after 8 1/2 hours of making fun of everything and adrianne inhaling bleach. i have blonde hair.

i wore my chanel sunglasses until 8pm.

today i bought my first pair of chanel sunglasses

sad but true that honestly the only thing i live for is making myself feel better with luxury material possessions.

my hands lately have not been my own. afraid all the time of losing control and doing whatever to who ever. could go out but cant control it. i took my car for it's first oil change since it has been my baby. all of my old friends conferencing, one place and all ten thousand of them all together, i would love to be there. i will instead stay home, ( Read more... )

i walked through markets this morning in duplicate, i just though i would record this. parked the white car and turned the engine off, tried not to hit the car next to me who had parked over the lines before the snow had melted. i walked with no hood or hat but a scarf around my lips and neck. so bundled i walk slowly behind an overweight gentleman ( Read more... )

snow impressions become so cold when you're waist high in it, digging and pleading with the snow to leave your car alone, release it. i haven't driven to work alone in 2 days but tommorow i guess i will. my ipod isn't fully charged but i guess i will charge it. hard tasks sometimes, driving home from work alone is one of them on winter nights. ( Read more... )

i am a researcher. the time is around eight am, nothing special. the day is the day that we are supposed to get a foot of snow and winds to knock over small ladies. instead of going anywhere, doing anything. my job remains to stay in williamsville and watch video games, watch, not play. kayta. a dream instead, i dreamt all the boys i knew in high ( Read more... )

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i'm sure of it. i fell so often this week, crashed my car so often. i am a bleeding mess. my leg with it's bruises and elbow with its sprain and everyone on top of it all is going through the same. this week will be a nice one to relax, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday. all off, frolick, play, alone. yoga by myself at 9am with elmwood and ( Read more... )