A long time ago...

[kojima]

So Ian's gone, apparently. Even though he's remained such a big part of other people's lives, it really just seemed like he left me when he left Tilt. I never had any way to go see him, and by the time I finally did, it seemed... wrong. The first time I visited him any place that wasn't Crossroads, he just asked me plainly and simply, "Why the Hell

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[_rainbowdust]

Rejected and hurt = big ows.

Ouch.

I kinda know how that feels cos I'm the one leaving this time and I have no idea when I'll be back in Toronto. Mainly cos it's about 800$ to get back here on plane. And I'm in no hurry to come back to this city despite some of my friends saying how badly they're gonna miss me. But it's like, guys I've been here for years, all of highschool, first yr of uni, don't just appreciate me now. Know what I mean?
However, with that said, I think it's better to be the one leaving than the ones left behind.

In some ways I'm still childish and stuff, but from February to now I really feel I've grown up. And that leaving is such a good option, it's like something one SHOULD do in their 20's. Does that make any sense?

I hope you're okay, though.

[kojima]

I'm fine, my mood's got little to nothing to do with Ian leaving, to be honest. We haven't been close for years. I just feel... Wrong somehow. Like something isn't quite meshing together the way it should be. I'm ready for that to change, really. I'm... tired. Not in the sense of being physically tired, or mentally worn down, I feel spiritually drained. I haven't had a chance to recharge my batteries for a long, long time in that respect...

[_rainbowdust]

i'm sorry you feel that way. i've been there though. but it usually results in me feeling physically tired as a result.

you should get some 'rest' in that respect then. maybe a hiatus from some of your friends, eh? since that seems to be a drama department for you, as of late.

watch a good movie! watch iron man again! xD