[One-Shot] As the shadows grow longer
Title: As the shadows grow longer...
Author: Kira_Shadow
Fandom: Kis-my-Ft2, A.B.C.
Pairings: Sort of One-sided Totsuka Shota + Kitayama Hiromitsu, Hirosuke
Rating: PG 15+
Warnings: Unbeta-ed, Dark-ish, Angst-ish...?
Disclaimer: Not mine...*siigh* The Song was taken from the musical soundtrack of "Elisabeth" and the lyrics used are a rough translation of the original German lyrics into crappy English...the original lyrics are included at the end of the fic.
Comments: If this were to be a crack fic, there would've been mentionings of STDs but as this is supposed to be serious...er...well yeah... (only a few people might get what I am referring to here...*lol*) The only reason to choose Totsuka here is...because I couldn't think of anyone half-way legal to put into this happy little threesome and I wanted it to be some kind of Hirosuke fic and not an Akamepi (which would've fit the lyrics as well...dont'cha think?)...nya...
Dedicated to: sunkissed_chica because it's Hirosuke!, cold_jade because I probably rambled about it during our msn conversation yesterday *lol*, arayce7 *chuuu* and of course kaycchi ♥ *rabu*
Do you still remember the thrill we felt,
When the two of us danced
You need me
Yes, you need me
Totsuka waited patiently at the small restaurant they’d promised to meet at. It had been a while since he and Hiromitsu had gone out together. And he knew why that was. A certain person was occupying his friend’s thoughts constantly now…and had thus taken away Hiromitsu from him…
When the other had first talked to him about it, he had been shocked at first and then dread had settled in the pit of his stomach. Needless to say, Totsuka had been less than thrilled about hearing the news. And Hiromitsu had seemed obvious to it.
It had hurt. It still did…but he wasn’t about to give up. After all, it wasn’t too late to move, yet. And moving was just what he had planned to do today. If only Hiromitsu would come already. The waiting was making him edgy.
Another five minutes passed and Totsuka heaved a sigh. Staring ahead blankly, he remembered the time when the two of them had gotten to know each other. Hiromitsu had always stuck out from the others…like a very bright star amidst a sea of light bulbs. They became fast friends, both sharing similar interests…and since they lived in the same quarter of the city, they often went home together when work permitted it.
Even the passing years hadn’t changed much of that routine until the last year. The group Kis-my-Ft2 was pushed towards the spotlight slowly. Newly formed, even though out of two old groups, it gave them a new light and a new look.
His own group A.B.C. had been founded long ago…so even though they did have a big fanbase of their own, there weren’t a lot of new people joining…
But Kis-my-Ft2 suddenly drew people in. With the merging of two groups, the members changed as well and slowly, their characters emerged…and it made everything more interesting for the fans. Something new always drew people in.
Two people quickly ‘split’ away from the group, forming the head, the leading positions. One was of course Kitayama Hiromitsu. The other one, by his side, was Fujigaya Taisuke. It had surprised Totsuka to say the least.
Hiromitsu had talked about the other during and after the Arashi concert they had back-danced for…but somehow the other hadn’t seemed like…much.
He himself only knew the other from practice and other brief encounters among the Juniors, since Kawaii, his fellow member of A.B.C., seemed to get along well with the other. But now…they kept close to their group most of the time, teaching the younger ones how to skate.
You’d often stumble upon the - now 7 - boys of Kis-my-Ft2 in the gym where they practiced skating and most of the time you’d see Hiromitsu and Taisuke quarrelling about one move or another, just like an old, married couple. Sometimes you’d also see them completely in synch, both of them doing something simultaneously without noticing or finishing each other’s sentences.
Or ordering food for each other…something Totsuka had used to do with Hiromitsu.
Admit it, you love me more
Than the man by your side
And even though you seem to give him more
You are pulling him into the night
“Sorry I’m late…would you forgive me if I said I overslept?” finally, after another ten minutes Hiromitsu came into the restaurant.
One of Totsuka’s eyebrows went up, “Sleeping? At this time of the day?”
“I was tired…” the elder pushed a strand of hair behind his ear. A little gesture that revealed more than it should have under normal circumstances.
Totsuka snorted, “I see you had company…”
A hand flew up to the spot on the neck. “Shit…did he leave a mark?”
