The meaning inherent in the statement of the end of this dream reminds me of the same message behind seeing a totem spider (or a lot of spiders in you dreams), 'be careful the web you weave'. While I don't know exactly what you've been weaving and I check LJ very rarely, nor am I an active part in your life atm, I also have no clear idea otherwise of what your dream could mean. It's rather straight forward and more than a little terrifying, but if I were to strike a guess, it would indeed be that.
A slightly more cynical part of me is like 'Welcome to the Madelyn Prior Club' as I have entirely been there before, specifically with that kind of nightmare.
I still reside in much the same place you left me, darling, except that now I know the prison for what it is. I have started to see the bars behind the comforts and as the saying goes: once you see, you cannot unsee.
Things are incredibly hard for me right now, but the truth is, they were only easier before because I refused to look at reality. I pretended everything was fine, placeboed the hell out of my brain, and kept moving forward thinking that maybe one day it would stop being hard and I could be happy. The only thing I was working toward from that angle was a long time of loneliness and responsibility which I do not enjoy. Now I have to accept this direction isn't working for me and pick a new one.
That's where I am now. Figuring out where I'm going to get the hell out of here.
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A slightly more cynical part of me is like 'Welcome to the Madelyn Prior Club' as I have entirely been there before, specifically with that kind of nightmare.
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That's where I am now. Figuring out where I'm going to get the hell out of here.
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