied Sungmin between gritted teeth.
"I know you are angry with me, but all i did it was for your own good, at least that was what i thought back then."
"Stop with that, just tell me what else did you do!", burst out Sungmin.
Kyuhyun's voice began to crackle, but he was decided to finish what he started:
"Min-ah, i convinced her to accept to marry you, by...buying her..."
"You are lying! She is rich enough! I never would have believed you would be so low to, to,to...", Sungmin stood up with tears flowing down his cheeks and tried to run towards the door.
Kyuhyun managed to stop him, pulling him in his embrace, and trying to avoid as much as he could Sungmin's hard punches he was pounding in his chest and stomach:
"Leave me alone, you son of a bitch, i never thought i could hate you so much!
Let me go, i hate you!"
"Minnie, please calm down. You asked me to tell you everything, so you can hate me while listening the rest. Please!"
Sungmin let himself to be led back to the bed and settled down like a lifeless dummy.
"I know she is rich, as a matter of fact it was one more good point in her favor to be a good candidate for your future wife. I bought her not with money, but with a deal: i asked her to agree to give you a family and at least a child, in exchange of me doing everything possible to make her dream coming true, meaning to gain fame and more movie roles. You may ask how could i do that, well you know that i have many friends in the company, and my money are useful, too, sometimes.
But don't think she is marrying you only because of our deal.
Actually i was expecting for her to falling in love with you for real, who wouldn't?
She told me at some point that our deal is off, because she fell in love for real with you, and she will do everything to make you fall for her, too, even though she was aware about..."
"About what? What lies did you tell her?"
"I didn't tell her anything, she found out, don't know how, but Min, she knows!"
"She knows whaaat? Speak already!"
"Minnie, she knows you are gay, and she knows whom you loved before, but she said she doesn't care, that much she loves you!"
"You were the one telling her, you bastard. You just couldn't accept to see me happy with her, you just had to destroy my future, too, after you killed my past and my presence! I hate you!"
"My person is not important here, just tell me the truth: do you love her? Will you be happy with her?
Answer me and especially answer to yourself, and if you are sure she is the one, i will never bother you again, and i will support both of you how ever i will can.
Please, Minimin, i love you so much that all i need is to see you happy, even though it will not be with me!"
"I often asked myself why she always said she understands me and it isn't my fault for whom i am. Kyuhyun-ah, in the name of our past friendship, please tell me the truth, how did she know?"
"So, you do care about her opinion, you do care about her, do you love her?! Tell me!", yelled Kyuhyun, shocking Sungmin with his harsh grabbing of his face and the rough kiss, the type of kiss where their teeth collided and their lips got bruised.
Kyuhyun backed his head a bit and looked deep into Sungmin's blurry eyes:
"Tell me, do you feel this kind of want while kissing her, do you like to taste her lips like i know you enjoy my lips right now, did your legs tremble like are trembling right now?
Tell me, does your heart pounding when you kiss her like is pounding right now?
Tell me do you love her, like i feel you still love me?
I know it was my master plan, but i never imagine it will be so painful to see you loving somebody else."
"Kyu, please stop it, if you don't want me to beat the crap out of you!"
"That much you hate me?
I promised to stop bothering you, but i want to hear you saying how much you love her, after that i will exit for all from your life."
"I always thought about you that you are a very intelligent guy, but you are nothing but a stupid asshole, you and your stupid master plan!
You, stupid asshole!
I still feel the need to beat the crap out from you, asshole!
That less you knew me after six fucking years of showing you how much i loved you? That i would have chosen a wife instead of your love? Yes, i always said my dream was to have a family,a wife, kids, but did you expect me to add publicly to the sentence the words IF I WOULD BE A STRAIGHT GUY?
Did you expect me to say in those interviews what were my real wishes and dreams, that all i dreamed about was for you to be my husband and live happily together in a cozy house with two adopted kids, and running together a wine restaurant with a menu with all the wines we ever drank together?
You stupid asshole, i loved you so much, and you had to ruin everything with your mastermind and your master plan!
You want me to tell you if she is the one and if i love her?
All i can tell you is that i hate you like i never hated anyone in my whole life!
I hate that i still love you, and i could never love somebody else than you!
Yes, i like her, i respect her and i think she is the one, because i feel comfortable with her. I was never in pain or hurt because of her, like i was so many times because of you.
I respect her for still wanting to marry me, even though she is right that i don't give her enough passion,she is not a fool not to see how hard i try to get rid of the illusion of your breath on my skin, in my bones, through my veins.
Don't think i'm not good at what we do:we take out our clothes, get under the covers, move our bodies against each other, it's not such a hard thing to do.
