Loving you - Chapter 10
Title: Loving you
Author: kuroyukisama_17
Pairing: Yamajima (main), NakaChii (side)
Genre: AU, Bl, Romance, Fluff, Friendship
Rating: PG-13
Summary: In school he is a kind of secluded boy and the other one is a womanizer known as the school prince. Both never have wished to have a connection but a promise made by their late grandfather tying them in an upside down love drama.
Chapter 10 - Please tell me the true
“So today is your last day right.” Yuto asked Ryosuke as he walked down the stairs with him. “Yeah, I already teach you everything I can… you won’t face much trouble in the test later.” Ryosuke answered. He just finish their last class together. Ryosuke requested to stop being Yuto’s tutor since he wanna use this remaining time to self-studying. Being an understandable student, Yuto agree to let Ryosuke go. Well, he still can meet his cute fiancée anywhere, finally they have a better relationship with each other.
“Are you sure you wanna go to Tokyo Uni? It’s kind of hard to enter that university.” Anxiety obviously radiated from his face when Ryosuke asked that question to Yuto. He lie if he said he’s not hoping for him and Yuto to get into the same university. He so hoping for that to happen. And since Yuto is not that smart… he kind of worried that Yuto won’t make it there.
Yuto crave a smile while showing Ryosuke his thumb up. He’s confident he can do it. “Don’t worry… I definitely will go to Tokyo Uni. I got a help from the school smartest student right… I definitely can do it!”
Ryosuke shrugged to cover his relive. “Okay, not like I care about that matter so much.”
“Hey, that’s bad… I really struggle to make sure I pass the test. Can’t you at less cheer me on?” Yuto said as he open the door for Ryosuke who’s currently holding his laugh. He really did struggling hard. He want to be with Ryosuke and willingly to do everything just for the sake of that.
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Chinen walk happily. Inside his pocket, there’s a good luck charm he made special for Yuto. Since he can’t wait for tomorrow to come, he decided to just go to the taller house and give it to him. He put his hope for Yuto and him to pass the test inside the charm. If Yuto wish to enter the same university as Ryosuke than Chinen wish is for him and Yuto to always be together.
Chinen stopped right in front of the gate and ready to push the doorbell when suddenly the gate opened by itself. Chinen creased when he saw Yuto walking out from his house with someone beside him. Yuto who just realize Chinen is currently standing in front of him and Ryosuke, fidgeted. He’s not expecting Chinen to be here since its weekend. Wait, weekend? Damn Yuto totally forgot about this one fact. Chine always come visiting him during weekend. No more turning back… Chinen already saw them.
“Yuto-kun? Why’s he here?” Chinen asked. He knows this person who’s standing beside Yuto. His name is Yamada Ryosuke and he had met him before. “What Keito’s boyfriend doing here?” He asked more while examining Ryosuke up to down. A huge doubting feeling is engulfing his heart.
Ryosuke turn his head away. It’s obvious to him that Chinen still don’t know about him and Yuto. He just stay quietly while waiting Yuto to solve everything with his boyfriend. Ryosuke pray in his heart for Yuto to finally say the true to his boyfriend. That will reduce his guilty feeling toward Chinen for falling in love with Yuto also because him being his boyfriend’s fiancée. Say the true Yuto… or you will hurt him more;
“Yuri let me introduce you to my private tutor, Yamada Ryosuke.” Yuto said, shocking both Ryosuke and Chinen. Ryosuke thought that Yuto will tell the true to Chinen but he was wrong. He just said private tutor, with no addition of being his fiancée. Why Yuto… Ryosuke questioning inside his heart.
Chinen widen his eyes because of that news. “He-he’s your private teacher?!” He exclaimed Shockley. He always thought that Yuto private tutor would be a grown up man or women. He never expected that the great tutor that manage to change Yuto is one of their school mate. The smart student Yamada Ryosuke who’s also Keito’s boyfriend in Chinen point of view.
“Wow… I never knew about this~” Chinen commented and he lean his hand to Ryosuke want the latter to shake hand with him. Ryosuke doubted at first but finally he also lean his hand to handshake with Chinen. “Thanks for willing to teach my boyfriend Yamada-san.” Chinen thanked him. With a hurtful feeling, Ryosuke nodding his head slowly while try to crave a fake smile. “No problem… I need to get going now, see you next time.” Ryosuke bowing his body a little before he walk away from Yuto and Chinen with a sad feeling. He couldn’t stop questioning himself. Why Yuto didn’t wanna tell the true? Did he read that note? Or actually he didn’t?
Ryosuke don’t know how much Yuto wanna tell everything to Chinen. He already tired in hiding everything. He wanna show the world that Ryosuke belongs to him and not Keito’s boyfriend. But there’s a thing that always being the reason for him to not saying that. Yuto gaze sadly toward Ryosuke back when the latter leave his house. He didn’t manage to say at least good bye or see you tomorrow to him. Please forgive me Ryosuke… Yuto can only say that inside his heart while his eyes still looking at Ryosuke back until his fiancée finally out of his view. He hold his fist tightly, feeling so unsatisfied. He need to at least say see you again tomorrow to Ryosuke.
His eyes can’t lie to him. Even though Yuto never said anything, but the way he look at Ryosuke had proved everything. It’s not just a tutor and student relationship that happen between Yuto and Yamada Ryosuke. Chinen can feel that their relationship was actually more than that. “Yuto… how long have you knew him?” Chinen asked.
“Well, not too long actually. I just knew him few months ago.” Yuto answered.
“Is he there person who was with you that time?”
Yuto creased and turn to look at Chinen with a confusing look. “When?” He asked, totally don’t know what time Chinen refer too.
