Restart
Title: Restart
Author: kuroyukisama_17
Pairing: Nakajima x Yamada
Genre: AU, BL, romance, slight-angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: All Yuto need is to restart again his relationship with Ryosuke.
A/N: Ignore any typoo
One-shot
Who knows that after a long time, Yuto finally can come back to Japan? Japan; his own country, the country where he was born and raised to be an independent guy like what he is now, also the country where he had his first love and broke up.
Yuto stop for awhile at the convenience store to buy some juice and food. He is planning to stay at his former house first before he goes back to his parent house. And since that house had been left behind for about 2 and half years, there will be nothing for him to eat there. SO he need to buy some food.
Yuto stand in front of his former house. Although that this house are empty now but it still looks beautiful in Yuto’s eyes. “Though that you are no longer here with me, and I had leaved this place so long… I can’t deny myself that I actually still love you.” Yuto said as he open the gate and make the first step inside the house area after almost three years since that thing happen between him and Ryosuke.
Flashback
Yuto take a deep breath before he slowly pulls the doorknob. At his other hand, there is Ryosuke favorite cake, Yuto bought it purposely for Ryosuke.
Yesterday Ryosuke had just said to him that he wants to break up with him. Even though that Yuto had asked what’s wrong, but Ryosuke never tell him anything and just saying that he just want to break up. After that, Ryosuke was not coming home until now. Where he was last night, Yuto doesn’t have a single idea about that. Yuto love Ryosuke and he still don’t give up. He knows Ryosuke is here at their home now and he will again ask what is wrong with him until it make Ryosuke asked to break up with him.
But much of his surprise, when Yuto get in, he saw Ryosuke was caring his big luggage with him. “Ryo-Chan, where are you going?” Yuto asked him.
Ryosuke who saw Yuto standing in front of him widen his eyes. “Yu-Yuto-kun, I thought that you are going out.”
“I’m but when I know that you are coming back this morning, I can’t help myself from wanting to go home quickly and meet you. You are not coming home since last night so I was kind of missing you. Looks, I also bought your favorite cake.” Yuto said cheerfully while showing Ryosuke the cake at his hand.
Ryosuke bite his lips, he never thought that he will meet with Yuto this morning when he decided to take all his things out from their house. “Actually Yuto-kun, I will move out from this house.” Ryosuke said that without even looking at Yuto face. He knows that this will hurt his former boyfriend heart but what else he can do now.
“Why?”
“Didn’t I say to you yesterday that I want to break up with you? So I’m moving out today.”
Ryosuke heard no answer from Yuto. He clearly knows that he is breaking Yuto heart now. But he needs to move out or else it will be even harder for him to forget Yuto and start a new life with the person he is currently in love now.
“I’m sorry Yuto.” Ryosuke walk pass Yuto who is still standing still unmoved.
Yuto can feel his soul is leaving his body. How are you feeling when somebody who you can't live without him was going to leave you? It is painful like hell. And that is how Yuto is feeling right now. But being the always calm Yuto, Yuto still asked for the reason from Ryosuke.
“If you really want to leave, at least please tell me the reason.”
“Is there’s something wrong with me? Did I have made you mad? Had I hurt you? Tell me Ryosuke; please tell me why you wanted to leave me!” Yuto exclaimed. While looking at Ryosuke who is about to step outside from the house.
“No, nothing is wrong about you Yuto. You are a very nice guy, you treat me nicely, you never hurt my feeling, I never mad at you… the reason is actually me. I can no longer love you Yuto. I can’t force myself to love you anymore…” Ryosuke hang his head down. Though that he doesn’t love Yuto anymore, but hurting someone as good as Yuto’s feeling unconsciously hurting his feeling also. “I had found someone else and that is why I’m leaving this house. So that I can forget everything and start a new life.”
“Good bye Yuto, thanks for everything you have give to me.” Ryosuke said as he walks out from their house.
After that, Yuto’s life have became gloomy every day. He never sees Ryosuke ever again after that. But despite what had happen, Yuto never give up and still wait for Ryosuke every day. In his heart he is hoping that someday, the door will be opened and Ryosuke will be standing behind it.
But all his hope crushed when one day he saw Ryosuke with a girl walking hand in hand in a park near the place where he do part-time job. That time, he realize… Ryosuke is no will longer come back to him. That cute girl must be his new girlfriend and they look so happy and lovey dovey.
Unable to accept the fact, Yuto decided to also leave the house. But not just the house he will leave, he decided to travel around the world and working as a volunteer to help other people who's need help. In the same time, find some peace to mend his broken heart.