I might even got her pregnant, so it doesn't matter too much that i never felt the need to press her into me to the point of inseparability, where the air could not infiltrate our amalgamated bodies....like i always felt with you!
And i fucking hate you for that!"
"You're right baby, everything you said is true, i am the biggest asshole from the universe and i blew it everything.
Come on, hit me, i know i deserve it!
Please, Minimin, just hit me!", yelled Kyuhyun, aggressing Sungmin's eardrums with his loud screams.
"I asked you not to call me like that! And yeah, you deserve it!", yelled Sungmin back, landing his hard fist on the other's jaw.
"Wow, i can't believe you actually did hit me!", yelled again Kyuhyun, rubbing his jaw, before sending a punch in Sungmin's stomach.
"Hey, i didn't ask you to hit me back, you asshole!"
"You deserved it, too! Because i can't hate you back, you big jerk!
I thought i can live without you, i assumed i will be satisfied with only knowing you are happy, but the truth is...the truth is, baby, i can't live without you!
These two years it was easier, because every time i closed my eyes for sleeping, it was like i could hear your heart beating and feel your breathing,through the wall parting our rooms.
But i don't know how i will ever be able to sleep again after 13 of December, knowing that your breath will caress somebody's skin, that your heart will beat for somebody dear to you, and it will be not for me.
I thought i love you enough for letting you go, maybe i will accept at some point that you are gone, physically gone... but now i know i love you too much for letting your heart to go...I NEED YOU TO LOVE ME, I NEED TO..."
Sungmin approached quietly and wrapped his arms around the taller man's neck, walking lightly his trembling lips along the bruised jaw:
"When i first met you, it was like somebody lit a match inside my heart, the burn running through my entire being, and i could do nothing about it...actually i can still feel the sting of the burning, especially in my heart.
My heart never stopped from loving you, no matter how hard i tried.
Maybe there were times when i lied myself that i forgot the taste of your lips or the way your hands were dancing across my hips, or the passion streaming through every single vein of my body when you were drowning into my eyes while pressing yourself into me...but i could never teach my heart to pretend in forgetting you."
Kyuhyun lifted his hands to the beautiful man's face, holding his chin and sweeping his thumbs over the plushy bottom lip.
Sungmin couldn't force himself to protest when his upper lip was trapped between the other's humid lips in a sensual, slow sucking, his bottom lip getting the same treatment after that.
When he felt the need to fill his lungs with air, Kyuhyun took advantage by his parted lips and tasted the pink muscle from inside, licking it rhythmically with his flatted tongue, pulling from both their throats, loud erotic moans.
"Ahhh, Kyu, mnha! Please, don't make me do this! Hmnh!"
"Why? I can feel you want this as much as i want it!
I missed you so much, i dreamed so many times at this moment, please Minimin, you will be hers for all the future years to come, so please, baby, give me just one more night with you! A farewell night, a last memory...so i could survive...please!"
"Kyu, you know me that i could never be a cheater. She will be my wife and what i do now is calling cheating."
"Do you know what i said to her when she told me that she knows about us? I said that Kyumin is nothing but a simple fanservice. Do you know what she replied?That she figured out by herself that whenever we were holding hands or glancing at each other, it was like we were making love. And Minnie, you can't deny she was right.
Don't you realize that your heart is already cheating on her?
Please Minnie, let's forget everything for this night, let's drink wine together, let's make love, let's cuddle, let's be happy one more night!
I don't ask you too much comparing to all the pain you'll give me after this night!"
Sungmin slipped down his arms from around the other's neck, trying to resist, but his whole body was like a lifeless piece of jelly:
"You should just leave, or maybe i should leave...we should stop..."
"Yes, we should, but we don't want and we can't...", whispered Kyuhyun, sucking gently Sungmin's throbbing jugular vein.
Sungmin's brain went weaker than his heart, so all what he did was to tilt his head for giving his former lover's a better access, while his brainless fingers were frantically unbuttoning both of their shirts.
The strong sensations they were feeling again after two long years overwhelmed both of them, taking away the strength from their legs.
Sungmin was the first falling down on his knees, taking with him Kyuhyun's glued form:
"I want you to press me into you enough for feeling your heart beating through my entire body, i want to feel again the intimacy i've never given and never received, since you left me.
His fingers clenched in Kyuhyun's mop of hair, pulling him harshly in an aggressive lip lock, pouring all his long time frustrations in the way he was biting, grabbing, sucking, scratching.
Kyuhyun submitted at Sungmin's angry kisses, his hands stripping their upper bodies from their shirts:
"I missed you so much, missing you was a part from loving you. All those smart philosophers are right saying that if you're never apart, you'll never really know how strong your love is.
You are so beautiful...but i will never stop from loving you, not even when we will be two old ahjhushis.
