Halo, by mondler_4ever
Title: Halo
Rating: pg-13
Author: mondler_4ever
Summary: Adam is thankful for Kris.
Warnings: Umm...this is my first Kradam so be gentle. :)
Disclaimers: I don't own Adam Lambert or Kris Allen. Also, I don't own the song "Halo" by Beyonce.
Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
Adam awoke from the blinding sunlight through his hotel suite’s window. It was a week before the American Idol finale and the rocker was as calm as he could be. Winning or losing didn’t matter at this point to him. He was just happy to be sharing the experience with the man he had grown to love over the course of the competition.
Adam knew that Kris was something special from the moment that he met him. His southern boy charm, his humble attitude and his boyishly good looks made Adam attracted to the young man. It had been a long time since he met someone who could make him feel the way Kris did.
His last serious relationship had ended in pure disaster and Kris just came into his life and made everything ok again.
And for that he was grateful.
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It was very easy for Adam to talk with Kris. He revealed some of his deepest secrets and fears to the man. Even thought Adam had a serious relationship before, he never felt as comfortable as he did with Kris.
To Kris, Adam could do nothing wrong and that alone made Adam love him more. Kris didn’t even bat an eye when Adam told him how he used to be back when he was younger. He would hook up with random men every other night and get way too drunk to even remember most of their names. He felt disgusted with himself for being like that and even more disgusted because he was now with a wonderful man who would never act like such a whore. But all of that didn’t matter to Kris. He would kiss him softly on the lips and say “That was then and this is now. I still love you all the same.”
It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breaking
It’s the risk that I’m taking
I ain’t never gonna shut you out
Kris had a wife. Adam had sworn to himself that he would never get involved with a married man or a supposed straight man for that matter. But Kris caused him to break all of those rules and he apparently caused Kris to break all of the rules that came with marriage.
There was no denying the way that their lips touched in a kiss or how their bodies molded together after making love that they didn’t belong. They were indeed made for each other.
It was such a beautiful thing of how Adam was willing to risk everything for a guy he had only known for a few months. It was even more beautiful how Kris was willing to do the exact same thing.
Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace
Adam was a beast by nature and it sometimes showed, particularly when Danny was still in the competition. The two didn’t get along since the beginning and they mainly agreed to disagree. But Danny would just pluck that one nerve and have Adam wanting to pounce on him and beat the smug, arrogant look off his face. But before he could take action, Kris would put a reassuring hand on his shoulder to silently tell him that it wasn’t worth it.
“I love you so damn much, you know?” Adam would say once they were alone. Kris would chuckle deeply and hug him tightly.
“I know and same here.”
You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away
Kris didn’t have a lot of confidence in himself, every week he would dwell on being eliminated, but Adam beat those thoughts out of him.
“Kris, baby, you are super talented. You’re going to go all the way in this competition and hopefully I’ll be there with you. You just go out there and prove to everyone that you’re it and that you deserve to move on.”
Kris grinned. “Ok, but you go out there and kill it too. I don’t know if I can make it if you’re not here with me.”
Adam smirked and kissed him quickly on the lips. “I always do, baby.”
That night Kris sung his heart out and the smile he had on his face afterwards said it all for Adam.
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want
Think I’m addicted to your light
Adam was just about through. Every time he turned around someone was asking about his sexuality. Did it really matter? He had a good voice and a nice personality, so did it matter that he preferred men over women. To make the situation worse, a bunch of pictures had been leaked with him in compromising positions. He wasn’t embarrassed by his chosen lifestyle; it just irked him that people cared more about personal lives than the music.
“Adam, you can’t let all of the shit those people say get to you.” Kris said one day when all of the insane gossip was really getting to him. “I don’t even understand why you’re letting it bother you. You’re the last person to really give a damn of what someone says.”
Adam sighed, “Kris, it’s just…I don’t want you hearing all of that shit that’s being said. I’m afraid that you’ll hear something or see something and then regret being with me. I’d die if that happened.”
Kris walked over to the older man and wrapped his arms around him and Adam melted into his embrace “That will never happen, ok?” He paused. “And just wait until we decide to come out, we’ll be in the same boat. It doesn’t really matter.”
One of Adam’s eyebrows quirked up. “You want to come out with me?”
Kris grinned sheepishly. “Well yeah…I know I have a lot of stuff to talk to Katy about, but I love you and I still want to be with you after everything is over. Don’t you still want to be with me?”
Adam laughed. “Of course, I do!” Adam threw him on one of the beds in the room, which left them both giggling insanely. Adam looked down on his boyfriend, straddling either side of his waist.
“I really love you, Kris.” Adam said softly, stroking his face with such care.
Kris moaned and bucked his hips against Adam’s. “I love you too, baby.” Adam kissed him deeply and broke away. “Now…ravish me silly before I take it back.”
Adam chuckled. “As you wish, love.”
I swore I’d never fall again
But this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget
To pull me back to the ground again
Adam smiled to himself as he rolled up to look at the man lying next to him. They had shared a lot over the past months and it had made them fall so much in love with each other.
“Kris, baby, wake up.” Adam whispered to his boyfriend. He looked so peaceful and it pained him to wake him up, but he had no choice. They had a busy day ahead of them.
“Kris, come on honey we have lots to do today.” Adam tried again, but Kris was still didn’t budge. Adam giggled and did the only other thing he could think of to wake the man up.
He leaned over and brushed his lips over the soft pink ones before capturing them fully into a kiss. Kris immediately awoke and wrapped his arms around Adam’s neck to get more. He entangled a leg around the taller man and grinded into him and it induced a soft moan from Adam. They continued to kiss for a few minutes longer, just enjoying the intimate company that the other brought.
“I was waiting for you to do that.” Kris said once they broke apart from each other.
“You sneaky devil you!” Adam said in mock shock. They stayed in a peaceful silence for a while. Kris still had his leg wrapped loosely around Adam’s middle and Adam had his right arm locked around Kris’s waist.
“Kris, I’m afraid of what’s going to happen to us once everything is over.” Adam confessed.
Kris buried his head in Adam’s chest and breathed him in. “Why?”
“Well, we’re going to be going our separate ways for a few weeks no matter who wins or loses and…I guess I’m afraid that there is going to be some second guessing on your part…you know after you and Katy really talk.”
Kris moved back a little so he could see Adam. “I told you that I do want to with you after the competition. No talk with Katy or anyone is going to change that. You have to have faith in me.”
Adam sighed. “I know…it’s just…” He trailed off.
“I know.” Kris nodded in understanding.
“I don’t want us to end up like me and my ex did. You know the yelling and regret, because Kris, to be completely honest, I don’t know I would live you weren’t with me. It pains me to even think about being away from you for those few short weeks before the tour, but for it to be forever, I’d die.”
“You’re so dramatic sometimes.” Kris laughed. “But seriously, babe, I’m not going anywhere. We’ll be apart for a few weeks, but then we have the tour and I was thinking that we could maybe…move in together?”
“Really?” Adam asked.
“Yeah, I’ll be moving here permanently anyway…so why not with you. We could live together and then after a while tell everyone about us. It’ll be nice, don’t you think?”
“Very nice.” Adam agreed and kissed him. “Look, I know I say it all of the time, but I really love you. You’re like my blessing in plaid and jean disguise.”
“Haha! And you’re my blessing in leather and glittery make-up disguise.” Kris teased before getting serious. “But I love you too, and don’t ever forget that, Adam Lambert.”
“I won’t, Kris Allen.”
And they kissed.
I can feel your halo