Glass clattering back down onto the table, Totsuka spluttered, “Excuse me, did you just say ‘he’? Please tell me you-”
“Actually…” Hiromitsu looked down, a slight hint of embarrassment was visible on his face when he continued, “I wanted to talk to you about that today…You know, you’ve always told me that me sleeping around wasn’t good and I should go and find someone to settle down with, at least for more than a week…? Well…you know I did…I never thought it would be with a guy…but it just happened…and…he’s lasted longer than anyone else. Okay, I have to admit that this isn’t exactly difficult but it’s been more than four months now and…I think that says something.”
‘Don’t say his name…don’t say his name…’ Totsuka prayed silently but a part of him already knew that this was the bitter truth…
“I’ll have to tell Taipi not to bite me where it can be seen the next time…” he rubbed the hickey gently, almost lovingly. It made Totsuka sick…
“How come you suddenly chose to be with him? This seems so out of the blue…why didn’t you tell me? How many people know of this? And…why…why him?” why him and why not me? Why did I lose to him?
A light laugh escaped Hiromitsu. “So many questions at once…I’ll try to answer them one by one…so…why I chose to be with him? We’ve been in the same group for so long and ever since we got to know each other better…we just noticed how we matched in some points and…working together all the time also brought us closer…I know there are other people who’d match these criteria…and so…why it was Taipi…”
He paused for a few moments, thinking. “Actually…I don’t really know…it just happened somehow. I kept thinking about him…and one day Nikaido asked me why I hadn’t asked Taipi already…since he seemed to be waiting for me to do so…Well, so I did and we’ve been together ever since…the rest of the group encouraged us. So they know. And now you know it…I wanted to tell you…but somehow…I wanted to make sure first…or you’d just tell me how it was one of my flings again.”
Truth be told, Totsuka felt the strong urge to do just that.
Still…why? Didn’t he know Hiromitsu better than the other? Hadn’t they been closer than Hiromitsu and Taisuke had ever been? Was Hiromitsu blind?
“Have you told him about the KITTY GYM project and you going to America with us…? Will your relationship survive that? Absences may make the heart grow fonder but maybe the distance will have the reversed effect?”
Frowning, Hiromitsu nodded, “I did tell him about Johnny’s plans for me…and he told me in return that he’d be busy with a drama…but…I’m pretty confident this time. I think this is the right thing…I think we’ll still be together after this.”
When had the other changed like this? Totsuka didn’t understand…where was the careless player? The unfaithful gigolo and ladykiller who didn’t know that the word ‘commitment’ even existed?
Totsuka doubted that this part of Hiromitsu’s personality had just vanished…it was still there somewhere. He’d just have to wait and bide his time until they broke up. This was just a temporary thing…something new an exiting. So Hiromitsu was still serious about it…but it would pass.
The shadows grow longer
Night falls before your day even begins
The shadows grow longer
The world dies with you - do not hold on to it
He’d wait and bide his time. That was what he told himself over and over again. It wouldn’t be long until the relationship would break. And when Hiromitsu fell into darkness afterwards…he’d be there to shine…
Telling himself so, he tried to live through the almost tearful goodbye at the airport. No kisses were exchanged, since they were in public but one was able to read a lot into the looks and gazes the two gave each other.
In the end, Takki had to pry Hiromitsu out of Taisuke’s arms - or the other way around? - so they wouldn’t miss the plane.
With each step, Hiromitsu took - had to take - away from Taisuke…Totsuka’s inner turmoil settled down a little bit more. This was his chance now…his turn to move.
OWARI
A/N: Open end…? Well…I’ll just excuse my lack of creativity at this point with ‘room for your own imagination’…there, didn’t that sound good? XD
Here are the original German lyrics of the Song:
Die Schatten warden länger (Act 1)
Weißt du noch wie wir erbebten
Als wir zwei im Tanze schwebten
Du brauchst mich
Ja, du brauchst mich
Gib doch zu, dass du mich mehr liebst
Als den Mann an deiner Seite
Auch wenn du ihn scheinbar mehr gibst
Du ziehst ihn in die Nacht
Die Schatten werden länger
Es wird Abend eh dein Tag begann
Die Schatten werden länger
Mit dir stirbt die Welt
Halt dich nicht fest daran
[EDIT 2009]: The official English translation has been released now, called "The Shades of Night". I will put up the youtube link or a download link if anyone wants to listen to it?