Their mouths met this time in a light, sensual kiss, Kyuhyun's velvety lips cupping gently the other's upper bowed lip. Sungmin trapped the other's bottom lip between his own. Their lips were sliding lasciviously on each other, while their hands were caressing the soft, hot skin of their backs.
The way Kyuhyun was looking into his eyes, while kissing, extinguished all his anger and guilt, warming his heart:
"I have never experienced with anybody else the sweet moments shared with you. It's not just about kissing or having sex...it's loosing all sense where i am or who i am and just melting in your arms. It's making me feel i am your most prized possession or a delicate flower which you adore so much that you don't want to ruin. The way you look into my eyes just goes through my heart. You look at me with such an admiration, that it makes me want to tear up.
You make me feel so appreciated and loved. You are everything i ever wanted. Hands holding, kissing, cuddling, singing together, talking, fighting, making love, eating, sleeping,arguing, everything it seems proper when it's done with you. but..."
"No BUT tonight! This night is ours, this night is only you and me, better saying you WITH me!
This night we will pretend that i am your FOREVER, and you are my FOREVER!"
Sungmin's last attending to remain clear minded was melted in Kyuhyun's tight embrace, their bare chests pressing impossibly close against to each other.
Kyuhyun protected with his arms Sungmin's back when it hit the carpeted floor, their mouths not being disconnected while kicking off from their bodies the rest of the clothes.
Words were said no more, only sloppy sucking noises, skin slapping and muffled moans were reverberating between the room's walls.
The passion with which they were making love was mirrored in the long trails from Kyuhyun's back dug by Sungmin's nails and the purple hickeys planted on Sungmin's body in places only for their eyes to see.
Loud groans were elicited by the black haired man and hot tears were squeezed between Sungmin's eyelids at every deep and long penetration of his one night stand lover's arousal. His tears were not from physical pain, nor from happiness, but from the awareness that it was the last time in his life he was indulging with the taste of the real love.
"Don't cry, my love! Deep down in my heart i can feel that no matter what life challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other, and i'm still hoping it will be ME WITH YOU in the end, no matter how far will be that end.", smiled Kyuhyun, cupping Sungmin's face in his palms and pressing their lips together like a sealed promising.
Sungmin smiled back between the shimmering tears:
"If i could have just one wish,i would wish to wake up every morning to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and especially the feel of your heart beating with mine. I feel like crying right now, knowing that i could never find this feeling with anyone other than you."
Instead of any reply, Kyuhyun pushed himself as deep as he could inside the man who will become soon just a friend who used to be the main part of his life.
But for tonight they were an item which nobody can part away.
He increased the pace and speed of his pounding, when he felt Sungmin's heels pushing into the tense muscles of his rear...Oh, how he missed to listen at Sungmin's low moans followed by the sharp screams, every time he was hitting his sweet spot...
They lost the counting of how many times they made love that night...the carpeted floor was the witness of their insatiable love for each other, because they didn't loose any time, not even for moving in the bed.
"I never hated so much the dawn!", sighed Sungmin, glancing with tired eyes at the window where a weak ray of light was struggling to sneak in the room through the crack of the curtains.
He walked to the closet and pulled two t-shirts and two sweatpants, dressing himself and giving to Kyuhyun the clothes, speaking fast and with no pause:
"I don't know when the others will arrive from Jeju, and i don't want for them to find us like this. We could shower after they will be here...i don't want to waste time from our night with showering, though..."
Kyuhyun was sitting with his back propped against the wall, and instead of dressing himself, he stretched a hand and pulled down the agitated man, settling him between his parted legs and trapping his whole form in his warm embrace:
"I want the time to freeze right now!"
Sungmin purred like a kitty under the hand running through his disheveled hair, massaging his scalp, and took the other hand wrapped around his chest, interlacing his fingers with oh-so-missed Kyuhyun's long fingers:
"Should i cancel the wedding?
Should i destroy her image and her dreams?
Should i upset my family and her family, too?
But, then, what?"
"No, baby, everything is too late right now...too many people would be destroyed including yourself. Nobody would be ready to accept our love, nor your family, nor the company, nor the society. Don't forget that we live in Korea, our careers would be finished, our parents's businesses would be closed, and what would be worst our siblings would be a pariah in the society's eyes. We can't be selfish and destroy Sungjin's and Ahra's future.
Besides i really want you to achieve those life goals. My greatest wish is for your kid to inherit your genes. You are smart, beautiful, passionate, and most importantly, you are honest.
You are going in a new place. A new environment. A new world. A new and an exciting life.
You have everything you need to make it big!I believe in you, more than i believe in myself at times.And not because i was once your boyfriend, i'd have thought the same even if i'd have been just a simple band mate.
