Not One-sided Love anymore - Chapter 4
Title: Not One-side Love anymore
Author: kuroyukisama_17
Pairing: Takaki x Yamada, Nakajima x Yamada
Genre: AU, BL, Friendship, Romance, a little Angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Yuya tell Ryosuke that Yuto is just pretending that he want to be friend with Ryosuke.
A/N: This fiction is continues story from my other fiction - One-side Love. Read that first before you read this.
Chapter 4
Yuto can’t concentrate at all along the first period. His mind keeps on remembering Ryosuke. And when the lunch time come still Yuto can’t meet with Ryosuke since he is with that Takaki guy again.
Yuto laid himself on his chair; it is pointless for him to eat outside since Ryosuke is not with him. “Why did I feel lonely?” Yuto ask himself. He doesn’t have any appetite to eat at all, since he will eat it alone today.
“Oi Yuto! Eating in class today?” his classmates named Keito ask.
“Why bother asking.” Yuto said while sighing.
“Well, I usually saw you eating with that Poker face prince. Aren’t you going to eat with him today?”
Instead of answering him, Yuto ask his question. “Nee Keito-san, do I look horrible now?”
“Well, from my view… yeah, you do look horrible. Look like someone who just have a heart broken.” He said. “Masaka! Yuto, you are in love with that boy!” He exclaimed shock. But then Keito look at Yuto with a sad face.
“Poor you… I heard that he is dating Takaki Yuya now.” He said.
When Yuto heard what Keito just say, he immediately stands up and slams his hand on to his desk startling Keito who is standing in front of his table. “What did you just say?” Yuto ask firmly.
“Well, I’m saying that he is dating Takaki now.” Keito said slowly, he is scare with Yuto who is enraged.
“That bastard guy, what have he done to Ryosuke!” Yuto said as he grasps both of his fists.
Yuto didn’t waste his time, he quickly run out from class to search for Ryosuke. “Ryo-chan, I don’t know if I have a feeling to you or not now. But I know that I don’t want anyone to take you away from me.”
*****
“Here Ryosuke, have some drink.” Yuya said while handing Ryosuke a can of Oolong tea.
Ryosuke smile at him bitterly and take the drink. He stares at the drink with a sad face. “If Yuto-kun, he definitely will buy me a strawberry drink not a tea.” Ryosuke thought in his mind.
“Why are you looking so sad? Do you hate tea?” Yuya ask. He can see that Ryosuke is not happy with the drink he gives him earlier.
“No it’s okay…” Ryosuke lie to him. He doesn’t want Yuya to know more of him anymore. It is enough with forcing Ryosuke to date him.
“So what is the problem? Thinking about your boyfriend that you have left behind?” Yuya ask casually.
Ryosuke face goes red. “He… he is not my boyfriend. We are just friend. Yuto-kun loves Chinen Yuri.” Ryosuke said while chuckle a bit before he continuing his word.
“But even though it is like that, he still wants to be friend with me. That why I don’t care if this loves that I feel is a one-side love, because Yuto-kun still want to be with me.” Ryosuke said while smiling. He moves his hand to his chest, remembering the warm feeling that Yuto give him.
“So he loves someone else? Aren’t you suspecting that he is doing all that because that best friend of you asks him?” Yuya said making Ryosuke to look at him with a serious face.
“Why are you concluding thing that way?” Ryosuke ask. He feels unease with what Yuya had told him.
“Well, it is because Nakajima-san loves your best friend right, and if your best friend has asked him to take care of you when he is no longer here, Yuto will definitely agree since it is his love who is asking that.” Yuya stop and glance at Ryosuke who is hanging disbelieave look on his face.
“So that’s mean all this time, he is pretending to be happy being friend with you just because he have promised to do that.”
Ryosuke quickly stand. He looks at Yuya madly. “Stop saying nonsense thing Takaki Yuya; if this is one of your plans to make me fall for you… it won’t work. Yuto-kun won’t do something as horrible as that. Yuto-kun won’t play with my feeling like that… he… he won’t. I know he won’t do that. He say it himself that he really want to become my friend.”
Ryosuke glare at Yuya. “You are just trying to destroy our friendship.”
“Well, maybe I really want to do that. Since it means that I will have your heart. But not this time, Ryosuke… don’t you think that what I thought are actually true.” Yuya said.
“Ryo-chan!” Someone shout Ryosuke name while from far.
Ryosuke look at the person who call him and see Yuto running toward his direction. His eyes widen when he see Yuto running to him. “Yu…Yuto-kun? What are you doing here?” Ryosuke ask Yuto when the taller has arrived and standing in front of Ryosuke.
“I’m searching for you of course.” Yuto said.
“It is nice to meet you, Nakajima-san.” Yuya greet Yuto.
When Yuto hear Yuya voice greeting him, he quickly move his gaze to him while his hand pull Ryosuke body to his back; protecting him from Yuya. “What have you done to Ryosuke?” Yuto ask in enrage.
“I didn’t do anything to him.” Yuya answer casually.
“You lie!” Yuto shout at Yuya while sending his dead glare to him.
“Err… Yuto-kun” Ryosuke call Yuto. When Yuto heard Ryosuke call his name, Yuto turns to his back facing Ryosuke. “Ryo-chan tells me, is it true that you are dating this Guy?” Yuto ask. Ryosuke is not answering Yuto or even look at his face. He doesn’t know what he should do, nodding or denying it.
