I think it's normal to look back on what might have been. Sometimes, it's normal to wish for what we once had. Still, at the end of the day, be true to who you really are, no matter who that is.
"Mother" is definitely something that has a lot of definitions within it as it is.
Oi, I had to go back and make sure of the word "definitions." The word I thought I read at first I just knew couldn't be correct - and would've been much grosser.
I have gone through this conflict, and I made a choice to live the life I live now. But occasionally I ask myself if I chose this life, or if I just told myself I did, so I don't have to face the other me that could have been.
There is peace at the end of this entry, and that is comforting, because the rest is kind of painful... in a good way.
I would not say I'm struggling now with this thought, the piece is about that moment of conflict within you, when youre life is changing, has changed and you don't know how you feel about it.
Thank you for sharing this perspective, the "everything isn't always rosy in motherhood" perspective. I'm at the age where my friends are having babies (and I have quite a few older friends, with slightly older children), but it'll be a few years before that's the plan for me.
I must confess to being slightly confused, though, how this relates to the topic -- is it keep calm and end this version of me? Sorry, it's probably just my own head, it's been a bit fuzzy.
I love all the lessons you drew out of that boy approaching you, though, that's really important stuff. Well done you!
I know it is not at all obvious how this relates to the topic. My thought process was that the "keep calm and..." thing is so cliche, and then how my life has at times felt like a cliche, and then this is what came from those thoughts.
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Oi, I had to go back and make sure of the word "definitions." The word I thought I read at first I just knew couldn't be correct - and would've been much grosser.
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There is peace at the end of this entry, and that is comforting, because the rest is kind of painful... in a good way.
Thank you for this.
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I must confess to being slightly confused, though, how this relates to the topic -- is it keep calm and end this version of me? Sorry, it's probably just my own head, it's been a bit fuzzy.
I love all the lessons you drew out of that boy approaching you, though, that's really important stuff. Well done you!
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