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I'm feeling depressed, and kind of horrible right now. Have you ever suddenly came to the realization that your life was completely meaningless, and that everything you were hoping for in the future, all the things you thought would suddenly happen and give your life meaning, were just never going to come? That's how I feel right now. I'm not a useful person, or a productive person, I'm just a stupid, lazy, worthless person and everything I have that vaguely resembles a talent will just be stagnated by how completely worthless I am. I'm never going to be able to drive, my comic will never see the light of day, my game translation will never be published, I'm never going to Japan, I'm just going to graduate college and stay here at home with my parents and eat pasta out of the box twice a day and occasionally go online and it will be exactly the same day after day and no one will ever know I existed. I hate my life, I hate myself, and I'm sorry for posting this because I know everyone hates angst on their livejournal but I feel like if I'm not heard by someone I'm just going to start screaming. I don't know what's going to happen but I just wish it would stop.