“That time when you go home before me. My eyes doesn’t trick me. I did saw someone else with you that time and I wanna know… was that person him?” Yuto hesitated if he should nodding his head or not. Don’t lie anymore Yuto… He thought and slowly he nodding his head. “Yes, I was with Ryosuke that time. Sorry that I lie to you Yuri…”
Chinen bit his lower lips. Now he knows, his doubtful feeling indeed was true. “Tell me the true Yuto…” He asked slowly. He wanna know everything. “You love him don’t you…?” He added more as he avert his gaze away from Yuto. He don’t wanna see Yuto face when Yuto reveals everything. It will doubling the hurt he’s feeling currently. “Yuto please… you just going to hurt me more if you tell another lies.”
Yuto take a deep breath. He know someday soon… this day will come. The day when he finally will tell Chinen everything that he hides. “I’m sorry Yuri but…. Yes it’s true. I do love Ryosuke.” Chinen can feel his heart shattered when his ears heard that. He no longer own Yuto’s heart. “Why Yuto… why him? Why can’t you still love me?” He asked more and more. Totally can’t accept everything that happen behind his back. Yuto cheat on him… why? Did he does something so awful until it can make Yuto to shifted his feeling toward Ryosuke?
“I’m sorry Yuri but all this time, I never saw you as someone that I love.” Yuto finally said what he wanted to say; yes that the real thing is… Yuto never saw Chinen as his lover. Chinen shot his eyes open and grab Yuto’s arm tightly. “Lie!!! You said that you love me and will always love me!” He shouted.
“Yes Yuri… but the love that I feel toward you is not like how I feel toward Ryosuke. I love you because you’re my precious childhood friend. But that love isn’t enough to be called love between lovers. More like a love of a brother to his younger brother.” Yuto explained, totally shocking Chinen. He feel like being stabbed by daggers when Yuto said like that. Yuto saw him not more than just a childhood friend. Chine shake his head frantically. “No, I can’t accept it! There’s no way I will let you leave me Yuto!!”
“But Yuri I-” Yuto try to convince Chinen but the latter push him away. “I don’t wanna heard anymore Yuto! I don’t wanna accept everything!” He shouted out loud before running away from Yuto. The taller try to run after him but Chinen already unreachable. Chinen can run so fast and even faster than Keito, their school athletes. Yuto decided to not run after Chinen. He’ll let the latter cool down his head first and think back. I really hope he’s okay with everything. Yuto thought, he feel relive that finally he told everything. But worried is still there inside his heart, he’s worried about Chinen whether he really will be okay or not. The news was so shocking for him.
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“Just a few days left right. I couldn’t believe that I have improved so much. All thanks to you Ryosuke.” Haruna said to Ryosuke beside her. They just strolling around the school building to get some fresh air. Ryosuke smile satisfied toward Haruna. “Glad that I could help you.” He said.
“Yamada-kun wait.” Ryosuke and Haruna stopped when suddenly Chinen appear in front of them from nowhere. Ryosuke tilt his head, wondering what could be the matter. This is the first time they talked directly with each other. “Yes, did you need anything?” Ryosuke asked him back. When Ryosuke saw Chinen looking at him while smirking, he thought of that something bad will happen.
“I have something I wanna ask you.”
“Are you in love with someone now?”
Ryosuke creased. Yes, something bad really did happen. Why would a stranger asking me something like that…. Unless… Ryosuke crave a wry smile while busy arranging his words inside his mind. Ryosuke bit his lower lips. If I say yes then he can directly know that person is Yuto.
“Sorry if that question is kind of hard for you to answer. Then I shall change the question. I think I’ll just be straight.” Chinen said then stopped for a few second and then continue back while staring intensely toward Ryosuke. “Yamada Ryosuke… do you love Nakajima Yuto?”
Ryosuke shot his eyes open when he heard that. How he supposed to answer that question? If the one asking it is Keito, he’ll just be honest and answer yes. But it’s Chinen, Nakajima Yuto boyfriend. He can’t just say ‘yes I love your boyfriend’ to him! That will bring trouble to both of them.
“It’s me.”
“Eh?!” Ryosuke quickly avert his eyes toward Haruna while hanging a confusing look onto his face. Chinen turn to look at Haruna. “You?” He asked and she nodding her head. “Yeah me. I and Ryosuke is a couple.” She said and quickly clinging her arm on Ryosuke’s. “So of course he love me and I also love him.” Haruna added. Ryosuke look at her. It’s obvious that Ryosuke know nothing about what Haruna just told Chinen. Since when we were a couple??!
But Chinen seem to totally fall for what Haruna said. He beamed happily. “Souka~ heh… omedetou!!” Chinen exclaimed. “Sorry that I bother you two. Thanks for answering my question Yamada.” Chinen thanked him and skipping away.
“Haruna what nonsense that you just told him!” Ryosuke exclaimed when they are totally free from Chinen. “Couldn’t you see it? I’m helping you Ryosuke.”
“Eh?!” Ryosuke responded still so clueless. Haruna sigh and drag Ryosuke away to somewhere they can talk alone without have to worried someone might heard them. When finally arrive at the prefect spot, Haruna open up her story. “I know about you and Yuto.”
“H-how? I never mention anything.” Ryosuke asked. Indeed, he was so caution all this time each time he talk to Yuto, or saying anything that lead to his relationship with Yuto. So how? “That call that time. I’m the one who firstly answering the call right. That person accidently said my name and his voice did sound so familiar to me.”
“So with all the hint I got, I try to figure out who was that person and finally I found it and… I was quite shock at first actually.” Haruna explained about how she know about Ryosuke and Yuto. She look at Ryosuke and giggles. “I never knew your taste was so high Ryosuke… Yuto is an ikemen in this school!” She said. Obviously she is not mocking Ryosuke, she totally mean it. For someone who’s also alone to have such a high taste… it’s awesome in her eyes!
Ryosuke lowering his head as his cheek goes red. “Don’t say like that… I never plan to fall in love with him. All I knew was, I already in love with him.” Haruna patted his back as she consoled him. “It is okay, no one said it was wrong to fall in love. Even though that person is Yuto, which once upon a time is a womanizer in this school.”
“It always make me curious all this time.”
Ryosuke tilts his head. “About what?”