I love you baby! No matter where you'll be or what you'll do. I'll always love you and i'll always believe in you. You have my full support and i know you will be successful in all your endeavors, I know you will live your dream there. And hopefully we will still remain best friends.
I am happy for you baby and really proud of you. You had the courage to be the first idol to marry while being active and getting all the hate for yourself.
You are taking a huge and important step in your life. And don't you worry baby, you will most definitely make it. I really mean it, sweetheart.
Once again, i love you, my darling!"
The sound of the front door, followed by Hyukjae's voice, startled Sungmin who's trembling hands began to wipe quickly the big drops of tears streaming along his cheeks and neck, but Kyuhyun pulled him up and kissed his lips one last time before guiding him towards the bed:
"Go and take some rest, i will tell Hyuk that i checked you up, but you are still sleeping. Good bye my love, please be happy!"
"Good bye my love, but not for all, remember that i am your FOREVER, and you are my FOREVER! I can feel it in my heart that one day...one day you will be beside me once again. Till then, never forget that you are my only true love. I love you!"
A/n Sorry, but had to split this oneshot in two parts, because it got longer and longer...
main pairing: Kyumin
genre:angst, romance, fluff
type: oneshot
rating: NC17
disclaimer: i do not own them, the plot is mine
summary:sequel to DON'T FORGET ME
A/n:
You can read the prequel story DON'T FORGET ME! here:
http://bonamana61.livejournal.com/43853.html
This Kyumin site looks lately like a ghost town, abandoned by authors and readers as well, so if it will be closed, or if i'll decide to stop posting here, you can find my stories on AFF, but you have to create an account there for being able to read my Kyumin work, if you are interested, or on Live Journal, but on LJ are not properly betaed like on AFF.
My AFF stories link: http://www.asianfanfics.com/profile/view_author_stories/264164/L
My masterlist from Live Journal:
http://bonamana61.livejournal.com/27267.html
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"How long you've been here?", whispered Sungmin, without taking his eyes away from the computer screen, but closing the on going tab.
"Long enough...", replied the voice from behind him.
"And i didn't lie to you when i said i love you, i always did and always will.", murmured Kyuhyun, ghosting lightly his humid, hot breathing along the sitting man's nape.
Sungmin removed gently the hands plastered on his chest and rubbed his own arms, for chasing away the chills climbing down from behind his neck along his entire body.
"Is that right? Interesting way to show your love for a person, by sending him away.
You could make a big gesture, now in the last moment, at least to tell me your real reason, not as it would matter in any way, but still i would like to know, just from simple curiosity.
And one more thing, i can't keep anymore the pictures we took together, so do you want them back or should i just throwing them away?", said he, forcing himself to speak coldly, and standing up from the chair.
Then he walked to the closet,without sparing not even one glance to the other man from the room, and took out a box wrapped in pink paper, placing it on the desk, next to the computer, and keeping distance from Kyuhyun, by leaving the desk between them.
"Yes, i will take the photos, thank you for not throwing them.
As for telling you my reason for breaking up with you, two years ago, i'm not so sure it's the right moment now, when you are getting married."
"But telling to a soon to be married man that you still love him and will love him forever it's the right thing to do?"
"You're absolutely right, the right moment to tell you that, already expired long time ago, but my love for you never expired, was always very well impaled in my chest, wounding constantly my heart.
You know how good i am in hiding my feelings and pain, i was a pretty good actor for these two fucking years, but today my heart cracked like a piece of cheep glass.
Yes, you gathered all of us and told us you want to marry her, but in my stupid head those were only words which would never convert into real facts.
But today, when her agency pulled off your dating announcement, and you didn't even told us about their intention, the reality slapped hard in my face and i finally understood that you were not just saying words: you are really getting married!"
"I didn't tell about the agency's announcement, because it was a surprise for me, too. Not as it would be some kind of a duty to inform you, but i don't want for the members to think that i decided something so important without even consulting them."
"Are you trying to say that she did that without even speaking with you, before? But, why?"
"She panicked!"
"Panicked? She got scared you will give up on marrying her or what?"
"It was a stupid thing, we had a small quarrel yesterday, nothing huge, though. I'm not sure if i should tell you about."
"Min-ah, i would like you to know that you will always have in me a friend ready to help or listen to your problems. Let's sit down and be again the best friends we used to be.", smiled Kyuhyun, rounding the desk and dragging the still reserved Sungmin, by his hand, and sitting both of them on the edge of the bed.
"Why should i tell you about my life, when you don't want to answer to the single question i asked you?"
"Minnie, i will tell you everything after that, i promise, even though i know it's not the wisest thing to do.", said Kyuhyun keeping Sungmin's soft hand between his palms, happy that the man didn't withdraw it.
