such a thing as love
Title: Such a Thing as Love
Author: Hime cess_chan
Chapter[s]: One-shot
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: TegoPi
Summary: Uhm well...it's basically a songfic for the song ' Ai Nante '
A/N: I know we can have different interpretation for the song Ai Nante...Uhm...I think it's a bittersweet song but yeah...I had a difficult time understand the song's real meaning..So uhm...forgive me if my interpretation is quite different from yours. lol.
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Such a Thing as Love
Just how far have I walked?
If I look back behind me, I'll find a trail of tears
I got hurt, and lashed out in turn,
And now I've finally reached this place where you are
It all started out in the last quarter of 2003. Back then, I really didn't paid much attention. I was thinking of my friends and how I got stuck with people I barely knew. Why on earth will I be debuting with these people, that I thought. I was confused that I did whatever's ok for the group but never really cared that much.
Months and years passed and I finally came to realize the answers to my questions. These people--- people that I barely knew then--- are rare kind of gems. We are gems that are randomly picked to form a unique jewelry to outshine all the other jewels known to mankind. With this, I am very thankful that we're together.
I am quite blessed to have known people like them (even though I thought otherwise at the beginning). As time passes by, we all became close to each other and I really appreciated it. But then, I had never imagined that I can be THAT close to that particular boy.
It was just like magic. Everytime I look at him, I melt. My heart jumps for joy whenever he approaches me for some advice and I, in return, gives it to him without any hesitations. HELL. I'd gladly give myself to him anytime he says so. I'd say that it was his eyes and smile that got me into him. I'm sure fangirls would kill for those two. Dakara, I feel even more blessed because I was able to look into those eyes and receive his precious smiles.
Then one time, I got a rather hard hit on the head and I thought, this isn't right. He's a man. I, too, am a man. The things I've envisioned in the past is sooooo not just possible. And so, I tried to erase him from my mind... my heart.
Such a thing as love
It's only you
Who always demands for too much
Such a thing as love
If I don't have you, then there's no meaning to life
And I won't be able to live
I don't really know what kind of spell he had cast upon me. Even though I've tried really hard to forget my feelings for him, I still proved to be a failure in the end. And with that I realized that I couldn't ever forget the only person I've ever loved this way.
Yes, LOVE indeed. I can't even believe it myself but I learned to think otherwise as time passes. I love a man. No matter how wrong it is, I still can't help falling deeper into this love.
There were times when it seems that he doesn't even cared a bit about me. Then there's times that he'll get jealous over a girl I knew and he wouldn't talk to me for days (it's AGES for me) that I almost couldn't take it.
Those things are supposed to be enough to end this addiction and yet, I just ignored all of it. For I know that those imperfections are part of him and that makes him, the man I love, to be the kind of person he is now... The kind, in which a man like me couldn't ever live without.
Do you truly love me with your heart?
Even now, I feel insecure [about whether you truly love me] Yeah
On my own, I reached that place within my dreams
And when I got there, you were there, shivering
Sometimes I think that it'll be better if we'll just stop whatever it is between us. Truth to be told, the number of times I got hurt is greater than the times when we're happy. I doubt it if he ever got hurt. I can never do that. But then... Maybe he did got hurt at times but I was doing it unintentionally. For that, I want to say sorry to that person I love...
Going back to what I was thinking, this relationship caused me too much pain and so I've thought of putting a stop to this. But then again, that was just a thought... A thought I've tried putting into action but failed miserably.
I was just starting to explain my side when he suddenly burst into tears. I was surprised--- no, maybe more of shocked. I shouldn't even react like that for I knew that he's a very emotional person and yet, the tears falling from those abnormally large brown eyes really did the trick.
Don't cry
I won't ever let you go
Even if it means that I'll throw everything away
Even something like the future,
I can't see it at all if you're not here
I don't want that at all
Sighing in defeat, I locked him in my arms and let him cry against my chest. He was too close. Too close for comfort. Too close...to my heart.
I patted him on his back and buried my face in his hair. Finally, he calmed down after some time.
Sorry, I said. He gave me one of his heart-warming smiles in return and I felt really stupid. Stupid for even trying to erase him and everything we've shared in the past.
Slowly, he closed the gap between us and brushed his lips to mine. It was just a mere brush of lips and yet it left me feeling tingly all over.
