On apathy, and painful nostalgia.

[koeji_laurant]

Wow, it's only been two weeks since I last posted something.  It's amazing how quickly things can change, isn't it?  I remember the amazing happiness I felt two weeks ago.  It was a new kind of happiness that I hadn't experienced in a long time.  Some of that excitement is still there, but it's unfortunate the way my heart has gone downhill.  These

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[karimatincan]

Sometimes, we all wish for that extra attention from someone we had once cared about it. Even I want to know that I exsist to people I wish I had never met. But I don't know much of the situation. Although you tell me much of your life, that's one thing you're very vague about.

I want to know what he knew. I want to know that secret side of you, but I know you wouldn't want to show it again.

Keep trying harder, but I don't think you should fret too much over him...but then again..I don't really know much of what happened.

[koeji_laurant]

I suppose I haven't had much of an opportunity to tell you everything that happened with him and me, regrettably. I'd like to tell you sometime, eventually, just between the two of us. I've never talked about it with anyone in my life.

As to the "secret side of me", I don't think it's anything that you don't already know, although most of the stuff that makes me who I am happened after him, so there's still that bulk I haven't talked about to anyone, and couldn't to him. I'm not afraid to show it to you once I'm given the opportunity, other than the fact that I'll probably come off all whiny and confusing. :P

I'm not fretting too much over it. I'll start fretting if he contacts me again/tries to. Then we'll see how things play out, I guess.
Thanks for commenting.~