"Well, summarizing the whole argument, she reproached me that i'm not passionate enough while, you know..."
"You? Are not passionate enough? Is she crazy? Sorry, for that, i shouldn't offend your wife, but how can she say something like that?"
"Anyway, it's not important, what i wanted to say it's that she didn't get to say before our fight started, that her period was late for two weeks already.
After the arguing we had last evening i didn't call her today, partly because i let her to calm down, but partly because i was busy helping mom with some issues from Wiki cafe.
She thought i am angry with her and i will leave her, now when she might be pregnant."
"I see, she somehow forced your hand. But Minimin, this is a great news for you, you should be the happiest man on earth!"
"What? What are you saying? And please, don't call me like that!"
"Please, let me calling you Minimin, at least while we are alone, just till the 13 of December.
Now let's travel back in time, two years ago, as i promised, but only if you are sure that it will not affect you in any way, now that your life is going on the right path."
Kyuhyun inhaled deeply and tightened his hold onto Sungmin's hand:
"That day i was reading the interview you gave for that magazine, i forget the name...and it was not the first time you were asked about your dreams and wishes for your future. You always replied that you want to have your own family before 30, that you want kids...everything what i would never be able to give you.
Even worse, if i would have been keeping you for myself, i would have been a big obstacle in the achievement of your life goal.
So i decided to give up to my love for you and to let you go.
I even tried to instigate you to find a girlfriend, by dating myself a few girls."
Kyuhyun peeked at the man next to him, when he felt his hand slipping slowly from his holding.
Sungmin's face was unreadable, cold and pale, only his adam apple was moving up and down.
"But, you found all the girls you dated, boring, shallow, or what not. So, i decided to create for you a master plan. Yes, i thought it was the time for me to interfere and search for you a suitable girl to be your future wife and the mother of your child."
"Whaat?!", yelled Sungmin, startling the man next to him.
"I know it sounds odd, but at that time it looked to me like a great idea.
Anyway, remember that musical ballerina i dated for two weeks? Well, one day when i accompanied her to a birthday party, i was introduced to her former high school mate, who made me a very good impression. She was a short girl, single, a musical actress, so she was a good singer, she knew how to act cute. Shortly, she was exactly like your ideal type of woman, as you often expressed yourself. The only things i couldn't know in that evening was if she knows how to cook, or if your mom would like her, but i needed to find out if she would agree to marry and have at least one kid.So..."
"Kyu, don't tell me that she is...you wouldn't!", screamed Sungmin, getting up hastily, but was pulled back by Kyuhyun's strong grip on his arm.
"Wait Min, you were the one asking me to tell you everything and you said it will be all right for you to find out the whole story.
So, we talk a lot that evening, and i found out she might get the leading role in the next performance of Three Musketeers, everything was perfect, less the fact she was not crazy about the idea to get married, because she said she was dreaming to become a famous movie star and she was focused more on her career. But i didn't give up instantly, she was a too good match for you.
Please, Min, don't be angry with me.I need to tell you everything, now that i started.
I need to admit in front of you that i involved myself in the decision of the theater's leadership and the company's decision as well, to pick you for acting the leading role in the same musical as she was cast for. Don't understand that they didn't choose you for your talent, everybody were enchanted by you and thanked me i recommended you, because my only contribution was that i recommended you, in rest it was exclusively your own achievement.
Trust me, they wouldn't have cast you if you wouldn't have captivated them with your charming version of D'Artagnan!"
Kyuhyun looked worried at Sungmin's pale face painted with scattered red spots, his breathing broken by long inhales and exhales:
"Minimin, are you okay? Should i stop?"
"No, don't stop, tell me everything!", replied Sungmin between gritted teeth.
"I know you are angry with me, but all i did it was for your own good, at least that was what i thought back then."
"Stop with that, just tell me what else did you do!", burst out Sungmin.
Kyuhyun's voice began to crackle, but he was decided to finish what he started:
"Min-ah, i convinced her to accept to marry you, by...buying her..."
"You are lying! She is rich enough! I never would have believed you would be so low to, to,to...", Sungmin stood up with tears flowing down his cheeks and tried to run towards the door.
Kyuhyun managed to stop him, pulling him in his embrace, and trying to avoid as much as he could Sungmin's hard punches he was pounding in his chest and stomach:
"Leave me alone, you son of a bitch, i never thought i could hate you so much!
Let me go, i hate you!"
"Minnie, please calm down. You asked me to tell you everything, so you can hate me while listening the rest. Please!"
Sungmin let himself to be led back to the bed and settled down like a lifeless dummy.
