I can't believe it's almost a new year! These last few months have gone by so fast! Things have been going really good for me. I just celebrated 5 months clean and sober on the 28th! That's just amazing to me, I never would have dreamed i'd make it that long, or come as far as I have ( Read more... )

My parents were true to their word and i'm enjoying my spankin' new laptop. It sucks Clint broke my old one though, still kinda bitter about that. I'm getting ready for work now. My job's going okay, typical minimum-wage bullshit ( Read more... )

Present Day ( Read more... )

My life is finally starting to improve. I've been dealing with so much shit lately, and just trying to figure things out.

I decided to get rid of the negative people in my life, so that's a start AND i'm continuing to stay clean from certain substances. I've also been reconnecting with my family lately.

After working 9 hour shifts two days in a row (which wouldn't be bad under other circumstances, say if I was still working at Amazon), it was nice to get to sleep in late and work a short shift. I need new shoes badly, my heels kill me at the...well, actually the very beginning of work. I just loathe working a minimum wage job for an evil ( Read more... )

So, I had hoped that I would be able to ease back into the Feri work, and also intended to do some intense healing of my complexes ( Read more... )

My life beckons and pulls me forward, asking me in tantalizing whispers what I really want to do and go and experience and be. Not what anyone else wants, what I want ( Read more... )

I was reading some of my old memories, and I found one that triggered me and got me to thinking. The post talks about the idea that most people who find their way or are drawn to spiritual practice, including meditating and sitting with your shit, are doing so because "they're more screwed up than other people ( Read more... )

I feel like i've just woken up from a long enchanted sleep. I have to go to work at 8 in the AM but i'm scared that if I fall asleep when I wake up i'll still be sleeping the sleep of illusionment and complacency. I finally feel fully alive and like all my excess layers have been stripped from me. I feel like *me* again, the real me. I feel like ( Read more... )

So, after talking to Mindy she helped me realize that maybe planning a starvation diet isn't the best answer. She's also frowning on my repeat visits to pro-eating disorder blogs. She says she'll work out with me and help me come up with a GOOD diet plan ( Read more... )