“Well, in the recent month; Yuto lose that womanizer in him. He rarely seen loitering around with bunch of hot chick. It make me to wonder and now I found my answer.” Haruna said and giggling while eye-seeing Ryosuke.
Ryosuke scratched the back of his head, feeling shy when he know whose Haruna refer too. “Would you promise me to not tell anyone about this?” He asked her. Hoping for Haruna to keep it a secret.
Haruna grinning and showing both of her thumb. “You can count on me~”
“But Ryosuke I’m warning you… better that for a while you avoid meeting with Yuto. Chinen sometimes can be superfluity. Who know what he’ll do in the future. He always wore that super jealous face whenever Yuto hang out with a girl and now you’re having an affair with his boyfriend and that won’t be a good news to him.”
Ryosuke smile. “You don’t have to worry, I did plan to do that. I have exam, something that I should concern more than concerning about love.”
“Glad to hear that.”
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Ryosuke is studying when his phone suddenly ringing. Ryosuke look at the screen and jolted up from his seat due to overly excited. Without wasting any time Ryosuke quickly answering the call. “Moshi-moshi, Hikaru-kun?”
“Hey Ryosuke, sorry for not often calling you nowadays. I got too much hassle here.” Ryosuke heard Hikaru said. From his side, he can totally heard a lot of noise around Hikaru. So he suspected that maybe the taller is at a public place. “It’s okay… I can totally understand your situation there. Its sound so busy there. Where are you now actually?”
Hikaru chuckling can be heard from the other side. “I actually at my family restaurant. Today is its second day after finally opened again.”
“Are you okay? You need to manage the restaurant and in the same time attend school. Don’t you feel tired?”
“Well a little. I got a help from a friend here. Ryosuke if you have time… I really wanna introduce him to you!”
“Heh~ seems like you’re having a lot of fun there… mou~ I really hope that I could join you.” Ryosuke whined. He miss his taller best friend so much and now he got news that that latter is having fun without him… he’s so jealous.
“Then just come. You’re warmly welcomed here.”
Ryosuke smile sourly. “Thanks; but there is a lot of thing I need to complete first here.” A lot, especially about him and Yuto matter but he won’t say that to Hikaru.
“Entrance exam right. Yeah, I understand you so much.” Hikaru stopped. “But don’t work out too much or you will end up collapse.” He added with an even softer voice. Obviously he’s worried with Ryosuke.
“Yeah, I’ll remember that…” Ryosuke answered with a sour feeling inside his heart. With his current situation, he might end up like what Hikaru just told him. But he won’t easily give up. They start everything so they need to say till the end.
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Ryosuke throw an empty gaze toward his ceiling, taking a ten minutes rest from studying. “I wonder if he’s studying now.” Ryosuke let out his thought. He had swear to himself not to think about Yuto until the exam ended but without him realizing it, he already broke it. “Can I really have him?”
His body hopped down from the comfy bed. “Rest time end!” He exclaimed and dash toward his desk back, resuming his studying. “Exam first, love later. Ganbare Ryosuke!!” He shouted out loud. The upcoming exam is so important and he can’t keep on losing focus.
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Ryosuke take a deep breath and release it slowly. Half an hour before the exam is a nerve-wreaking moment for Ryosuke. Ryosuke keep on walking from left to right and from right to left, his heart is beating so fast and Haruna who’s standing not far from Ryosuke sighed heavily. She roll her eyes when once again Ryosuke walk pass her. “Come one Ryosuke… relax~” She said, trying to console the latter. “You never fail before this and you won’t too today. I’m confident with your brain!”
Feel like they are been watched, Haruna turn his head back and giggles. “Ryosuke I wanna go to the toilet first. You just wait here okay.” Haruna said and quickly walk away. “Go, he need you.” She whispered to Yuto when she walked pass the taller. Yuto shot his eyes open when knew Haruna purposely walk away from Ryosuke just to give him a time to be alone with her friend. Yuto move his head from Haruna to Ryosuke who’s still clueless about his present there. Slowly, Yuto start moving his feet nearing his little fiancée.
“Ryosuke…” Yuto call his name.
Ryosuke look at Yuto with a face full of trouble. “Yuto, what’re you doing here?” He asked. Yuto crave a faint smile and walk closer to him until he’s only a few cm away. “I just wanna say good luck.” Yuto crooked his body a little forward and widening his arms enough from his to give a warm hug to Ryosuke. “Good luck, I know you can do it.” He whispered between the hug.
Ryosuke wasn’t shock at all when Yuto lean forward to hug him. Yuto have done that before, hugging him suddenly while saying something so sweet and enough to melt his heart in an instant. He didn’t feel wrong if he reply the hug. Ryosuke put his hand on Yuto’s back, hugging the taller back while also chanted a good luck wish to him. It feel warm, so warm until all his nervousness gone when he feel Yuto’s warm body pressed to his. I would miss this warmness in the next few days.
Chinen hand turn into fist as his eyes locked toward two figure hugging each other in front of him. He clicked his tongue, and walk away. His eyes and chest feel like burning if he keep on watching them. “No, Yuto is mine will always be mine!” He shouted when he arrive inside the toilet. A transparent beads rolling down his cheek the next second. Chinen feel broken, totally broken down when he knew Yuto love someone else and not him.
“Yuto listen; until the exam ended… never call me or texting me. I don’t wanna lose focus. Can you promise me?” Ryosuke stated. He knows Yuto will keep on bugging him if he didn’t asked for a stop. This entrance exam was so important for his future and don’t want anything to bother him especially from the one named Nakajima Yuto which definitely will give a hard time for him.
“Okay, then how about we make a bet.” Yuto answered with a grin plastered onto his face.
“Bet? Like what?”
“Who being the first one to call or texting each other will lose and as a punishment; he need to obey all the winner’s order for a week. How? Dare to accept it?” Yuto challenge Ryosuke and the latter gladly to accept it. He’s confident that he won’t be the one who want to call or text the taller. He definitely will win and Yuto will obey his order for a week.