"I know she is rich, as a matter of fact it was one more good point in her favor to be a good candidate for your future wife. I bought her not with money, but with a deal: i asked her to agree to give you a family and at least a child, in exchange of me doing everything possible to make her dream coming true, meaning to gain fame and more movie roles. You may ask how could i do that, well you know that i have many friends in the company, and my money are useful, too, sometimes.
But don't think she is marrying you only because of our deal.
Actually i was expecting for her to falling in love with you for real, who wouldn't?
She told me at some point that our deal is off, because she fell in love for real with you, and she will do everything to make you fall for her, too, even though she was aware about..."
"About what? What lies did you tell her?"
"I didn't tell her anything, she found out, don't know how, but Min, she knows!"
"She knows whaaat? Speak already!"
"Minnie, she knows you are gay, and she knows whom you loved before, but she said she doesn't care, that much she loves you!"
"You were the one telling her, you bastard. You just couldn't accept to see me happy with her, you just had to destroy my future, too, after you killed my past and my presence! I hate you!"
"My person is not important here, just tell me the truth: do you love her? Will you be happy with her?
Answer me and especially answer to yourself, and if you are sure she is the one, i will never bother you again, and i will support both of you how ever i will can.
Please, Minimin, i love you so much that all i need is to see you happy, even though it will not be with me!"
"I often asked myself why she always said she understands me and it isn't my fault for whom i am. Kyuhyun-ah, in the name of our past friendship, please tell me the truth, how did she know?"
"So, you do care about her opinion, you do care about her, do you love her?! Tell me!", yelled Kyuhyun, shocking Sungmin with his harsh grabbing of his face and the rough kiss, the type of kiss where their teeth collided and their lips got bruised.
Kyuhyun backed his head a bit and looked deep into Sungmin's blurry eyes:
"Tell me, do you feel this kind of want while kissing her, do you like to taste her lips like i know you enjoy my lips right now, did your legs tremble like are trembling right now?
Tell me, does your heart pounding when you kiss her like is pounding right now?
Tell me do you love her, like i feel you still love me?
I know it was my master plan, but i never imagine it will be so painful to see you loving somebody else."
"Kyu, please stop it, if you don't want me to beat the crap out of you!"
"That much you hate me?
I promised to stop bothering you, but i want to hear you saying how much you love her, after that i will exit for all from your life."
"I always thought about you that you are a very intelligent guy, but you are nothing but a stupid asshole, you and your stupid master plan!
You, stupid asshole!
I still feel the need to beat the crap out from you, asshole!
That less you knew me after six fucking years of showing you how much i loved you? That i would have chosen a wife instead of your love? Yes, i always said my dream was to have a family,a wife, kids, but did you expect me to add publicly to the sentence the words IF I WOULD BE A STRAIGHT GUY?
Did you expect me to say in those interviews what were my real wishes and dreams, that all i dreamed about was for you to be my husband and live happily together in a cozy house with two adopted kids, and running together a wine restaurant with a menu with all the wines we ever drank together?
You stupid asshole, i loved you so much, and you had to ruin everything with your mastermind and your master plan!
You want me to tell you if she is the one and if i love her?
All i can tell you is that i hate you like i never hated anyone in my whole life!
I hate that i still love you, and i could never love somebody else than you!
Yes, i like her, i respect her and i think she is the one, because i feel comfortable with her. I was never in pain or hurt because of her, like i was so many times because of you.
I respect her for still wanting to marry me, even though she is right that i don't give her enough passion,she is not a fool not to see how hard i try to get rid of the illusion of your breath on my skin, in my bones, through my veins.
Don't think i'm not good at what we do:we take out our clothes, get under the covers, move our bodies against each other, it's not such a hard thing to do.
I might even got her pregnant, so it doesn't matter too much that i never felt the need to press her into me to the point of inseparability, where the air could not infiltrate our amalgamated bodies....like i always felt with you!
And i fucking hate you for that!"
"You're right baby, everything you said is true, i am the biggest asshole from the universe and i blew it everything.
Come on, hit me, i know i deserve it!
Please, Minimin, just hit me!", yelled Kyuhyun, aggressing Sungmin's eardrums with his loud screams.
"I asked you not to call me like that! And yeah, you deserve it!", yelled Sungmin back, landing his hard fist on the other's jaw.
"Wow, i can't believe you actually did hit me!", yelled again Kyuhyun, rubbing his jaw, before sending a punch in Sungmin's stomach.
"Hey, i didn't ask you to hit me back, you asshole!"
"You deserved it, too! Because i can't hate you back, you big jerk!
I thought i can live without you, i assumed i will be satisfied with only knowing you are happy, but the truth is...the truth is, baby, i can't live without you!
These two years it was easier, because every time i closed my eyes for sleeping, it was like i could hear your heart beating and feel your breathing,through the wall parting our rooms.
