fic for queen_kat_tun and jamie-spotty

[formation_akame]

Title: 慕田峪 (Mùtiányù)
Pairing: Akame
Word count: ~4000
Rating: PG
Warnings: nothing traumatizing besides a sprinkle of angst
Notes: You should google image “Mutianyu.” It’s a beautiful portion of the Great Wall near Beijing. It’s not quite the tourist trap that other parts are cuz it’s more rugged. Thank you to my beta (sorry for my tangents) for

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[threewalls]

Ouch. This is gorgeous, slowly building up to Jin's recognition of what everything's meant, finally seeing Kame's side of things. But ouch.

[wintersdancer]

I loved how bittersweet this was. I really liked the setting and the pace, the fact that you jumped back and forth in time and how the surroundings were talking to Jin. ♥

[jamie_spotty]

Anon-san I just got home after a long long day at work. I promise I will read this first thing in the morning. I'm so excited. :))

[jamie_spotty]

I am so sorry for the late comment. Work has been consuming me and I was only able to read the whole fic right now.

Anon-san.... This is so wonderful. It made me feel all kind of emotions inside, sad being the biggest one of all. Because Jin finally realized he was hurting Kame all along but then it took him a long time to face it ;___; I just hope after Jin's soul searching expedition he'd go back to Kame and grovel at his feet the way he's supposed to.

You are getting a lot of my thoughts on this fic because I'm all flaliy right now.

Every time he comes, he feels like he’s reaching deeper and deeper into himself, searching for a profound realization that he knows lies inside. I guess it's been unraveling inside Jin for so long that the place could only call on what's needed to be let out.

Something about Jin not being able to go because of something holding him back made me realized how much Kame had suffered and that Jin needs to come into terms with himself first before facing what was needed.

Once he reaches the Wall,

[jamie_spotty]

“Mutianyu doesn't want me to tell you, I think,” Kamenashi says. He grins. Jin needs to find out for himself on what excatly he needs to realize or else the call of Mutianyu would be useles.

Me grinning despite of the story when Kame keeps on punching Jin everytime he kisses him. Jin should have realized that those punches meant something.

“I love you,” Jin breathes. He’s always loved Kame. My heart ached because of this. Jin, why are you taking so long to know what Kame meant in between?

Kamenashi probably recognized it before him - that he was a flight risk waiting to happen. FINALLY, FINALLY, FINALLY Jin!

“I didn’t want to be the one to clip your wings.” My heart is aching so much ebcause of this. Everything Kame was doing/saying had those subliminal messages that he wanted Jin to be happy no matter where he is or what he was doing. He didn't want to be the person who would hold him back from the things he wanted to do. Jin should have realized that but I'm just glad he did even if it took a lokng time

[soucieux]

Thank you so much for this comment. :) As I replied to queen-kat-tun, I'm really really happy that you enjoyed this. It really means a lot to me that you guys gave me such long and in depth happy comments!!!!

I just hope after Jin's soul searching expedition he'd go back to Kame and grovel at his feet the way he's supposed to. :( Omg this makes me sad. I just, ....how obvious it is (imo) that everyone is just moving on makes me upset, because KAT-TUN is SO nostalgic to me. Coming back to fandom after a few years of not paying attention has reminded me that time keeps moving and people keep changing. How this is related to what you said is that, a few years ago, I would have blindly believed that kizuna is kizuna, that you can't leave something you've been such a huge part of behind, but that's not necessarily the case. I think Jin left to go study, and thought he'd get it all out of his system so that he could stay in KAT-TUN, but things didn't quite happen that way, and so everyone just had to move on from there. And it's really sad but that's

[leen1707]

I don't even know why I feel so utterly sad after reading this story... Maybe because it is so final, and things that Jin recognized do not really change that.
The whole idea of the Wall calling to Jin to finally come and contemplate their past is beautiful, and how he really had to go there at the right moment. But it still doesn't cancel the sadness. The right decisions still hurt, right?
For some reason, when Kame said "I'm fine" in the end, all I could think was that he didn't show his stomach to prove it. And Jin had this habit of believing his words/actions blindly in the past already, and he doesn't get the slightest doubt once again. That maybe not at all what you intended for this moment - only how I felt...
Thank you!

[soucieux]

Thank you so much for this comment! Hmmm, at the end, no, I wasn't thinking of Kame in that way - but it does make sense, right? I wrote this pretty strictly from Jin's limited perspective, but there's a lot that I don't say about Kame's side. ;o; And honestly, when I think about it, I think his 'hurt' would be greater than Jin's. :(

I adore that you say it seems as though Jin believes Kame blindly, and doesn't have the slightest doubt again. It's like he trusts him completely, right? To me, that kind of blind trust is a hallmark of love. :)))

[yuuki_saya]

Uwaaa~! It broke my heart! But it was so beautiful...

Thank you, Anon-san!