“Of course… I’m confident that I’ll win this bet!” Ryosuke exclaimed happily. Thanks to Yuto, all his nervousness back then were gone and now he back to the normal Ryosuke or actually more hyped than usual.
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*Few days later…
Ryosuke stretch his arm up releasing all his muscle spasms due to too much writing. It finally over; now he don’t have to troubling himself thinking about studying. But all his excited drown when he saw Yuto walking out from school with Chinen clinging on his arms. “Yuto…” He chanted his name. Yeah, he almost forgot about Yuto and Chinen. “I think I will-…” Ryosuke stopped talking. He almost forgot another important things. Their bet, he almost lose the bet when he thought of calling Yuto. Ryosuke shake his head. “No, no, no… I won’t lose!” He confirmed. “So Yuto, please lose… I miss you so much!” He said as he keep on looking at Yuto and Chinen.
“Sorry for making you to wait so long Ryosuke!” Haruna apologize as soon as she arrive next to Ryosuke after a long running. “It’s okay, let go!” Ryosuke shrugged and walk ahead of Haruna. His mind still thinking about Yuto. He don’t know how long he can keep on holding himself from wanting to call his fiancée.
“Nee Ryosuke; have you heard about Tohaku University?”
“Yeah I did, it’s one of the Prestige University in Japan. Same like Tokyo University the one I planning to go.” Ryosuke answered. Maybe he should say we, Yuto also wanna get there right. “Why suddenly asking.” He asked and when he realize something he stopped while looking so shock toward Haruna. “Does that boyfriend of yours goes there?” He asked and Haruna nodding her head before she sigh despairingly. “I don’t think I can enters there… they only take smart student not a normal level like me.” She said dejectedly.
“Don’t say like that… you have done your best; now all left is pray.” Ryosuke console her. “Since I’m free and so do you… why don’t we go somewhere before going home? Doing something to relaxing our mind.” Ryosuke invite Haruna but latter just give him a confusing look. “It’s really okay for me to hang out with you in this current time? Well I mean… don’t you wanna be with Yuto instead of me? Besides, I bet Yuto dislike seeing us stick together frequently. He will end up so jealous and mad at me again, like that time.” Haruna guessed and Ryosuke just shake his head lightly.
“You don’t have to worry about that… Yuto have Chinen with him.” Good Ryosuke… you just say something that will just hurt your feeling~
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“I already said it loud and clear right! I don’t wanna see your face anymore!”
Ryutaro turn his body facing the madly Chinen with unsatisfied look on his face. “Why? Why are you so hating me now?” He asked firmly. Ryutaro step closer toward the latter still holding the same expression. “I wanna know why?” He asked again because Chinen refuse to talk.
Chinen try to avoid Ryutaro by turning to the opposite side of where Ryutaro coming to him. That when he realize it’s not just the two of them there in front of his house. “Kei-Keito-kun?!” Chinen stammered as his eyes widen, shocked to see his friend there.
Ryutaro turn his body and cheerfully greeted his once upon a time bestfriend. “Oh Hey Keito!! Long tim-” Bukk! Ryutaro didn’t manage to finish his words, a hard punch flying toward him and landed on his faces. Chinen can only gaped in sorrow when he saw Keito punched Ryutaro right in front of him. Keito seem to be still unsatisfied because he then grab Ryutaro collar, standing the latter and ready to landed another punch of his face.
To avoid any fight happen between them, Chinen decided to interrupt. “Stop Keito!” He shouted. “Let go of him.”
Keito harshly throw Ryutaro away from him and quickly stand in front of Chinen, he acted as Chinen protector from Ryutaro. “Why did you come back Ryu…?” He asked.
“I come back for Chii…”
“Don’t lie… we all know what you have done before; I especially can’t easily forgive you.”
Keito grabbed Chinen hand and drag him away from Ryutaro. Even after three years… he still can’t forgive him for his selfish acted that time. It’s so hard; he try to teach himself to slowly forgive what that ex-best friend of them had done but at the end, Keito know he still can’t.
Keito release his grip only when they are save inside Chinen house. “Chii, why you never told me that he still bugging you?”
“I’m sorry, I just don’t wanna make you worried.” Chinen answered. He feel guilty for keeping such a secret from Keito. “Please don’t tell Yuto about this.” He begged. He don’t want Yuto to know Ryutaro is here. Keito sigh and patted his head. “I just come to check your condition. I don’t know that I will meet with him again today. But I glad you’re okay.”
Keito lean to give Chinen a hug. He know what sorrow Ryutaro Morimoto had left deep inside Chinen Yuri. For someone who know about that secret, he had this duty to comfort Chinen. “I won’t let him bothering you anymore Chii… I’ll help you.” He swear. Inside his head; there’s only one person who he know can make Ryutaro stop bugging Chinen.
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Do you know how jealous Yuto is when he knows Ryosuke having a date with Haruna after school? Yuto can’t barely hold himself from wanting barging into their date and pull Ryosuke away from that girl. “Stupid me!!” He curse himself. “Why did I make that stupid bet?! Now I’m the one who’s suffering badly!” He exclaimed while his fist punch the hard wall of his room.
Yuto had asked one of his father servant to follow Ryosuke activities and report to him immediately each and everything that fiancée of him do. His servant which name is no need to be revealed just give him a report that Yamada Ryosuke are currently having a date with a girl which Yuto figure out are Kawaguchi Haruna. He really want to grab his phone, dialed Ryosuke numbers and call him so that he could release his anger toward him. How dare him having fun with someone else when Yuto are currently suffering because he couldn’t meet with Ryosuke.
“I miss him but I refuse to lose this bet… just a little time Yuto, bear it a little more…” He told himself while trying to hold the burning up jealous inside his heart.