But i don't know how i will ever be able to sleep again after 13 of December, knowing that your breath will caress somebody's skin, that your heart will beat for somebody dear to you, and it will be not for me.
I thought i love you enough for letting you go, maybe i will accept at some point that you are gone, physically gone... but now i know i love you too much for letting your heart to go...I NEED YOU TO LOVE ME, I NEED TO..."
Sungmin approached quietly and wrapped his arms around the taller man's neck, walking lightly his trembling lips along the bruised jaw:
"When i first met you, it was like somebody lit a match inside my heart, the burn running through my entire being, and i could do nothing about it...actually i can still feel the sting of the burning, especially in my heart.
My heart never stopped from loving you, no matter how hard i tried.
Maybe there were times when i lied myself that i forgot the taste of your lips or the way your hands were dancing across my hips, or the passion streaming through every single vein of my body when you were drowning into my eyes while pressing yourself into me...but i could never teach my heart to pretend in forgetting you."
Kyuhyun lifted his hands to the beautiful man's face, holding his chin and sweeping his thumbs over the plushy bottom lip.
Sungmin couldn't force himself to protest when his upper lip was trapped between the other's humid lips in a sensual, slow sucking, his bottom lip getting the same treatment after that.
When he felt the need to fill his lungs with air, Kyuhyun took advantage by his parted lips and tasted the pink muscle from inside, licking it rhythmically with his flatted tongue, pulling from both their throats, loud erotic moans.
"Ahhh, Kyu, mnha! Please, don't make me do this! Hmnh!"
"Why? I can feel you want this as much as i want it!
I missed you so much, i dreamed so many times at this moment, please Minimin, you will be hers for all the future years to come, so please, baby, give me just one more night with you! A farewell night, a last memory...so i could survive...please!"
"Kyu, you know me that i could never be a cheater. She will be my wife and what i do now is calling cheating."
"Do you know what i said to her when she told me that she knows about us? I said that Kyumin is nothing but a simple fanservice. Do you know what she replied?That she figured out by herself that whenever we were holding hands or glancing at each other, it was like we were making love. And Minnie, you can't deny she was right.
Don't you realize that your heart is already cheating on her?
Please Minnie, let's forget everything for this night, let's drink wine together, let's make love, let's cuddle, let's be happy one more night!
I don't ask you too much comparing to all the pain you'll give me after this night!"
Sungmin slipped down his arms from around the other's neck, trying to resist, but his whole body was like a lifeless piece of jelly:
"You should just leave, or maybe i should leave...we should stop..."
"Yes, we should, but we don't want and we can't...", whispered Kyuhyun, sucking gently Sungmin's throbbing jugular vein.
Sungmin's brain went weaker than his heart, so all what he did was to tilt his head for giving his former lover's a better access, while his brainless fingers were frantically unbuttoning both of their shirts.
The strong sensations they were feeling again after two long years overwhelmed both of them, taking away the strength from their legs.
Sungmin was the first falling down on his knees, taking with him Kyuhyun's glued form:
"I want you to press me into you enough for feeling your heart beating through my entire body, i want to feel again the intimacy i've never given and never received, since you left me.
His fingers clenched in Kyuhyun's mop of hair, pulling him harshly in an aggressive lip lock, pouring all his long time frustrations in the way he was biting, grabbing, sucking, scratching.
Kyuhyun submitted at Sungmin's angry kisses, his hands stripping their upper bodies from their shirts:
"I missed you so much, missing you was a part from loving you. All those smart philosophers are right saying that if you're never apart, you'll never really know how strong your love is.
You are so beautiful...but i will never stop from loving you, not even when we will be two old ahjhushis.
Their mouths met this time in a light, sensual kiss, Kyuhyun's velvety lips cupping gently the other's upper bowed lip. Sungmin trapped the other's bottom lip between his own. Their lips were sliding lasciviously on each other, while their hands were caressing the soft, hot skin of their backs.
The way Kyuhyun was looking into his eyes, while kissing, extinguished all his anger and guilt, warming his heart:
"I have never experienced with anybody else the sweet moments shared with you. It's not just about kissing or having sex...it's loosing all sense where i am or who i am and just melting in your arms. It's making me feel i am your most prized possession or a delicate flower which you adore so much that you don't want to ruin. The way you look into my eyes just goes through my heart. You look at me with such an admiration, that it makes me want to tear up.
You make me feel so appreciated and loved. You are everything i ever wanted. Hands holding, kissing, cuddling, singing together, talking, fighting, making love, eating, sleeping,arguing, everything it seems proper when it's done with you. but..."
"No BUT tonight! This night is ours, this night is only you and me, better saying you WITH me!
This night we will pretend that i am your FOREVER, and you are my FOREVER!"
