ok, so basically what's the deal with you and Sean? why not? I know you both needed to be alone for a while and grow up, but you both seem to want each other?
My honest opinion is that we've done the back and forth so much that we both, throughout this time apart, have wanted eachother back and/or been scared to try. We each play one of those roles, but we can't get on the same page.
Also, he dated a girl he is in law school with a bit, and I think he knows she would be furious if he and I got back together, and that would cause drama with his friends at school. It's ridiculous, and he's losing my respect by choosing to keep the peace rather than give it a shot with someone he says he is completely in love with and can't imagine not having in his life.
But it's really all blah blah blah bullshit at this point. If he can't make some sort of effort beyond words that are losing meaning, then fuck him. It' a really shitty situation.
It is definitely a little scary, mostly the fear about not being a good enough rider, etc. I will post pics and video, I'm just waiting and trying not to jinx it!
The Sean stuff is just hopeless at this point I think. Focusing on my career and trying to look forward. Just wish I could meet a halfway decent guy to take my mind in a new direction.
You'll do fine with a new horse...have no worries.
Agree with the guy thing though...but in truth...after losing Keith...that was pretty much it for me.. Nobody will compare to him & the way he made me feel. Everyone from now on will be second best. He was who I was suppose to be with...end of story......
I'd be happy to find a job that gave me something to focus on....guys are out the window & I'm serious this time.
You were with Sean for a long time, babe. They say it takes about half the time of the total time you were together to get over someone, and even then do you really get over them?
It's okay if you're not there yet, mama. Everyone understands. You loved him. It's okay.
It's been awhile since we talked but I hope all is well otherwise.
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Also, he dated a girl he is in law school with a bit, and I think he knows she would be furious if he and I got back together, and that would cause drama with his friends at school. It's ridiculous, and he's losing my respect by choosing to keep the peace rather than give it a shot with someone he says he is completely in love with and can't imagine not having in his life.
But it's really all blah blah blah bullshit at this point. If he can't make some sort of effort beyond words that are losing meaning, then fuck him.
It' a really shitty situation.
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Don't know what to say about Sean...you've seen my blogs...I'm the last person to give advice on anyone's love life..
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The Sean stuff is just hopeless at this point I think. Focusing on my career and trying to look forward. Just wish I could meet a halfway decent guy to take my mind in a new direction.
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Agree with the guy thing though...but in truth...after losing Keith...that was pretty much it for me.. Nobody will compare to him & the way he made me feel. Everyone from now on will be second best. He was who I was suppose to be with...end of story......
I'd be happy to find a job that gave me something to focus on....guys are out the window & I'm serious this time.
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It's okay if you're not there yet, mama. Everyone understands. You loved him. It's okay.
It's been awhile since we talked but I hope all is well otherwise.
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