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TBC~
A/N: quite fast update right... oh well; hope you won't feel disappointed X(
something just happen at school, someone make me to become so moody... and since I was on my way finishing this chapter... I think it affected it. *sorry*
and also; for next chapter C.11, I face trouble in finishing it... in otherr words; won't be posted soon?
oh well; enough talking; hope you still enjoy ^^
Author: kuroyukisama_17
Pairing: Yamajima (main), NakaChii (side)
Genre: AU, Bl, Romance, Fluff, Friendship
Rating: PG-13
Summary: In school he is a kind of secluded boy and the other one is a womanizer known as the school prince. Both never have wished to have a connection but a promise made by their late grandfather tying them in an upside down love drama.
Chapter 10 - Please tell me the true
“So today is your last day right.” Yuto asked Ryosuke as he walked down the stairs with him. “Yeah, I already teach you everything I can… you won’t face much trouble in the test later.” Ryosuke answered. He just finish their last class together. Ryosuke requested to stop being Yuto’s tutor since he wanna use this remaining time to self-studying. Being an understandable student, Yuto agree to let Ryosuke go. Well, he still can meet his cute fiancée anywhere, finally they have a better relationship with each other.
“Are you sure you wanna go to Tokyo Uni? It’s kind of hard to enter that university.” Anxiety obviously radiated from his face when Ryosuke asked that question to Yuto. He lie if he said he’s not hoping for him and Yuto to get into the same university. He so hoping for that to happen. And since Yuto is not that smart… he kind of worried that Yuto won’t make it there.
Yuto crave a smile while showing Ryosuke his thumb up. He’s confident he can do it. “Don’t worry… I definitely will go to Tokyo Uni. I got a help from the school smartest student right… I definitely can do it!”
Ryosuke shrugged to cover his relive. “Okay, not like I care about that matter so much.”
“Hey, that’s bad… I really struggle to make sure I pass the test. Can’t you at less cheer me on?” Yuto said as he open the door for Ryosuke who’s currently holding his laugh. He really did struggling hard. He want to be with Ryosuke and willingly to do everything just for the sake of that.
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Chinen walk happily. Inside his pocket, there’s a good luck charm he made special for Yuto. Since he can’t wait for tomorrow to come, he decided to just go to the taller house and give it to him. He put his hope for Yuto and him to pass the test inside the charm. If Yuto wish to enter the same university as Ryosuke than Chinen wish is for him and Yuto to always be together.
Chinen stopped right in front of the gate and ready to push the doorbell when suddenly the gate opened by itself. Chinen creased when he saw Yuto walking out from his house with someone beside him. Yuto who just realize Chinen is currently standing in front of him and Ryosuke, fidgeted. He’s not expecting Chinen to be here since its weekend. Wait, weekend? Damn Yuto totally forgot about this one fact. Chine always come visiting him during weekend. No more turning back… Chinen already saw them.
“Yuto-kun? Why’s he here?” Chinen asked. He knows this person who’s standing beside Yuto. His name is Yamada Ryosuke and he had met him before. “What Keito’s boyfriend doing here?” He asked more while examining Ryosuke up to down. A huge doubting feeling is engulfing his heart.
Ryosuke turn his head away. It’s obvious to him that Chinen still don’t know about him and Yuto. He just stay quietly while waiting Yuto to solve everything with his boyfriend. Ryosuke pray in his heart for Yuto to finally say the true to his boyfriend. That will reduce his guilty feeling toward Chinen for falling in love with Yuto also because him being his boyfriend’s fiancée. Say the true Yuto… or you will hurt him more;
“Yuri let me introduce you to my private tutor, Yamada Ryosuke.” Yuto said, shocking both Ryosuke and Chinen. Ryosuke thought that Yuto will tell the true to Chinen but he was wrong. He just said private tutor, with no addition of being his fiancée. Why Yuto… Ryosuke questioning inside his heart.
Chinen widen his eyes because of that news. “He-he’s your private teacher?!” He exclaimed Shockley. He always thought that Yuto private tutor would be a grown up man or women. He never expected that the great tutor that manage to change Yuto is one of their school mate. The smart student Yamada Ryosuke who’s also Keito’s boyfriend in Chinen point of view.
“Wow… I never knew about this~” Chinen commented and he lean his hand to Ryosuke want the latter to shake hand with him. Ryosuke doubted at first but finally he also lean his hand to handshake with Chinen. “Thanks for willing to teach my boyfriend Yamada-san.” Chinen thanked him. With a hurtful feeling, Ryosuke nodding his head slowly while try to crave a fake smile. “No problem… I need to get going now, see you next time.” Ryosuke bowing his body a little before he walk away from Yuto and Chinen with a sad feeling. He couldn’t stop questioning himself. Why Yuto didn’t wanna tell the true? Did he read that note? Or actually he didn’t?
Ryosuke don’t know how much Yuto wanna tell everything to Chinen. He already tired in hiding everything. He wanna show the world that Ryosuke belongs to him and not Keito’s boyfriend. But there’s a thing that always being the reason for him to not saying that. Yuto gaze sadly toward Ryosuke back when the latter leave his house. He didn’t manage to say at least good bye or see you tomorrow to him. Please forgive me Ryosuke… Yuto can only say that inside his heart while his eyes still looking at Ryosuke back until his fiancée finally out of his view. He hold his fist tightly, feeling so unsatisfied. He need to at least say see you again tomorrow to Ryosuke.
His eyes can’t lie to him. Even though Yuto never said anything, but the way he look at Ryosuke had proved everything. It’s not just a tutor and student relationship that happen between Yuto and Yamada Ryosuke. Chinen can feel that their relationship was actually more than that. “Yuto… how long have you knew him?” Chinen asked.
“Well, not too long actually. I just knew him few months ago.” Yuto answered.
“Is he there person who was with you that time?”
Yuto creased and turn to look at Chinen with a confusing look. “When?” He asked, totally don’t know what time Chinen refer too.
“That time when you go home before me. My eyes doesn’t trick me. I did saw someone else with you that time and I wanna know… was that person him?” Yuto hesitated if he should nodding his head or not. Don’t lie anymore Yuto… He thought and slowly he nodding his head. “Yes, I was with Ryosuke that time. Sorry that I lie to you Yuri…”
Chinen bit his lower lips. Now he knows, his doubtful feeling indeed was true. “Tell me the true Yuto…” He asked slowly. He wanna know everything. “You love him don’t you…?” He added more as he avert his gaze away from Yuto. He don’t wanna see Yuto face when Yuto reveals everything. It will doubling the hurt he’s feeling currently. “Yuto please… you just going to hurt me more if you tell another lies.”
