Long since I've written

[kyri_v]

The saved draft in the browser has It's really hard to watch someone in pain, but when you basically agree with the harsh conclusions sie is coming to about how sie has been living hir life and treating others (me included), there's really not a lot to say.which is a reminder of entirely too many months past, from which not a lot has changed other

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[musicman]

"Why do people ask that sitting next to me at dinner, anyway?"

Maybe, because that is when they have a chance to sit with you and talk? Some people only want to discuss such in person.

"And where do I go from here?"

Where would you like to go? What, or who do you desire? Sometimes it helps to write for yourself what you seek.

Some people seem to have grown and changed and no longer need kink. Others want it, but on different terms. Playing at the club for some seems to have changed into playing in private.

I'm happy to talk with you further in person, if I can help you find answers.

[kyri_v]

I went to the dinner before a BR class. That is what the guy sitting next to me was asking about. I was sitting next to him because that was where the open seat was.

I think I'm afraid to figure out what I want, and even more so to change my life to possibly manage to get it.

[musicman]

Kinky people seem to be always "on" at such meetings as a dinner before anything BR. Is one of the difficulties, especially for women because so many guys are overly eager to play, or to find a play partner. Makes getting to know people as friends first kind of difficult.

Why would you need to change your life in order to get what you want? Not that change is bad, but if one has to change oneself in order to meet a goal, it makes me wonder what will happen if one changes, and then discovers the goal was not worth it? (probably expressed poorly, but I hope the concept holds)