"i need your grace
to remind me
to find my own"

I feel taken care of.

And it's been a while since i've felt that.  so it's nice.

obviously, coming home took some of the sheen off, but at least i know burlington isn't entirely horrible to be in right now

"People who have given us their complete confidence believe that they have a right to ours. The inference is false, a gift confers no rights."

Nietzsche

(http://www.losanjealous.com/nfc/)

"you will make all kinds of mistakes ( Read more... )

BEVERLY BECKHAM from boston.com:

Compassion is our safety net

October 8, 2006

Just back from Bermuda. A little bit of paradise. No newspapers for five days. No TV. Just the world as I saw it.

And I saw it in all its beauty: white-roofed pastel houses, pink/white sand, blue/green water, coves, beaches everywhere, flowers, birds, sun. ``Have a ( Read more... )

Came home tonight to intoxicated twins.  Don't know why it bothered me so much.  Well, maybe

Paul was over earlier,  apparently confiding to Dad about problems at work.  Why does dad get to have friends??  Why am i all alone here?

Mike doesn't even listen.   Honestly.  Until now i've just said "we have trouble communicating" or "we talk past each other," but now i'm ready to say it: he doesn't listen.  He just talks, and while i'm talking ( Read more... )

'i don't know what to do, i'm going crazy.

I don't want to stay here, i don't want to do A THING with my dad.  I don't really want to work more, don't want to go to emt class.  Don't want to see people.  But i don't want to be here.

ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh

it's weird that if you're left by someone it means that she went away, but if you're left by yourself  it means that everyone except you went away.

I'm sad, and i see everyone else is sad, and then I'm sad for them too