Sungmin's last attending to remain clear minded was melted in Kyuhyun's tight embrace, their bare chests pressing impossibly close against to each other.
Kyuhyun protected with his arms Sungmin's back when it hit the carpeted floor, their mouths not being disconnected while kicking off from their bodies the rest of the clothes.
Words were said no more, only sloppy sucking noises, skin slapping and muffled moans were reverberating between the room's walls.
The passion with which they were making love was mirrored in the long trails from Kyuhyun's back dug by Sungmin's nails and the purple hickeys planted on Sungmin's body in places only for their eyes to see.
Loud groans were elicited by the black haired man and hot tears were squeezed between Sungmin's eyelids at every deep and long penetration of his one night stand lover's arousal. His tears were not from physical pain, nor from happiness, but from the awareness that it was the last time in his life he was indulging with the taste of the real love.
"Don't cry, my love! Deep down in my heart i can feel that no matter what life challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other, and i'm still hoping it will be ME WITH YOU in the end, no matter how far will be that end.", smiled Kyuhyun, cupping Sungmin's face in his palms and pressing their lips together like a sealed promising.
Sungmin smiled back between the shimmering tears:
"If i could have just one wish,i would wish to wake up every morning to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and especially the feel of your heart beating with mine. I feel like crying right now, knowing that i could never find this feeling with anyone other than you."
Instead of any reply, Kyuhyun pushed himself as deep as he could inside the man who will become soon just a friend who used to be the main part of his life.
But for tonight they were an item which nobody can part away.
He increased the pace and speed of his pounding, when he felt Sungmin's heels pushing into the tense muscles of his rear...Oh, how he missed to listen at Sungmin's low moans followed by the sharp screams, every time he was hitting his sweet spot...
They lost the counting of how many times they made love that night...the carpeted floor was the witness of their insatiable love for each other, because they didn't loose any time, not even for moving in the bed.
"I never hated so much the dawn!", sighed Sungmin, glancing with tired eyes at the window where a weak ray of light was struggling to sneak in the room through the crack of the curtains.
He walked to the closet and pulled two t-shirts and two sweatpants, dressing himself and giving to Kyuhyun the clothes, speaking fast and with no pause:
"I don't know when the others will arrive from Jeju, and i don't want for them to find us like this. We could shower after they will be here...i don't want to waste time from our night with showering, though..."
Kyuhyun was sitting with his back propped against the wall, and instead of dressing himself, he stretched a hand and pulled down the agitated man, settling him between his parted legs and trapping his whole form in his warm embrace:
"I want the time to freeze right now!"
Sungmin purred like a kitty under the hand running through his disheveled hair, massaging his scalp, and took the other hand wrapped around his chest, interlacing his fingers with oh-so-missed Kyuhyun's long fingers:
"Should i cancel the wedding?
Should i destroy her image and her dreams?
Should i upset my family and her family, too?
But, then, what?"
"No, baby, everything is too late right now...too many people would be destroyed including yourself. Nobody would be ready to accept our love, nor your family, nor the company, nor the society. Don't forget that we live in Korea, our careers would be finished, our parents's businesses would be closed, and what would be worst our siblings would be a pariah in the society's eyes. We can't be selfish and destroy Sungjin's and Ahra's future.
Besides i really want you to achieve those life goals. My greatest wish is for your kid to inherit your genes. You are smart, beautiful, passionate, and most importantly, you are honest.
You are going in a new place. A new environment. A new world. A new and an exciting life.
You have everything you need to make it big!I believe in you, more than i believe in myself at times.And not because i was once your boyfriend, i'd have thought the same even if i'd have been just a simple band mate.
I love you baby! No matter where you'll be or what you'll do. I'll always love you and i'll always believe in you. You have my full support and i know you will be successful in all your endeavors, I know you will live your dream there. And hopefully we will still remain best friends.
I am happy for you baby and really proud of you. You had the courage to be the first idol to marry while being active and getting all the hate for yourself.
You are taking a huge and important step in your life. And don't you worry baby, you will most definitely make it. I really mean it, sweetheart.
Once again, i love you, my darling!"
The sound of the front door, followed by Hyukjae's voice, startled Sungmin who's trembling hands began to wipe quickly the big drops of tears streaming along his cheeks and neck, but Kyuhyun pulled him up and kissed his lips one last time before guiding him towards the bed:
"Go and take some rest, i will tell Hyuk that i checked you up, but you are still sleeping. Good bye my love, please be happy!"
"Good bye my love, but not for all, remember that i am your FOREVER, and you are my FOREVER! I can feel it in my heart that one day...one day you will be beside me once again. Till then, never forget that you are my only true love. I love you!"
A/n Sorry, but had to split this oneshot in two parts, because it got longer and longer...