I put my right hand on the back of his head and pulled him for another kiss. This time, it was deeper and longer. He moaned in protest when I drew back from the kiss and finally placed his hand on the back of my head to stop me from drawing back. I'm nearly out of breath this time and yet I still managed to think that if I were to die, I'll definitely choose this kind of death.
As we drew back form the kiss, he gave me another smile but this time, it was a teasing one. His smile disappeared when I carried him to the couch and laid him there. The bed can wait. For now, I just have to be with him or I'll never be the same again.
To hell with pains and sorrows. I'll endure all of it for the person I love. And now, as I look at him lying on the couch wearing a smile I knew would left a mark on my memory, I realized that I don't even care a thing about ANYTHING anymore. For as long as I have this man with me, my life's complete.
The morning rays of sunlight
Shone upon your sleeping face and I smiled, embarrassed
Because we were happy then
I wish that the love I felt during those days
Would continue forever...
It was just like a dream. Everything happened in a blink of an eye that I almost thought I've imagined all of it. ALMOST because... As I look to my right, I can see him sleeping peacefully with that smile I love still plastered on his face. I even told myself that this'd better be real or I'll never wake up just to continue this wonderful dream.
I placed my arm around his waist and held him closer, afraid that he'll suddenly disappear and I'll realize that this is indeed, a dream. He didn't wake up as I placed my arms around him but instead, buried his head upon my chest and inched a little bit closer. I smiled at this and as I held him, promised myself that in this second chance, I'll protect this thing between us,the thing they call LOVE and hopefully... be able to bring back eventually surpass the love and happiness we had in the past...
No matter how much I love you, it seems like it's never enough
Even something like my future, I can't see it if you're not there, and I don't want that at all
With this second chance, comes another series of joy,laughter here and there, intimate times and even sorrows and pain. Demo, I'll never ask the person I love to change his behavior (even though it's hurting me at times) cause I know that once he changes himself, he will surely be a different person from the guy I love and I don't want that... I might as well die than live a life with that person who isn't really the one I love.
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I hope everyone liked it. >.< It's all I can do for now accck.
Author: Hime cess_chan
Chapter[s]: One-shot
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: TegoPi
Summary: Uhm well...it's basically a songfic for the song ' Ai Nante '
A/N: I know we can have different interpretation for the song Ai Nante...Uhm...I think it's a bittersweet song but yeah...I had a difficult time understand the song's real meaning..So uhm...forgive me if my interpretation is quite different from yours. lol.
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Such a Thing as Love
Just how far have I walked?
If I look back behind me, I'll find a trail of tears
I got hurt, and lashed out in turn,
And now I've finally reached this place where you are
It all started out in the last quarter of 2003. Back then, I really didn't paid much attention. I was thinking of my friends and how I got stuck with people I barely knew. Why on earth will I be debuting with these people, that I thought. I was confused that I did whatever's ok for the group but never really cared that much.
Months and years passed and I finally came to realize the answers to my questions. These people--- people that I barely knew then--- are rare kind of gems. We are gems that are randomly picked to form a unique jewelry to outshine all the other jewels known to mankind. With this, I am very thankful that we're together.
I am quite blessed to have known people like them (even though I thought otherwise at the beginning). As time passes by, we all became close to each other and I really appreciated it. But then, I had never imagined that I can be THAT close to that particular boy.
It was just like magic. Everytime I look at him, I melt. My heart jumps for joy whenever he approaches me for some advice and I, in return, gives it to him without any hesitations. HELL. I'd gladly give myself to him anytime he says so. I'd say that it was his eyes and smile that got me into him. I'm sure fangirls would kill for those two. Dakara, I feel even more blessed because I was able to look into those eyes and receive his precious smiles.
Then one time, I got a rather hard hit on the head and I thought, this isn't right. He's a man. I, too, am a man. The things I've envisioned in the past is sooooo not just possible. And so, I tried to erase him from my mind... my heart.
Such a thing as love
It's only you
Who always demands for too much
Such a thing as love
If I don't have you, then there's no meaning to life
And I won't be able to live
I don't really know what kind of spell he had cast upon me. Even though I've tried really hard to forget my feelings for him, I still proved to be a failure in the end. And with that I realized that I couldn't ever forget the only person I've ever loved this way.