And now after a long time traveling around the world, Yuto finally came back to Japan with a new spirit. Everything had change in him, but only one thing will never change. He still love Ryosuke.
End of flashback
“I wonder if I can find someone to love again.” Yuto sigh put the food and juice he just bought on the table.
Then he realizes something missing. “Hmmm… why do I feel like I have forgotten something just now?” Yuto try to think back while holding his chin.
“Ah that’s it!” Yuto exclaimed. “I forgot to bring my luggage in. It seems like it will be raining in no time, so I should quickly bring it in.” Yuto quickly dash out from the kitchen to go pick up his luggage.
When he opens the door to pick his luggage, he suddenly found someone who he never forgets it existent in his previous life. Yuto was so shock and stiffed, almost three years not seeing each other but Yuto can still recognize his beautiful face. Yamada Ryosuke, his former boyfriend is now standing in front of his house.
“H-hey, how are you?” Yuto ask him.
Ryosuke, who is startle when seeing Yuto, couldn’t answer that question. He was doing his usual routine when he saw the gate opened and a luggage in front of the door. He sense something happen but he don’t know that he will again, meet with Yuto today after he had left him long time ago.
“I guess you are okay.” Yuto said that when he saw no respond from Ryosuke.
Yuto ignore him and lift his luggage from the door and bring it inside before coming out again. “So, what bring you here?” Yuto asked coldly.
“No-nothing I just happened to be passing by this house. Then I saw the gate opened and I also saw a luggage here… so I thought that maybe there is someone inside the house.”
“Okay…"
"umm... so how is your life with that girl?” Yuto ask again.
“I- I had broken up with her a year ago. We are not suitable to be together.” Ryosuke hang his head down. It surely is embarrassing to say something like that toward Yuto because once upon a time, he had left Yuto for that girl but not long after he knows that Yuto is no longer in Japan, his relationship with that girl when is a mess and they end up separated.
One thing that Yuto can’t stand is that watching Ryosuke is his sad state. Although that times had flown between them, Ryosuke is still Ryosuke and being his former boyfriend, he knows how to cheer him up again.
Yuto stretch his arm toward Ryosuke and lean forward to hug him. The sudden hug from Yuto had startle Ryosuke and unconsciously make his to cry. He doesn’t know why, but Yuto hug never fail to calm him.
“It’s okay Ryosuke, you can cry as much as you can… I will be here with you until you can calm down.” Yuto whisper as his hand pat Ryosuke’s back.
“I’m sorry Yuto; I was so stupid that time because leaving you only to be with that girl. You know, after you left Japan, I found out that actually that girl were also going out with other guy when I was dating her. I felt so hurt and broken because she was just playing round with me.” Ryosuke spoke while he cries in Yuto embrace.
“It is okay, Ryosuke… let it out and you will feel better.” Yuto try to comforting him.
“After that, I try to seek for you. I had tried to call you but none of that work. I know that this because I had left you. I had hurt you so much. When you gone, I start to realize that actually I still love you. The feeling I had for that girl make me thought that I no longer love you. I was so stupid that time Yuto, please… please forgive me!”
Yuto can’t let out his answer for that. He is actually quite happy because he finally able to hold Ryosuke again. But he is afraid, he accepts Ryosuke back, like nothing had happen before… he is afraid that the same thing will happen and when that happens… he might not be able to live anymore and maybe he will kill his self.
Yuto broke his hug and face Ryosuke. “Ryosuke, I just want you to know that all this time I never stop loving you. not even a second in my life I stop thinking about you.”
“If you are willingly to accept me again in your life… then I think I can be with you again.”
Yuto crave a faint smile to Ryosuke. “How about you come in first; it is about to rain outside and I don’t want you to catch cold because of this rain. I have some food and juice inside, maybe we can eat and drink it together.”
“Thanks Yuto… I will never leave you again and repeat the same mistake again.” Ryosuke said as Yuto pull his body inside the house to the kitchen where he put the juice and food he just bought.
“Let restart everything between us okay…”
“umm… let restart everything.”
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Haaa~ finally after a very long time not posting anything here, I finally able to do so. I have finish this story for about almost a month already yet I don't have time to post it. I hope you like it though that I know that I is not a very good story. ( haha )
anyway, if you realize it, I alrady delect my most recently story which is "second chance" due to a very weird plot, well that happen because that time I was currently fighting with my writer block problem. (It comes so often nowadays)
well, last word~ enjoy :)
Author: kuroyukisama_17
Pairing: Nakajima x Yamada
Genre: AU, BL, romance, slight-angst
Rating: PG-13
Summary: All Yuto need is to restart again his relationship with Ryosuke.
