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[korkalitious]

Life has changed beyound anything I could ever fathim. Im at a Batt's house on my way home after 3 months of hell. I have done more then the average and kindov' regret it. I have dont extra shit that has really chnged me, I believe it is for the best though, most things are. Things in ym life are going to be different, or they wont be there at

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[katikat43]

Kristian,
I don't know when you will get this, and if you will
even read it, but I needed to write to you. I am so
sorry for the way I have acted towards you in the past
year....I should have acted like the friend I told you
I was. I have been terrible towards you. I am sorry.
As this BerthaRagu person has been saying, you deserve
better. I don't know if you will accept my apology or
if you will even care, but if you ever want to talk,
my cell number is 207-491-2093 and my dorm number is
778-7927.....If you send me your address, I will write
to you....I do want your friendship dear.........Hope
all is well and that God is watching over you.....

Love, Kati

p.s. heard you had feelings for vickie peacock.....

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[korkalitious]

Kati, now that verything is different, there is no forgiveness, everyone "knows" everything about me right? Wrong. I cared very much and gave up everything for alot of people, and when I l;earned that those things were being abused, I took action. My "love of my life" which was nothing more then a stab through the heart is not only gone, but about to learn a hellovalot about herself and those directly around her. Fun for her. But for you, I dont even know what to say, I thought that I was just taking it to far, but now, I see that everything I had done was a waste of time for you as well, go, go live your life how you want, I gave you an option you rejected it with scornful aggitation. There for, I hope you have a bright, fruitful future and may God grant you strength in you days to come. If I could 100% believe that you were being truethful, I would love to speak to you, but im afraid I cant see you being a friend to me after our last conversation, you made it very clear you didnt want to speak to me

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[katikat43]

so everything was a waste of time? no, my dear, it was just done at the wrong time.....you gave me an option after I had already made a choice.....

And about our last conversation.....the one where you called Tom/Seth's......I am sorry about......if I wasn't, I wouldn't be trying to apologize and set things right....I am sorry Kristian Alexander...whether not you believe me or not is up to you. I, too, hope you have a bright, happy and fruitful future....full of love, happiness, kids....you name it the works. I am sorry that you don't think I am being 100% truthful.....
Kati

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[korkalitious]

you have what you want. Im happy for you.

hi kristian

[flaimingsoul]

this is ally (i don't believe i'd given you my livejournal screen name).

based on your post, i'm not sure if i should even respond...because i'm not sure if you still consider me your friend, or if i am only part of this "childish ignorance" you will not tolerate. nevertheless, however things turn out, i wish you all of the best and i must admit that i miss you (strange coming from someone who only sees you once ever several months, i'd imagine). if you'd like, keep me posted. are your out of ait yet? ( i really hope i got that acronym right...i know you explained it to me over break, but that entire night was a blur.). and in case you ever want to post on my journal, i'm adding you to my friends list, so you can actually see what i post. if you want taken off the list, just tell me and i'll respectfully do so.

Re: hi kristian

[korkalitious]

no, i am glad you put me on your friends list, Im sorry I have not seen you yet, ive been spending alot of time with family, and in bangor. BUt I promise to talk to you soon.
Kris