Yuto take a deep breath. He know someday soon… this day will come. The day when he finally will tell Chinen everything that he hides. “I’m sorry Yuri but…. Yes it’s true. I do love Ryosuke.” Chinen can feel his heart shattered when his ears heard that. He no longer own Yuto’s heart. “Why Yuto… why him? Why can’t you still love me?” He asked more and more. Totally can’t accept everything that happen behind his back. Yuto cheat on him… why? Did he does something so awful until it can make Yuto to shifted his feeling toward Ryosuke?
“I’m sorry Yuri but all this time, I never saw you as someone that I love.” Yuto finally said what he wanted to say; yes that the real thing is… Yuto never saw Chinen as his lover. Chinen shot his eyes open and grab Yuto’s arm tightly. “Lie!!! You said that you love me and will always love me!” He shouted.
“Yes Yuri… but the love that I feel toward you is not like how I feel toward Ryosuke. I love you because you’re my precious childhood friend. But that love isn’t enough to be called love between lovers. More like a love of a brother to his younger brother.” Yuto explained, totally shocking Chinen. He feel like being stabbed by daggers when Yuto said like that. Yuto saw him not more than just a childhood friend. Chine shake his head frantically. “No, I can’t accept it! There’s no way I will let you leave me Yuto!!”
“But Yuri I-” Yuto try to convince Chinen but the latter push him away. “I don’t wanna heard anymore Yuto! I don’t wanna accept everything!” He shouted out loud before running away from Yuto. The taller try to run after him but Chinen already unreachable. Chinen can run so fast and even faster than Keito, their school athletes. Yuto decided to not run after Chinen. He’ll let the latter cool down his head first and think back. I really hope he’s okay with everything. Yuto thought, he feel relive that finally he told everything. But worried is still there inside his heart, he’s worried about Chinen whether he really will be okay or not. The news was so shocking for him.
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“Just a few days left right. I couldn’t believe that I have improved so much. All thanks to you Ryosuke.” Haruna said to Ryosuke beside her. They just strolling around the school building to get some fresh air. Ryosuke smile satisfied toward Haruna. “Glad that I could help you.” He said.
“Yamada-kun wait.” Ryosuke and Haruna stopped when suddenly Chinen appear in front of them from nowhere. Ryosuke tilt his head, wondering what could be the matter. This is the first time they talked directly with each other. “Yes, did you need anything?” Ryosuke asked him back. When Ryosuke saw Chinen looking at him while smirking, he thought of that something bad will happen.
“I have something I wanna ask you.”
“Are you in love with someone now?”
Ryosuke creased. Yes, something bad really did happen. Why would a stranger asking me something like that…. Unless… Ryosuke crave a wry smile while busy arranging his words inside his mind. Ryosuke bit his lower lips. If I say yes then he can directly know that person is Yuto.
“Sorry if that question is kind of hard for you to answer. Then I shall change the question. I think I’ll just be straight.” Chinen said then stopped for a few second and then continue back while staring intensely toward Ryosuke. “Yamada Ryosuke… do you love Nakajima Yuto?”
Ryosuke shot his eyes open when he heard that. How he supposed to answer that question? If the one asking it is Keito, he’ll just be honest and answer yes. But it’s Chinen, Nakajima Yuto boyfriend. He can’t just say ‘yes I love your boyfriend’ to him! That will bring trouble to both of them.
“It’s me.”
“Eh?!” Ryosuke quickly avert his eyes toward Haruna while hanging a confusing look onto his face. Chinen turn to look at Haruna. “You?” He asked and she nodding her head. “Yeah me. I and Ryosuke is a couple.” She said and quickly clinging her arm on Ryosuke’s. “So of course he love me and I also love him.” Haruna added. Ryosuke look at her. It’s obvious that Ryosuke know nothing about what Haruna just told Chinen. Since when we were a couple??!
But Chinen seem to totally fall for what Haruna said. He beamed happily. “Souka~ heh… omedetou!!” Chinen exclaimed. “Sorry that I bother you two. Thanks for answering my question Yamada.” Chinen thanked him and skipping away.
“Haruna what nonsense that you just told him!” Ryosuke exclaimed when they are totally free from Chinen. “Couldn’t you see it? I’m helping you Ryosuke.”
“Eh?!” Ryosuke responded still so clueless. Haruna sigh and drag Ryosuke away to somewhere they can talk alone without have to worried someone might heard them. When finally arrive at the prefect spot, Haruna open up her story. “I know about you and Yuto.”
“H-how? I never mention anything.” Ryosuke asked. Indeed, he was so caution all this time each time he talk to Yuto, or saying anything that lead to his relationship with Yuto. So how? “That call that time. I’m the one who firstly answering the call right. That person accidently said my name and his voice did sound so familiar to me.”
“So with all the hint I got, I try to figure out who was that person and finally I found it and… I was quite shock at first actually.” Haruna explained about how she know about Ryosuke and Yuto. She look at Ryosuke and giggles. “I never knew your taste was so high Ryosuke… Yuto is an ikemen in this school!” She said. Obviously she is not mocking Ryosuke, she totally mean it. For someone who’s also alone to have such a high taste… it’s awesome in her eyes!
Ryosuke lowering his head as his cheek goes red. “Don’t say like that… I never plan to fall in love with him. All I knew was, I already in love with him.” Haruna patted his back as she consoled him. “It is okay, no one said it was wrong to fall in love. Even though that person is Yuto, which once upon a time is a womanizer in this school.”
“It always make me curious all this time.”
Ryosuke tilts his head. “About what?”
