Cherish ch.9b
Fic Title: Cherish
Title: Ch. 9b
Pairings: ryopi
JE Groups: NewS
Genre: AU
Rating: NC-17 for the usual reasons- sex and language.
Notes: Don’t kill me if you hate it… it is my first real attempt at an AU fic series. You'll need tissues...sorry...
Characters:
Koyama Keiichiro- Kei, the dad
Koyama Tomahisa- also known as Yamapi, a college student
Koyama Yuya- affectionately known as Tesshi
Kato Shigeaki- Shige/Gesshi, Kei’s boyfriend/live-in-lover, raising his cousin’s son
Masuda Takahisa- dubbed Massu by Tesshi as a child, lives with them, Tesshi’s best friend
Nishikido Ryo- Yamapi’s boyfriend of many years[edit] I hadn't a clue that Ryo lived here too until chapter 2 or that he was Shige's foster son...six NewS members in one house sounds more then a little crowded no matter how big it is.
Prologue- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/15669.html
Ch.1- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/15964.html
Ch.2- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/16544.html
Ch.3- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/16754.html
Ch.4- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/17358.html
Ch.5- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/18073.html
Ch.6- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/18403.html
Ch.7- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/20109.html
Ch.8- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/20490.html
Ch.9- http://kusanobabe05.livejournal.com/23333.html
Ryo ran down the stairs, he felt angry, betrayed, and sad all at once. He’d know something was up with Yamapi but he felt when his lover was ready, he’d share. He just never expected this…the one thing in this life he thought he could count on was Yamapi and his love for him, the love that had seen him through everything. He didn’t know what he was going to do without its support. Ryo ran out the door, he didn’t know where he was going until he was there…
He stood beneath their treefort; before he climbed up its ladder and lay down on the deck. The warmth of the summer sun embraced him with sleep and he dreamed.
Ryo looked around, it looked like the day he was moving into Yamapi’s place. Yamapi had made his parents buy a bunk bed that they would rarely use because he had always found a way to fall asleep on Yamapi’s bed. Yamapi had cleared half his closet and dresser for him. Yamapi had moved his art around to make room for Ryo’s growing model car collection. He remembered Yamapi bouncing around helping him put stuff away when he was hugging the hell out of him.
Ryo looked around the scene had changed…
It was their school’s New Years dance during their freshman yea of high school. He heard himself confess again.
“Yamapi, you know you mean so much more then a best friend or even a brother to me. I love you, I known it for a while; I just never had the courage to say so before.”
He watched Yamapi more closely this time watching his reaction.
Yamapi had stared at him thinking for a while before smiling, “I feel the same way.”
Ryo missed this Yamapi, he did exactly what he had done then, he leapt on Yamapi in front of their classmates and kissed him. Yamapi had been hesitant but had eventually kissed him back.
He saw their fumbling attempts at sex three days later, after Yamapi had come out of the shower. He had looked so hat standing there in nothing but a towel. He missed him…
Time flash forward again…
Ryo was being hugged again by Yamapi, he remembered today was the day of the championship game. They had led their team to victory, or rather, Yamapi had being team captain had; Ryo never really felt like a member of the team, since he was only the manager. Until Yamapi had arranged after graduation to assemble the team and they had presented a ceremony that commemorated all his hard work in keeping the team alive. Yamapi had kissed him again to thank him for doing such a great job. He had wanted to spend time with Yamapi, only he was never very good at sports. He was a far better manager then he had been a player.
The day they were accepted to University…
Yamapi had held his hand as they had gone to their number one choice University to see if they got in. Their numbers had been right on top of each other. Yamapi had seemed so happy that day when he kiss him, but he could see sadness in his lover’s eyes he had never noticed before.
He saw a few days ago…
When Tesshi came back wheezing hard after convincing Massu to play soccer with him. The sadness had only been greater, even when Yamapi said he loved him when they had made love. He had woken up to an empty bed; he had often woken up to an empty bed recently after they had made love. In fact today would have been the first time since that day.
This morning…
He watched himself rail at Yamapi and saw the pain his own careless words had caused. The sadness he had noticed in Yamapi’s eyes wasn’t new, it was only something he had refused to see. He had to wake up…he had to apologize…he had promised never to blow up at the person he loved and he had actually hit Yamapi with anger.
Ryo forced himself awake; he ran all the way home and back to their room. He sat next to Yamapi on their bed as he rubbed Yamapi’s back.
Yamapi felt a familiar hand on his back; he tried to believe that he imagining it, until he heard the owner of the hand begin to speak.
Ryo whispered, “I’m sorry…I realize how hard it was to be honest with me and I’m sorry I blew up.
Yamapi rolled over to look at him.
Ryo’s heart broke as he saw a perfect hand mark on Yamapi’s cheek; he reached over…
Yamapi saw the hand move and he winced, putting his hands up to block any blows. He watched the hand fall into Ryo’s lap.
Ryo was angry with himself, he had crossed the line and Yamapi was afraid of him. He moved away and sat with his arms around his knees. “I’m sorry, you know I swore never to do something like that…especially after the hell my father put me through.”
Yamapi could see that Ryo’s thoughtless act was hurting his friend as much as it was hurting him. He reached for Ryo’s hand; he placed it on his cheek, as he said quietly, “I’m fine. I know you didn’t mean to do this, that you hate violence in relationships and I‘m going to forgive you for hitting me.
Ryo felt hot tears fall down his face, “I’m sorry, Pi-chan…I’ll never do that again, I promise. I can’t be a social worker, if I abuse others.”
Yamapi hugged him, “I believe in you, you’ll always be my best friend, my first lover and that’s a special place in my heart. I can’t be more then what I am, I can’t be the person you need no matter how much I want to. I’ll always love you, you know that don’t you…”
Ryo nodded as Yamapi held him, “I know…if we’re not sleeping together do I have to find a new place to live…”
Yamapi shook his head, “Not unless you want to, I’m not going to kick you out of my bed. I didn’t do that before we were going out, and I’m not going to do things like that just yet. Although since this is my bed, I’d appreciate it if someday when you find someone who loves you the way you deserve that you don’t use my bed.”
Ryo yawned, “Okay…”
Ryo fell asleep in Yamapi’s arms and Yamapi laid them both down on the bed and fell asleep soon, thinking, “I’m glad he understands, now I don’t have to feel so bad for hurting him. I never wanted to be responsible for causing him more pain.”