“Nee… Ryosuke… why don’t you ask Nakajima-san about what I had told you before.” Yuya say, while both of his hand is in his pocket with an evil smile on his face.
“Ask what Ryo-chan.” Yuto ask the latter.
Ryosuke is a little bit hesitated to ask Yuto about that at first. But Ryosuke really want to know if it is true, even though he is actually hoping that Yuto will say the opposite. So Ryosuke decided to ask. “Yuto-kun?”
“Yes?” Yuto answer him.
“Is it true that… it is because of Chii you still being friend with me?” Ryosuke said. He is hoping that Yuto will deny it, but when Ryosuke see Yuto eyes widen and he is stiffed. Ryosuke start thinking the opposite. He feels like his tear want to come out.
Ryosuke hold Yuto arms shaking it hardly demand for an answer from the taller but Yuto just stay silent. “Answer me Yuto-kun.” Ryosuke ask again.
Yuto can’t say anything. He is speechless. Ryosuke had known the true. Yuto don’t have any other choice but nod to him. When he does that, Yuto can feel Ryosuke hand release his arm. “I’m sorry Ryosuke. I didn’t mean to do that to you…” Yuto try to explain what had happen to Ryosuke but the brown haired boy stop him halfway.
“So it is true…” Ryosuke said in a trembling voice.
Yuto look at Ryosuke eyes who seems to be teary. “Ryo-chan, it is true that I did do that at first… but then I really, really want to be your friend!” Yuto said. He feels panic start over taken his body when he sees Ryosuke teary eyes and sad look.
Ryosuke close his eyes and put his hand on his ears covering it. “Stop Yuto-kun, I don’t want to hear anything.”
“But Ryo-chan… I…” Yuto try to explain.
“I have being hurt so much. Just say it if you dislike me, don’t pretend to be someone that important to me. You are making me hate you Yuto-kun.” Ryosuke said between his sobbing and crying.
The word hates that Ryosuke say toward Yuto, lingering in his mind. When Ryosuke say that, Yuto’s heart feels like broken into pieces. Yuto is speechless, stunned, shock, scare, hurt and many more hurtful feeling he feel that time.
“Ryosuke, please…” Yuto stretch his hand to hold Ryosuke hand. But he stopped when Yuto see Yuya pull Ryosuke's body back and warped it around his arm.
“Don’t worry Nakajima-san; from now on… you don’t have to trouble yourself to take care of Ryosuke, because it is me, who is his boyfriend will do that. Right Ryo…chan?” Yuya said casually to Yuto while he drags Ryosuke way from that place.
It is sting. The way Yuto heard Yuya call Ryosuke with Ryo-chan make he want to punch his face. The way he put his hand on Ryosuke body make Yuto want to break his bone until it can’t be used anymore. Yuto stare at Ryosuke who is being dragged away by Yuya. Seeing Ryosuke sad face make Yuto want to kill himself because making the brown haired guy like that.
“What have I done…?” Yuto said slowly, still standing at that place. His feet are too stiffed to move.
Ryosuke didn’t even refuse Yuya who drag him away from Yuto. He doesn’t have strength to do anything and his mind can’t process anything good. “Yuto-kun, I still love you but it is so hurt now to pretending nothing had happen.” Only that single sentences that Ryosuke manage to process in his mind now.
*****
Yuto didn’t attend the second until the last period. He is so not in a condition that he can study so the best choice is to skip class the whole day.
Yuto walk out from school limply. Yuto stop just before he passes the school gate. Yuto look around. He can’t see Ryosuke anywhere, so he concludes that Ryosuke is with his so called boyfriend.
Yuto put his right hand on his chest. His heart is hurt so much. Ryosuke hateful word is still fresh in his mind. Yuto almost lost his mind when Ryosuke say those the cursing word to him earlier. But also because of that… Yuto have finally realized it.
Yuto chuckles a little before showing a bitter smile. “Now I know how you are feeling all this time Ryosuke. Now I know how painful it is to love someone who does not love us back. Now I know how it feels to have a one-side love.”
Yuto sigh heavily. He starts to walk and sometime Yuto will laugh at this pathetic self of him. “I just realize that I actually love you Ryo-chan. But now it is already too late to realize that right? It is because you already found someone better than me.” Yuto mumbles slowly.
Yuto bite his lower lips try to hold his painful feeling. “It is so painful Ryosuke… how can I bear with it?”
*****
When Yuto arrive at his house, he sees a beautiful women standing beside his house gate. As soon as the women see Yuto figure, she immediately walks toward Yuto direction before stop in front of Yuto and bow.
“Anoo… you are Nakajima-san right?” She asks and Yuto just nod. He looks at the women weirdly.
“Can I talk to you for a while? There is something I want to tell you.” She said.
“Sure… but first, who are you?” Yuto ask her.
“My name is Yamada Chihiro. I’m Ryosuke sister.” She said while flashing a smile to Yuto.
“Ryo-chan’s sister? Aren’t you supposed to be at Paris?” Yuto exclaimed in shock. “Why is Ryo-chan sister here and what is she doing here standing in front of my house?” Yuto keep on asking himself.
“Well, I actually have a work to be done here in Japan and, I heard from Chinen-san that in Japan you are the one who take care of Ryosuke in his place… so I decide to tell you first about this news.” Chihiro said.
Yuto tilts his head. “News, what is it about?” Yuto ask her.
“I’m thinking of taking Ryosuke back with me to Paris.”
“What!”
*****
finish chapter 4