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[kittytoes]

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Last week Gideon came in from drum lessons looking forlorn. His drum teacher Jeff is leaving Blue Bond and they will only have one more lesson. He was broadsided. He cried and I cried and I tried to explain how sometimes, if you really care about someone, you can be happy for them even when you're sad for yourself. (Jeff is taking a job teaching in

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[bleodswean]

This post makes me simultaneously happy and sad. I'm so glad that things are going well for your nuclear, including the tortoises! But I'm sad that there is now a distance between us. I had no idea your father is on chemo. I am so sorry to hear this. And I send you all my love and prayers. I understand dealing with a mother's hysteria. It's terrible and thought-provoking and absolutely filled with utter helplessness. I hope your mother gets through it and becomes stronger not weaker. Life is not an easy thing, is it. *HUGS*

[kittytoes]

Yeah, I actually have posted about it, but even in my day to day, I think I've been adjacent to so much cancer news it bleeds together. My mom has lymphoma, which is not being treated yet, as she is generally asymptomatic. My dad had operable colon cancer close to 20 years ago which was found to have metastasized to his lungs. He's been put on a pretty aggressive chemo schedule which he been enduring surprisingly well thus far (it's been 3 months, I believe?), but the affects are accumulating, not surprisingly.

It is all difficult, but I am learning things.

[bleodswean]

*hugs* I'm sorry if I missed this news. It is terrible for everyone. And yes, I would say the effects are exponential. At least that's how its been for my father. I'm so sorry your family is mired in this. I wish you and them all the best sooner than later! Be strong, K.

[kittytoes]

Oh, I'm the one neglectful one here, to be sure! I am so so sorry you have this to deal with too. I only have one generally dumb silent brother who ads no drama at least. It is all... world altering. I am finding the feelings of dread have to be dealt with and maybe that's good? I don't know. The feeling of inevitability is hard. Sometimes **and I know this is AWFUL** I wish for a dramatic Thelma and Louise sort of end for them. I am much more heart sick at the thought of the survivor than the one I lose first.

[thistle_verse]

Thinking of you and your parents! I hope you all get a break from scary health stuff. I'm totally with you on the nuclear terror stuff. Now that we're in Hawaii I have this constant pit in my stomach, thinking of what could happen here, wondering if we did something horrible bringing our kids here. People in Clint's office are stockpiling food and water. I'm so angry that we don't have a serious adult president. Ugh, I could cry right now just thinking about it.

Anyway. Enough. I'm happy to hear that the new school year is going so well for the boys!

Black Mirror is SO dark, yes! I loved the episode with Hayley Atwell and Domnhall Gleason, eve though it's sad, and wait until San Junipero! It's glorious and lovely.

❤️

[kittytoes]

I have been thinking of you! I *totally* get your fears. Maybe a bit of preparedness isn't a bad idea, being on an island and all...? I hope you can find some calm in the beauty of the nature there. How are the kids dealing???

I can't stop thinking about the recorded memories episode! It's all such great food for thought. It says a lot that we are all carrying around this anxiety about our phones and social media...