A/N: Ignore any typoo
One-shot
Who knows that after a long time, Yuto finally can come back to Japan? Japan; his own country, the country where he was born and raised to be an independent guy like what he is now, also the country where he had his first love and broke up.
Yuto stop for awhile at the convenience store to buy some juice and food. He is planning to stay at his former house first before he goes back to his parent house. And since that house had been left behind for about 2 and half years, there will be nothing for him to eat there. SO he need to buy some food.
Yuto stand in front of his former house. Although that this house are empty now but it still looks beautiful in Yuto’s eyes. “Though that you are no longer here with me, and I had leaved this place so long… I can’t deny myself that I actually still love you.” Yuto said as he open the gate and make the first step inside the house area after almost three years since that thing happen between him and Ryosuke.
Flashback
Yuto take a deep breath before he slowly pulls the doorknob. At his other hand, there is Ryosuke favorite cake, Yuto bought it purposely for Ryosuke.
Yesterday Ryosuke had just said to him that he wants to break up with him. Even though that Yuto had asked what’s wrong, but Ryosuke never tell him anything and just saying that he just want to break up. After that, Ryosuke was not coming home until now. Where he was last night, Yuto doesn’t have a single idea about that. Yuto love Ryosuke and he still don’t give up. He knows Ryosuke is here at their home now and he will again ask what is wrong with him until it make Ryosuke asked to break up with him.
But much of his surprise, when Yuto get in, he saw Ryosuke was caring his big luggage with him. “Ryo-Chan, where are you going?” Yuto asked him.
Ryosuke who saw Yuto standing in front of him widen his eyes. “Yu-Yuto-kun, I thought that you are going out.”
“I’m but when I know that you are coming back this morning, I can’t help myself from wanting to go home quickly and meet you. You are not coming home since last night so I was kind of missing you. Looks, I also bought your favorite cake.” Yuto said cheerfully while showing Ryosuke the cake at his hand.
Ryosuke bite his lips, he never thought that he will meet with Yuto this morning when he decided to take all his things out from their house. “Actually Yuto-kun, I will move out from this house.” Ryosuke said that without even looking at Yuto face. He knows that this will hurt his former boyfriend heart but what else he can do now.
“Why?”
“Didn’t I say to you yesterday that I want to break up with you? So I’m moving out today.”
Ryosuke heard no answer from Yuto. He clearly knows that he is breaking Yuto heart now. But he needs to move out or else it will be even harder for him to forget Yuto and start a new life with the person he is currently in love now.
“I’m sorry Yuto.” Ryosuke walk pass Yuto who is still standing still unmoved.
Yuto can feel his soul is leaving his body. How are you feeling when somebody who you can't live without him was going to leave you? It is painful like hell. And that is how Yuto is feeling right now. But being the always calm Yuto, Yuto still asked for the reason from Ryosuke.
“If you really want to leave, at least please tell me the reason.”
“Is there’s something wrong with me? Did I have made you mad? Had I hurt you? Tell me Ryosuke; please tell me why you wanted to leave me!” Yuto exclaimed. While looking at Ryosuke who is about to step outside from the house.
“No, nothing is wrong about you Yuto. You are a very nice guy, you treat me nicely, you never hurt my feeling, I never mad at you… the reason is actually me. I can no longer love you Yuto. I can’t force myself to love you anymore…” Ryosuke hang his head down. Though that he doesn’t love Yuto anymore, but hurting someone as good as Yuto’s feeling unconsciously hurting his feeling also. “I had found someone else and that is why I’m leaving this house. So that I can forget everything and start a new life.”
“Good bye Yuto, thanks for everything you have give to me.” Ryosuke said as he walks out from their house.
After that, Yuto’s life have became gloomy every day. He never sees Ryosuke ever again after that. But despite what had happen, Yuto never give up and still wait for Ryosuke every day. In his heart he is hoping that someday, the door will be opened and Ryosuke will be standing behind it.
But all his hope crushed when one day he saw Ryosuke with a girl walking hand in hand in a park near the place where he do part-time job. That time, he realize… Ryosuke is no will longer come back to him. That cute girl must be his new girlfriend and they look so happy and lovey dovey.
Unable to accept the fact, Yuto decided to also leave the house. But not just the house he will leave, he decided to travel around the world and working as a volunteer to help other people who's need help. In the same time, find some peace to mend his broken heart.
