I don't see any other way to interpret this as but the cathedral being my internal spiritual house. You know the amount of religious angsting I do. I think this means my spirituality might have Jesus as the religious fallback position, but it's never going to be orthodox in any sense of the word.
As you replied to caprine, I'm not surprised you're exhausted after a night like that. Apart from the convoluted mental activity, you were tensing muscles (paralysis) and trying to speak.
I hope you have something in your repertoire to help you relax tonight. Personally, I like to pre-order my dreams before falling asleep.
Sleep paralysis is a normal phase of sleep, a safety measure built into our brains to keep us from getting hurt by acting out dreams. That I managed to try to speak while in that state shows that I was starting to emerge from REM anyway. Steve says that the time in between when I was trying to talk the first time and the time when I finally woke up was about 16 minutes, so this was a long dream too.
I'm wondering about going back to church sometimes. The ELCA Lutherans down the street top my list for churches to try. I just feel kind of like a hypocrite because I disbelieve most of the Bible (call it the Big Book of Hebrew Folk Tales) and invite other deities into my spirituality, deities who I do not see as all powerful or even immortal. This disqualifies me from Christianity and while I might want to attend a church I don't want my presence to offend believers.
You so need to be able to BEAM IN to MCCT each Sunday. Because, in Brent's words, there's nothing hypocritical about being at one end, in the middle, or the other end between outright scepticism and belief that the Bible is the literal word of God. It's also a part of his Big Tent philosophy, that our church is big enough to allow people with many differing interpretations to mingle under one roof, as long as there is respect for all opinions
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For a "big tent" approach I don't need MCCT because I can just hit up my local Universalist Unitarians. They have wiccan groups, even, although Wicca is definitely not my spiritual path.
ELCA is the liberal Lutherans. The local minister is a Chicana and ELCA is a welcoming community, which means gays and lesbians are welcome to be out without fear of censure.
There is also http://themetchurch.org, the MCC in San Diego. I have no feeling on it one way or the other.
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I hope you have something in your repertoire to help you relax tonight. Personally, I like to pre-order my dreams before falling asleep.
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I'm wondering about going back to church sometimes. The ELCA Lutherans down the street top my list for churches to try. I just feel kind of like a hypocrite because I disbelieve most of the Bible (call it the Big Book of Hebrew Folk Tales) and invite other deities into my spirituality, deities who I do not see as all powerful or even immortal. This disqualifies me from Christianity and while I might want to attend a church I don't want my presence to offend believers.
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ELCA is the liberal Lutherans. The local minister is a Chicana and ELCA is a welcoming community, which means gays and lesbians are welcome to be out without fear of censure.
There is also http://themetchurch.org, the MCC in San Diego. I have no feeling on it one way or the other.
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