“Well, in the recent month; Yuto lose that womanizer in him. He rarely seen loitering around with bunch of hot chick. It make me to wonder and now I found my answer.” Haruna said and giggling while eye-seeing Ryosuke.
Ryosuke scratched the back of his head, feeling shy when he know whose Haruna refer too. “Would you promise me to not tell anyone about this?” He asked her. Hoping for Haruna to keep it a secret.
Haruna grinning and showing both of her thumb. “You can count on me~”
“But Ryosuke I’m warning you… better that for a while you avoid meeting with Yuto. Chinen sometimes can be superfluity. Who know what he’ll do in the future. He always wore that super jealous face whenever Yuto hang out with a girl and now you’re having an affair with his boyfriend and that won’t be a good news to him.”
Ryosuke smile. “You don’t have to worry, I did plan to do that. I have exam, something that I should concern more than concerning about love.”
“Glad to hear that.”
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Ryosuke is studying when his phone suddenly ringing. Ryosuke look at the screen and jolted up from his seat due to overly excited. Without wasting any time Ryosuke quickly answering the call. “Moshi-moshi, Hikaru-kun?”
“Hey Ryosuke, sorry for not often calling you nowadays. I got too much hassle here.” Ryosuke heard Hikaru said. From his side, he can totally heard a lot of noise around Hikaru. So he suspected that maybe the taller is at a public place. “It’s okay… I can totally understand your situation there. Its sound so busy there. Where are you now actually?”
Hikaru chuckling can be heard from the other side. “I actually at my family restaurant. Today is its second day after finally opened again.”
“Are you okay? You need to manage the restaurant and in the same time attend school. Don’t you feel tired?”
“Well a little. I got a help from a friend here. Ryosuke if you have time… I really wanna introduce him to you!”
“Heh~ seems like you’re having a lot of fun there… mou~ I really hope that I could join you.” Ryosuke whined. He miss his taller best friend so much and now he got news that that latter is having fun without him… he’s so jealous.
“Then just come. You’re warmly welcomed here.”
Ryosuke smile sourly. “Thanks; but there is a lot of thing I need to complete first here.” A lot, especially about him and Yuto matter but he won’t say that to Hikaru.
“Entrance exam right. Yeah, I understand you so much.” Hikaru stopped. “But don’t work out too much or you will end up collapse.” He added with an even softer voice. Obviously he’s worried with Ryosuke.
“Yeah, I’ll remember that…” Ryosuke answered with a sour feeling inside his heart. With his current situation, he might end up like what Hikaru just told him. But he won’t easily give up. They start everything so they need to say till the end.
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Ryosuke throw an empty gaze toward his ceiling, taking a ten minutes rest from studying. “I wonder if he’s studying now.” Ryosuke let out his thought. He had swear to himself not to think about Yuto until the exam ended but without him realizing it, he already broke it. “Can I really have him?”
His body hopped down from the comfy bed. “Rest time end!” He exclaimed and dash toward his desk back, resuming his studying. “Exam first, love later. Ganbare Ryosuke!!” He shouted out loud. The upcoming exam is so important and he can’t keep on losing focus.
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Ryosuke take a deep breath and release it slowly. Half an hour before the exam is a nerve-wreaking moment for Ryosuke. Ryosuke keep on walking from left to right and from right to left, his heart is beating so fast and Haruna who’s standing not far from Ryosuke sighed heavily. She roll her eyes when once again Ryosuke walk pass her. “Come one Ryosuke… relax~” She said, trying to console the latter. “You never fail before this and you won’t too today. I’m confident with your brain!”
Feel like they are been watched, Haruna turn his head back and giggles. “Ryosuke I wanna go to the toilet first. You just wait here okay.” Haruna said and quickly walk away. “Go, he need you.” She whispered to Yuto when she walked pass the taller. Yuto shot his eyes open when knew Haruna purposely walk away from Ryosuke just to give him a time to be alone with her friend. Yuto move his head from Haruna to Ryosuke who’s still clueless about his present there. Slowly, Yuto start moving his feet nearing his little fiancée.
“Ryosuke…” Yuto call his name.
Ryosuke look at Yuto with a face full of trouble. “Yuto, what’re you doing here?” He asked. Yuto crave a faint smile and walk closer to him until he’s only a few cm away. “I just wanna say good luck.” Yuto crooked his body a little forward and widening his arms enough from his to give a warm hug to Ryosuke. “Good luck, I know you can do it.” He whispered between the hug.
Ryosuke wasn’t shock at all when Yuto lean forward to hug him. Yuto have done that before, hugging him suddenly while saying something so sweet and enough to melt his heart in an instant. He didn’t feel wrong if he reply the hug. Ryosuke put his hand on Yuto’s back, hugging the taller back while also chanted a good luck wish to him. It feel warm, so warm until all his nervousness gone when he feel Yuto’s warm body pressed to his. I would miss this warmness in the next few days.
Chinen hand turn into fist as his eyes locked toward two figure hugging each other in front of him. He clicked his tongue, and walk away. His eyes and chest feel like burning if he keep on watching them. “No, Yuto is mine will always be mine!” He shouted when he arrive inside the toilet. A transparent beads rolling down his cheek the next second. Chinen feel broken, totally broken down when he knew Yuto love someone else and not him.
“Yuto listen; until the exam ended… never call me or texting me. I don’t wanna lose focus. Can you promise me?” Ryosuke stated. He knows Yuto will keep on bugging him if he didn’t asked for a stop. This entrance exam was so important for his future and don’t want anything to bother him especially from the one named Nakajima Yuto which definitely will give a hard time for him.
“Okay, then how about we make a bet.” Yuto answered with a grin plastered onto his face.
“Bet? Like what?”
“Who being the first one to call or texting each other will lose and as a punishment; he need to obey all the winner’s order for a week. How? Dare to accept it?” Yuto challenge Ryosuke and the latter gladly to accept it. He’s confident that he won’t be the one who want to call or text the taller. He definitely will win and Yuto will obey his order for a week.