Yes, LOVE indeed. I can't even believe it myself but I learned to think otherwise as time passes. I love a man. No matter how wrong it is, I still can't help falling deeper into this love.
There were times when it seems that he doesn't even cared a bit about me. Then there's times that he'll get jealous over a girl I knew and he wouldn't talk to me for days (it's AGES for me) that I almost couldn't take it.
Those things are supposed to be enough to end this addiction and yet, I just ignored all of it. For I know that those imperfections are part of him and that makes him, the man I love, to be the kind of person he is now... The kind, in which a man like me couldn't ever live without.
Do you truly love me with your heart?
Even now, I feel insecure [about whether you truly love me] Yeah
On my own, I reached that place within my dreams
And when I got there, you were there, shivering
Sometimes I think that it'll be better if we'll just stop whatever it is between us. Truth to be told, the number of times I got hurt is greater than the times when we're happy. I doubt it if he ever got hurt. I can never do that. But then... Maybe he did got hurt at times but I was doing it unintentionally. For that, I want to say sorry to that person I love...
Going back to what I was thinking, this relationship caused me too much pain and so I've thought of putting a stop to this. But then again, that was just a thought... A thought I've tried putting into action but failed miserably.
I was just starting to explain my side when he suddenly burst into tears. I was surprised--- no, maybe more of shocked. I shouldn't even react like that for I knew that he's a very emotional person and yet, the tears falling from those abnormally large brown eyes really did the trick.
Don't cry
I won't ever let you go
Even if it means that I'll throw everything away
Even something like the future,
I can't see it at all if you're not here
I don't want that at all
Sighing in defeat, I locked him in my arms and let him cry against my chest. He was too close. Too close for comfort. Too close...to my heart.
I patted him on his back and buried my face in his hair. Finally, he calmed down after some time.
Sorry, I said. He gave me one of his heart-warming smiles in return and I felt really stupid. Stupid for even trying to erase him and everything we've shared in the past.
Slowly, he closed the gap between us and brushed his lips to mine. It was just a mere brush of lips and yet it left me feeling tingly all over.
I put my right hand on the back of his head and pulled him for another kiss. This time, it was deeper and longer. He moaned in protest when I drew back from the kiss and finally placed his hand on the back of my head to stop me from drawing back. I'm nearly out of breath this time and yet I still managed to think that if I were to die, I'll definitely choose this kind of death.
As we drew back form the kiss, he gave me another smile but this time, it was a teasing one. His smile disappeared when I carried him to the couch and laid him there. The bed can wait. For now, I just have to be with him or I'll never be the same again.
To hell with pains and sorrows. I'll endure all of it for the person I love. And now, as I look at him lying on the couch wearing a smile I knew would left a mark on my memory, I realized that I don't even care a thing about ANYTHING anymore. For as long as I have this man with me, my life's complete.
The morning rays of sunlight
Shone upon your sleeping face and I smiled, embarrassed
Because we were happy then
I wish that the love I felt during those days
Would continue forever...
It was just like a dream. Everything happened in a blink of an eye that I almost thought I've imagined all of it. ALMOST because... As I look to my right, I can see him sleeping peacefully with that smile I love still plastered on his face. I even told myself that this'd better be real or I'll never wake up just to continue this wonderful dream.
I placed my arm around his waist and held him closer, afraid that he'll suddenly disappear and I'll realize that this is indeed, a dream. He didn't wake up as I placed my arms around him but instead, buried his head upon my chest and inched a little bit closer. I smiled at this and as I held him, promised myself that in this second chance, I'll protect this thing between us,the thing they call LOVE and hopefully... be able to bring back eventually surpass the love and happiness we had in the past...
No matter how much I love you, it seems like it's never enough
Even something like my future, I can't see it if you're not there, and I don't want that at all
With this second chance, comes another series of joy,laughter here and there, intimate times and even sorrows and pain. Demo, I'll never ask the person I love to change his behavior (even though it's hurting me at times) cause I know that once he changes himself, he will surely be a different person from the guy I love and I don't want that... I might as well die than live a life with that person who isn't really the one I love.
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I hope everyone liked it. >.< It's all I can do for now accck.