And now after a long time traveling around the world, Yuto finally came back to Japan with a new spirit. Everything had change in him, but only one thing will never change. He still love Ryosuke.
End of flashback
“I wonder if I can find someone to love again.” Yuto sigh put the food and juice he just bought on the table.
Then he realizes something missing. “Hmmm… why do I feel like I have forgotten something just now?” Yuto try to think back while holding his chin.
“Ah that’s it!” Yuto exclaimed. “I forgot to bring my luggage in. It seems like it will be raining in no time, so I should quickly bring it in.” Yuto quickly dash out from the kitchen to go pick up his luggage.
When he opens the door to pick his luggage, he suddenly found someone who he never forgets it existent in his previous life. Yuto was so shock and stiffed, almost three years not seeing each other but Yuto can still recognize his beautiful face. Yamada Ryosuke, his former boyfriend is now standing in front of his house.
“H-hey, how are you?” Yuto ask him.
Ryosuke, who is startle when seeing Yuto, couldn’t answer that question. He was doing his usual routine when he saw the gate opened and a luggage in front of the door. He sense something happen but he don’t know that he will again, meet with Yuto today after he had left him long time ago.
“I guess you are okay.” Yuto said that when he saw no respond from Ryosuke.
Yuto ignore him and lift his luggage from the door and bring it inside before coming out again. “So, what bring you here?” Yuto asked coldly.
“No-nothing I just happened to be passing by this house. Then I saw the gate opened and I also saw a luggage here… so I thought that maybe there is someone inside the house.”
“Okay…"
"umm... so how is your life with that girl?” Yuto ask again.
“I- I had broken up with her a year ago. We are not suitable to be together.” Ryosuke hang his head down. It surely is embarrassing to say something like that toward Yuto because once upon a time, he had left Yuto for that girl but not long after he knows that Yuto is no longer in Japan, his relationship with that girl when is a mess and they end up separated.
One thing that Yuto can’t stand is that watching Ryosuke is his sad state. Although that times had flown between them, Ryosuke is still Ryosuke and being his former boyfriend, he knows how to cheer him up again.
Yuto stretch his arm toward Ryosuke and lean forward to hug him. The sudden hug from Yuto had startle Ryosuke and unconsciously make his to cry. He doesn’t know why, but Yuto hug never fail to calm him.
“It’s okay Ryosuke, you can cry as much as you can… I will be here with you until you can calm down.” Yuto whisper as his hand pat Ryosuke’s back.
“I’m sorry Yuto; I was so stupid that time because leaving you only to be with that girl. You know, after you left Japan, I found out that actually that girl were also going out with other guy when I was dating her. I felt so hurt and broken because she was just playing round with me.” Ryosuke spoke while he cries in Yuto embrace.
“It is okay, Ryosuke… let it out and you will feel better.” Yuto try to comforting him.
“After that, I try to seek for you. I had tried to call you but none of that work. I know that this because I had left you. I had hurt you so much. When you gone, I start to realize that actually I still love you. The feeling I had for that girl make me thought that I no longer love you. I was so stupid that time Yuto, please… please forgive me!”
Yuto can’t let out his answer for that. He is actually quite happy because he finally able to hold Ryosuke again. But he is afraid, he accepts Ryosuke back, like nothing had happen before… he is afraid that the same thing will happen and when that happens… he might not be able to live anymore and maybe he will kill his self.
Yuto broke his hug and face Ryosuke. “Ryosuke, I just want you to know that all this time I never stop loving you. not even a second in my life I stop thinking about you.”
“If you are willingly to accept me again in your life… then I think I can be with you again.”
Yuto crave a faint smile to Ryosuke. “How about you come in first; it is about to rain outside and I don’t want you to catch cold because of this rain. I have some food and juice inside, maybe we can eat and drink it together.”
“Thanks Yuto… I will never leave you again and repeat the same mistake again.” Ryosuke said as Yuto pull his body inside the house to the kitchen where he put the juice and food he just bought.
“Let restart everything between us okay…”
“umm… let restart everything.”
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Haaa~ finally after a very long time not posting anything here, I finally able to do so. I have finish this story for about almost a month already yet I don't have time to post it. I hope you like it though that I know that I is not a very good story. ( haha )
anyway, if you realize it, I alrady delect my most recently story which is "second chance" due to a very weird plot, well that happen because that time I was currently fighting with my writer block problem. (It comes so often nowadays)
well, last word~ enjoy :)