“Of course… I’m confident that I’ll win this bet!” Ryosuke exclaimed happily. Thanks to Yuto, all his nervousness back then were gone and now he back to the normal Ryosuke or actually more hyped than usual.
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*Few days later…
Ryosuke stretch his arm up releasing all his muscle spasms due to too much writing. It finally over; now he don’t have to troubling himself thinking about studying. But all his excited drown when he saw Yuto walking out from school with Chinen clinging on his arms. “Yuto…” He chanted his name. Yeah, he almost forgot about Yuto and Chinen. “I think I will-…” Ryosuke stopped talking. He almost forgot another important things. Their bet, he almost lose the bet when he thought of calling Yuto. Ryosuke shake his head. “No, no, no… I won’t lose!” He confirmed. “So Yuto, please lose… I miss you so much!” He said as he keep on looking at Yuto and Chinen.
“Sorry for making you to wait so long Ryosuke!” Haruna apologize as soon as she arrive next to Ryosuke after a long running. “It’s okay, let go!” Ryosuke shrugged and walk ahead of Haruna. His mind still thinking about Yuto. He don’t know how long he can keep on holding himself from wanting to call his fiancée.
“Nee Ryosuke; have you heard about Tohaku University?”
“Yeah I did, it’s one of the Prestige University in Japan. Same like Tokyo University the one I planning to go.” Ryosuke answered. Maybe he should say we, Yuto also wanna get there right. “Why suddenly asking.” He asked and when he realize something he stopped while looking so shock toward Haruna. “Does that boyfriend of yours goes there?” He asked and Haruna nodding her head before she sigh despairingly. “I don’t think I can enters there… they only take smart student not a normal level like me.” She said dejectedly.
“Don’t say like that… you have done your best; now all left is pray.” Ryosuke console her. “Since I’m free and so do you… why don’t we go somewhere before going home? Doing something to relaxing our mind.” Ryosuke invite Haruna but latter just give him a confusing look. “It’s really okay for me to hang out with you in this current time? Well I mean… don’t you wanna be with Yuto instead of me? Besides, I bet Yuto dislike seeing us stick together frequently. He will end up so jealous and mad at me again, like that time.” Haruna guessed and Ryosuke just shake his head lightly.
“You don’t have to worry about that… Yuto have Chinen with him.” Good Ryosuke… you just say something that will just hurt your feeling~
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“I already said it loud and clear right! I don’t wanna see your face anymore!”
Ryutaro turn his body facing the madly Chinen with unsatisfied look on his face. “Why? Why are you so hating me now?” He asked firmly. Ryutaro step closer toward the latter still holding the same expression. “I wanna know why?” He asked again because Chinen refuse to talk.
Chinen try to avoid Ryutaro by turning to the opposite side of where Ryutaro coming to him. That when he realize it’s not just the two of them there in front of his house. “Kei-Keito-kun?!” Chinen stammered as his eyes widen, shocked to see his friend there.
Ryutaro turn his body and cheerfully greeted his once upon a time bestfriend. “Oh Hey Keito!! Long tim-” Bukk! Ryutaro didn’t manage to finish his words, a hard punch flying toward him and landed on his faces. Chinen can only gaped in sorrow when he saw Keito punched Ryutaro right in front of him. Keito seem to be still unsatisfied because he then grab Ryutaro collar, standing the latter and ready to landed another punch of his face.
To avoid any fight happen between them, Chinen decided to interrupt. “Stop Keito!” He shouted. “Let go of him.”
Keito harshly throw Ryutaro away from him and quickly stand in front of Chinen, he acted as Chinen protector from Ryutaro. “Why did you come back Ryu…?” He asked.
“I come back for Chii…”
“Don’t lie… we all know what you have done before; I especially can’t easily forgive you.”
Keito grabbed Chinen hand and drag him away from Ryutaro. Even after three years… he still can’t forgive him for his selfish acted that time. It’s so hard; he try to teach himself to slowly forgive what that ex-best friend of them had done but at the end, Keito know he still can’t.
Keito release his grip only when they are save inside Chinen house. “Chii, why you never told me that he still bugging you?”
“I’m sorry, I just don’t wanna make you worried.” Chinen answered. He feel guilty for keeping such a secret from Keito. “Please don’t tell Yuto about this.” He begged. He don’t want Yuto to know Ryutaro is here. Keito sigh and patted his head. “I just come to check your condition. I don’t know that I will meet with him again today. But I glad you’re okay.”
Keito lean to give Chinen a hug. He know what sorrow Ryutaro Morimoto had left deep inside Chinen Yuri. For someone who know about that secret, he had this duty to comfort Chinen. “I won’t let him bothering you anymore Chii… I’ll help you.” He swear. Inside his head; there’s only one person who he know can make Ryutaro stop bugging Chinen.
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Do you know how jealous Yuto is when he knows Ryosuke having a date with Haruna after school? Yuto can’t barely hold himself from wanting barging into their date and pull Ryosuke away from that girl. “Stupid me!!” He curse himself. “Why did I make that stupid bet?! Now I’m the one who’s suffering badly!” He exclaimed while his fist punch the hard wall of his room.
Yuto had asked one of his father servant to follow Ryosuke activities and report to him immediately each and everything that fiancée of him do. His servant which name is no need to be revealed just give him a report that Yamada Ryosuke are currently having a date with a girl which Yuto figure out are Kawaguchi Haruna. He really want to grab his phone, dialed Ryosuke numbers and call him so that he could release his anger toward him. How dare him having fun with someone else when Yuto are currently suffering because he couldn’t meet with Ryosuke.
“I miss him but I refuse to lose this bet… just a little time Yuto, bear it a little more…” He told himself while trying to hold the burning up jealous inside his heart.
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TBC~
A/N: quite fast update right... oh well; hope you won't feel disappointed X(
something just happen at school, someone make me to become so moody... and since I was on my way finishing this chapter... I think it affected it. *sorry*
and also; for next chapter C.11, I face trouble in finishing it... in otherr words; won't be posted soon?
oh well; enough talking; hope you still enjoy ^^